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I can't write what I decide anymore because I can't really continue it and I will keep saying the same determination over and over.

I'm stressed out and I have strong anxiety right now. I can't even cry in my place since I have a roommate. Why do I need to have hard time this much. I'm tired.

Y(>_<、)Y

easy to get nervous

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I was like that while the photographer was taking my graduation portrait. I don't know why I get nervous that easily. It's just taking pictures and I'm a customer, so no need to get nervous at all. hmm.. I guess my face in the pictures will be strange..

Anyways, while I wore the gown and cap, I realized that I'm actually graduating from a university in the U.S. It took about 6 years since I started to research about foreign universities till now. -.- loooong way.

I still have 2 quartes and 1 summer class to finish, so I need to keep going---

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Thursday

I don't have any class on Friday, so Thursday is the last day of the school week this quarter. 3-day weekend.. it sounds really good, but actually not that good. I'm taking a 3-hour class on Wednesday and have an income tax session in the evening a week, so Monday through Wednesday is pretty hectic. Fortunately, Thursday class is from noon, so I don't need to wake up early.

oh.. I found out that all the finals this quater are from 8am even though none of the classes I'm taking is from early morning. I think I'm gonna die..

+ I feel sick a bit today..
(TωT)

Income Tax

I'm participating in a volunteer program this quarter. It is about helping low income tax payers file tax returns. I need to attend sessions and take an exam to be certified as a volunteer. If I pass that exam, I will actually help people. The session is always until 9pm, once a week. So by the time the session ends, I'm pretty much exausted.

But a good thing is that I'm taking individual tax class, so the things are overlapped in the class and session. I hope I can be an expert in tax. I didn't like the auditing class I took, so I really want to get to like tax. (otherwise, I don't really like accounting..)

Anyways, I will be super busy till midterms finish!
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My first car!

o(^▽^)o
Finally---- I got a car!! When I came here first time, I thought I will never drive. I can't believe I'm actually driving!!

I thought I would be able to drive better because I went to a driver's school in Japan. But my driving is soooo dangerous. I already had dangerous situations twice. hmm.. I think I really need to have somebody help me practice driving..

midterm is coming up!
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Things to do

I feel like I have sooooooo many things to do for school, car hunting, and internship. But I'm not motivated to get them done. I think my state now is really dangerous. >_< I hope I will get some power to work on them soon..

(￣Д￣；；

TV is good!!!

Last week I bought a TV. I chose a really cheap, no brand TV. It was under $100, and had only three-month warranty, so I added 4-year performance warranty that is provided by the electronics shop for $10. I found that 10-15 channels can be on, even though the quality of the picture is not that good because of the chaper antenna. I'm so glad that I can watch news in the morning, and also watching TV helps my English listening skill.

Besides TV, I'm debating which car I should get. I almost decided to buy civic, but my friend told me about fit. Fit seems as safe as civic. My friend said it is much cheaper than civic, but actually it is not because demand for fit is really high and it is not in stock in dealers. And one dealer suggested about collora. I thought that car is pretty bad and not safe, according to articles I read. But it seems no problem about safety. Collora is cheapest and about $2,000 different from the price of civic.

I'm floating between cars.. hmmm The accounting firm I applied for before contacted me to know what is my situation now. I've gotta get a car soon and start working!!
ヽ(゜▽、゜)ノ

Winter quarter started

Did I really go to Japan? Things I saw in Japan this winter are as if I had seen them a long time ago. I'm back in California again. I won't be able to go to Japan until the student visa and temporary work visa expire. I have one and half years. I wonder what will happen during this period of time. I hope I can get a job and that company will support me get a work visa.

New year's eve

I can't believe 2006 is ending in two hours! I hope next year will be a busy but fruitful year.

ganbaru zou!!o(^▽^)o

Anxiety

I really can't sleep well nowadays. Even if I go to bed around 3 am, I wake up around 8 am with strong anxiety. I think that I have that feeling because school is too difficult and even if I take all day to study, I still can't get a good grade, and also because I can't see what kind of job I'm going to have in this country at this point. I'm falling apart.

I know all I can do is just make efforts for my goals about school and job. And I have this feeling normally only in the morning. But when I have the feeling, it is really strong. I try not to seriously think too much when I have it, and then it goes away if I succeed, and comes back later. I think I really need to find a way to handle this better, otherwise I'm going to wear myself out.