My own way
If I think about my school, I entered an elite university. "Elite" is what I threw away when I was in high school. Going to a good school, getting a prestigious job, and earning a lot of money--if the life is composed only of them, it's BS. But I noticed that I was strongly influenced by those ideas and that kind of atmosphere in my school (actually I guess only in my department). I was like, I came to a good school, so I should have a good job. I SHOULD? for what, for who?
It's easy for me to let other people's ideas control my mind. So weak! I decided not to choose the general way (good school, work right after university, live only in Japan) and decided to find my own way, so I should stick to my decision for myself.
hmm.. I might easily forget this then I will become just negative. I need to do something in order not to forget..
(-公-)
Two years
I think that it takes about two years to examine and get some ideas about if the thing you chose is really right for you or not. Since I found myself like Economics and Accounting in 2004, it's been about two years. I like Economics; I feel that I'm gradually gaining some knowledge to analyze Economic incidence. It seems I'm finally understanding Econ theories. What about Accounting.. I think I like it, but I didn't enough time or chance to examine that. I haven't taken many upper-division accounting class here yet, but I need to decide if I really want to work in the accounting field. I was thinking I really liked accounting, and it would be really cool to be working in accounting firms as an CPA. Very competitive, and high prestigious job. I didn't doubt that I'm going to work in an accounting firm. Now, I'm getting to know more and more about what it is going to be like if I work in the field. I don't know if I'm really ready for it.
I just went through the hard time about my school and my major. I think it is kind of stupid and pointless if I need to rush to make a decision without me being happy about it. I don't know if I should keep applying for full time jobs that have deadlines this month.
Gaining weight.. again
I gained more than 1.5 kg (about 4 lb). (x_x；). I didn't have chance to go to the gym for about two weeks because of class and job hunting. I was studying all day long this weekend too. I felt dangerous about my lifestyle now. so I did Yoga today. It's been a really long time since I did it last time,. My body is just not flexible now... I always feel my body is lighter after I did Yoga. So I hope I can keep doing it regularly.
Accounting
I went to a meeting held by the accounting society at my school. I've heard about many important things regarding the jobs regarding the accounting field. I thought if I attended this society more often since last year, I would have had internship in accounting. But I know it was impossible because all I could right after I entered this school was adjusting to a new environment and getting used to the harder situations. I'm already used to, but it is most likely that there is no international students in the student group I attended today. So nobody there knows about the job hunting situation for international students. I'm tryin to stand on the same position with native speakers but maybe it might not be a good idea. I already have disadvantage about Enlgish and visa. I wish I was born in here or at least I was a permanent resident.
Anyway I will try to send my resume to as many companies as possible. (^-^)ノ~~
Studying♪
I could study for a long time after class^^. It was good I didn't go back to my place. In my place, there are so many distractions so it is hard for me to concentrate on studying there. I will try to stay in school to study from now on.
kanashibari in class
Hmm.. I had an auditing class and it was sort of the first lecture because the very first class last week was just an introduction and the last class was canceled. In that class, there are many students who did internship in summer at biggest accounting firms in this country. In my mind, I know that I should not consider about applying for those big accounting firms because of my English, and my grade, and also the fact that those firms make international students sign up for the program in which they need to work in the branches of their country eventually. But I felt like I'm left out from the world by falling behind about jub hunting and internship. I got really stressed out and felt sick in the class, so I couldn't take notes.
One of the reasons why I feel rush and upset this much is the fraternity meeting I attended yesterday. Students there were mostly junior or sophomore, and seniors are officers and cabinet in the society. I got to talk to officers and found out that they were continuing working in acconting firms in which they did internship in summer. They are still around 21 years old, and they already got a head start in their carreer. I know I should not compare them with me, but I can't help looking back on the past years I spent.
I still don't have strong mind about what I am. Always influenced by others. The recent hard time often makes me think of myself. It's good but it's hard.
What am I?
Slipped in bathroom
October
I can't believe 2006 is going to finish in only three months. I'm waiting for next summer but if the time keeps passing this quickly, I'm going to be 30 soon. >_<
I'm studying for class-. head start-