When you lost the faith
人，有无至尽的贪。
最初的梦想不是只是在台上唱歌吗？
最初的梦想不是只是用歌声感动大家吗？
最初的梦想不是只是可以永远的唱歌吗？
为什么会这样？
初衷呢？被钱财遮住了吗？被名誉冲淡掉了吗？
以后，我也会这样这样吧。
好像现实生活中，不值钱的初衷，可以随意遗忘掉。
如果有一天，我忘了支撑我到现在的初衷，又有谁会提醒我？
最初的梦想不是只是在台上唱歌吗？
最初的梦想不是只是用歌声感动大家吗？
最初的梦想不是只是可以永远的唱歌吗？
为什么会这样？
初衷呢？被钱财遮住了吗？被名誉冲淡掉了吗？
以后，我也会这样这样吧。
好像现实生活中，不值钱的初衷，可以随意遗忘掉。
如果有一天，我忘了支撑我到现在的初衷，又有谁会提醒我？
Blur, or maybe not.
Yes, I'm blur. I leave my things unattended, I forget where I place my stuff, I dont remember events/deadlines/birthdays.
But I'm glad, that even though I'm blur in my everyday life, I'm clear about what I wanna pursue. Okay, maybe not exactly very clear, but I do have a certain map in my mind alr.
Since pri sch, I know which sec sch I want.
Since sec sch, I know what subjects I want, and what tertiary education I want.
It's always THAT clear.
I know I know I know.
I know I want Anderson, I know I want TP, and I know I want scholarship, and I know I want NTU.
I know I know I know.
I'm not blur about my life goals.
;D
But I'm glad, that even though I'm blur in my everyday life, I'm clear about what I wanna pursue. Okay, maybe not exactly very clear, but I do have a certain map in my mind alr.
Since pri sch, I know which sec sch I want.
Since sec sch, I know what subjects I want, and what tertiary education I want.
It's always THAT clear.
I know I know I know.
I know I want Anderson, I know I want TP, and I know I want scholarship, and I know I want NTU.
I know I know I know.
I'm not blur about my life goals.
;D
ho ho ho
I dont know where focus went to.
I want it to come back asap.
or maybe, idk what happened to me, i'm beginning to dgaf to grades/studies.
not entirely lah. just beginning to.
tell-tale signs?
1) very very low level of stress during msts. never happened before. even when I'm aware I can't study first, the panick strikes lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
2) not touching reports early. lol. and abit worried. started panicking only until second week of hols, lol.
3) completely relaxed during msts. I swear and I curse. the only paper I actually did get very worried is a&p only :(
4) dgaf to 15% of 30% of a&p report. gahhh.
and more. I can't think of them.
maybe because alot of events/incidents have told me, no one cares about grades. It's merely a passport to higher education, and means absolutely nothing sometimes.
maybe because I'm aware that even if my grades continue to drop, it most likely won't fall below 3.6 i.e. I can still go uni. (ah, I'm sorry to sound so bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ><)
but I'm pretty sure, it's not because I'm complacent, that's why I'm feeling like that. :D
feeling hungry alittle bit!
lol!
good day my friends!
I want it to come back asap.
or maybe, idk what happened to me, i'm beginning to dgaf to grades/studies.
not entirely lah. just beginning to.
tell-tale signs?
1) very very low level of stress during msts. never happened before. even when I'm aware I can't study first, the panick strikes lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
2) not touching reports early. lol. and abit worried. started panicking only until second week of hols, lol.
3) completely relaxed during msts. I swear and I curse. the only paper I actually did get very worried is a&p only :(
4) dgaf to 15% of 30% of a&p report. gahhh.
and more. I can't think of them.
maybe because alot of events/incidents have told me, no one cares about grades. It's merely a passport to higher education, and means absolutely nothing sometimes.
maybe because I'm aware that even if my grades continue to drop, it most likely won't fall below 3.6 i.e. I can still go uni. (ah, I'm sorry to sound so bastard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ><)
but I'm pretty sure, it's not because I'm complacent, that's why I'm feeling like that. :D
feeling hungry alittle bit!
lol!
good day my friends!
我很饿！
其实，突然发现家里的经济状况真的不是很好。
几乎是勉强过的去的那种。
表面上好像还好，但是真的不好，哈哈。
我真的要开始省省！！！！！！！！！！！
老爸说，不要想以后会如何，管好现在！
说的也是。
现在的我是幸福的，是满足的，是快乐的。
我每呼的一口气，是用多少钱都买不了的！
就当作是自我安慰吧！
钱，以后再赚！：D
几乎是勉强过的去的那种。
表面上好像还好，但是真的不好，哈哈。
我真的要开始省省！！！！！！！！！！！
老爸说，不要想以后会如何，管好现在！
说的也是。
现在的我是幸福的，是满足的，是快乐的。
我每呼的一口气，是用多少钱都买不了的！
就当作是自我安慰吧！
钱，以后再赚！：D
we dream the same dreams under the same sky
thanks junsu for making me all teary-eye while waiting for bus.
hi motivation of 2008, welcome back to my life.
ahhh nine six nineeee! im lateeeee!
p.s. this blog is now my twitter replacement
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hi motivation of 2008, welcome back to my life.
ahhh nine six nineeee! im lateeeee!
p.s. this blog is now my twitter replacement
iPhoneからの投稿