Bye report
I recalled when dad suffered a stroke in 2008, and that day was one of the nightmare-ish days in my life. Although it was the second time, oh wait, yes, precisely because it was the second time, I was terrified. The thought of losing my dad was..... petrifying. I cried for idk how many hours straight. Then, I learnt that in certain situations, tears will never stop flowing.
I called germaine, my then best friend, and we were on the phone (after that public phone cos my phone batt died) for two hours i think, and a large part of the conversation was just her hearing me crying.
After we ended the call, I tried to find someone to listen to my cutie sobs, haha I plucked up my courage and called my brother who was sleeping. Okay, now that's the main point of my post.
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE COULD FALL ASLEEP. Was he confident that dad would recover (i swear i was damn pessimistic then)? Was he too tired (because he was on sip i think)? Was he trying to escape reality by sleeping(he sleeps alot)? I dont understand why. Even till today. I will never get the courage to ask him, and looking at our current semi-cold war, we wont be talking normally until....... next year I guess?
Oh gosh, I'm gonna be like an only child for idk how long :(
I called germaine, my then best friend, and we were on the phone (after that public phone cos my phone batt died) for two hours i think, and a large part of the conversation was just her hearing me crying.
After we ended the call, I tried to find someone to listen to my cutie sobs, haha I plucked up my courage and called my brother who was sleeping. Okay, now that's the main point of my post.
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE COULD FALL ASLEEP. Was he confident that dad would recover (i swear i was damn pessimistic then)? Was he too tired (because he was on sip i think)? Was he trying to escape reality by sleeping(he sleeps alot)? I dont understand why. Even till today. I will never get the courage to ask him, and looking at our current semi-cold war, we wont be talking normally until....... next year I guess?
Oh gosh, I'm gonna be like an only child for idk how long :(