My own way

If I think about my school, I entered an elite university. "Elite" is what I threw away when I was in high school. Going to a good school, getting a prestigious job, and earning a lot of money--if the life is composed only of them, it's BS. But I noticed that I was strongly influenced by those ideas and that kind of atmosphere in my school (actually I guess only in my department). I was like, I came to a good school, so I should have a good job. I SHOULD? for what, for who?

It's easy for me to let other people's ideas control my mind. So weak! I decided not to choose the general way (good school, work right after university, live only in Japan) and decided to find my own way, so I should stick to my decision for myself.

hmm.. I might easily forget this then I will become just negative. I need to do something in order not to forget..

(-公-)