Bye report
I recalled when dad suffered a stroke in 2008, and that day was one of the nightmare-ish days in my life. Although it was the second time, oh wait, yes, precisely because it was the second time, I was terrified. The thought of losing my dad was..... petrifying. I cried for idk how many hours straight. Then, I learnt that in certain situations, tears will never stop flowing.
I called germaine, my then best friend, and we were on the phone (after that public phone cos my phone batt died) for two hours i think, and a large part of the conversation was just her hearing me crying.
After we ended the call, I tried to find someone to listen to my cutie sobs, haha I plucked up my courage and called my brother who was sleeping. Okay, now that's the main point of my post.
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE COULD FALL ASLEEP. Was he confident that dad would recover (i swear i was damn pessimistic then)? Was he too tired (because he was on sip i think)? Was he trying to escape reality by sleeping(he sleeps alot)? I dont understand why. Even till today. I will never get the courage to ask him, and looking at our current semi-cold war, we wont be talking normally until....... next year I guess?
Oh gosh, I'm gonna be like an only child for idk how long :(
I called germaine, my then best friend, and we were on the phone (after that public phone cos my phone batt died) for two hours i think, and a large part of the conversation was just her hearing me crying.
After we ended the call, I tried to find someone to listen to my cutie sobs, haha I plucked up my courage and called my brother who was sleeping. Okay, now that's the main point of my post.
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE COULD FALL ASLEEP. Was he confident that dad would recover (i swear i was damn pessimistic then)? Was he too tired (because he was on sip i think)? Was he trying to escape reality by sleeping(he sleeps alot)? I dont understand why. Even till today. I will never get the courage to ask him, and looking at our current semi-cold war, we wont be talking normally until....... next year I guess?
Oh gosh, I'm gonna be like an only child for idk how long :(
noooo, dont make me write reports anymore
Found my third bestie in tp - Roberrrrt.
Told him my recent struggles, and I know he could give me the advice I needed.
He said, it's not a matter of whether you can do it or not, it's a matter of choice. Choose to accept people for who they are, or choose to complain why they are like that.
He knew I know what to do, which is to learn how to accept the different personalities and character, and he asked why I don't execute my plans, since I already knew what to do.
But but, easier said than done yo.
Told him my recent struggles, and I know he could give me the advice I needed.
He said, it's not a matter of whether you can do it or not, it's a matter of choice. Choose to accept people for who they are, or choose to complain why they are like that.
He knew I know what to do, which is to learn how to accept the different personalities and character, and he asked why I don't execute my plans, since I already knew what to do.
But but, easier said than done yo.
厕所！
渐渐的有些习惯变成不习惯。
有些人你不再联络。
有些老地方你不再去。
有些事情你不再做。
有些食物你不再吃。
不做不去不吃不联络、不是因为做不到去不到吃不到联络不到、而是因为不想了、不喜欢了、不爱了。
将来、 我又会不做不去不吃不联络什么哪里食物谁？
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