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During a history class in sec one, Mr I-forgot-his-sirname mentioned that second child of the family is usually.... pretty difficult. He said you needa use a different way to interaction with the second child, because they tend to perceive messages differently.
Strictly speaking I'm not the second child, but I can be counted as one. And I think what he said is trueeeeee.
I tend to take in messages slightly more seriously than others, okay, me being over-sensitive, I know.
So whenever, bro/cn commented anything about me, it may be passing comments to them, but hmm, not really that case for me.
I've been constantly labelled stupid, rubbish, dumb, silly by bro and, I thinkkkkkk they're very apt descriptions about meeeeee. Demoralising yes, but true and very honest.
Oh welllllllls.
Strictly speaking I'm not the second child, but I can be counted as one. And I think what he said is trueeeeee.
I tend to take in messages slightly more seriously than others, okay, me being over-sensitive, I know.
So whenever, bro/cn commented anything about me, it may be passing comments to them, but hmm, not really that case for me.
I've been constantly labelled stupid, rubbish, dumb, silly by bro and, I thinkkkkkk they're very apt descriptions about meeeeee. Demoralising yes, but true and very honest.
Oh welllllllls.
I know I'm better than this.
I'm in pursuit of happiness, no, not thaaaat kind of happiness that doesn't last.
I'm in pursuit of another happiness, that doesn't have to depend on someone else, or something else.
I'm in pursuit of happiness that's within myself.
But first, I need answers to those many burning question marks.
Yesterday after meeting Keith coincidentally on the train, I felt relieved. Because I think I'm slightly clearer about what to do and how to do it.
And today, meeting up with the fellow bitches to bitch about life, I've made up my mind, and I needa see thru to them.
I HAVE TO STOP SHOOTING PEOPLE.
I used to think fluent sarcasm reflects a certain level of intelligence and of course, language ability.
Buuuuut then, I don't wanna hurt people like the way they hurt me with their words. Okay, I shoot people back because they shoot me first, haha, an eye for an eye right. Buuuuut, that's really really really not the way. That's not self-defense at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. It's stupid, naive, childish, mindless, idiotic, immature, blah blah.
And so, from today onwards, I'm gonna just put up with those harsh words, I will stop chewing over them, and I will let the pain go.
Yessssss, it's not easy because I FKING CANNOT TAHAN, but every accomplishment starts with the decision to tryyyyyyy (or something like that).
Yup. And one last thing, SERIOUSLY, STOP TOYING WITH PEOPLE'S FEELINGS, URGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH.
Is that why you always kena played by others?
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, GOODNIGHT.
I'm in pursuit of another happiness, that doesn't have to depend on someone else, or something else.
I'm in pursuit of happiness that's within myself.
But first, I need answers to those many burning question marks.
Yesterday after meeting Keith coincidentally on the train, I felt relieved. Because I think I'm slightly clearer about what to do and how to do it.
And today, meeting up with the fellow bitches to bitch about life, I've made up my mind, and I needa see thru to them.
I HAVE TO STOP SHOOTING PEOPLE.
I used to think fluent sarcasm reflects a certain level of intelligence and of course, language ability.
Buuuuut then, I don't wanna hurt people like the way they hurt me with their words. Okay, I shoot people back because they shoot me first, haha, an eye for an eye right. Buuuuut, that's really really really not the way. That's not self-defense at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. It's stupid, naive, childish, mindless, idiotic, immature, blah blah.
And so, from today onwards, I'm gonna just put up with those harsh words, I will stop chewing over them, and I will let the pain go.
Yessssss, it's not easy because I FKING CANNOT TAHAN, but every accomplishment starts with the decision to tryyyyyyy (or something like that).
Yup. And one last thing, SERIOUSLY, STOP TOYING WITH PEOPLE'S FEELINGS, URGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH.
Is that why you always kena played by others?
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, GOODNIGHT.
...
If you know what you're gonna do is gonna lead people on, why do it, and then fake ignorance?
Why?
Because you enjoy the feeling of someone (or having plenty of people) liking you, even though you know you'll eventually hurt him/her?
Or because you think you're actually doing him/her a favour by letting him/her carry false hope?
Or because deep down you know you're a bitch but you refused to admit it?
Ah, fk it.
Why?
Because you enjoy the feeling of someone (or having plenty of people) liking you, even though you know you'll eventually hurt him/her?
Or because you think you're actually doing him/her a favour by letting him/her carry false hope?
Or because deep down you know you're a bitch but you refused to admit it?
Ah, fk it.
ひとりすきだから
As the days went by, I see things in a clearer manner.
I see my feelings better, I see the situation better, I see the possibilities better.
I can't tell you how much I like the situation right now.
Perhaps I will regret in the future, but for now, I'm really contented.
たぶん将来には私寂しくなってるけど、二人よりひとりのほうがいいと思いますね。
どうして、今まで、ありがとうございます。
飽きたことが私のせいだけど、私と合ってる人は本とに君じゃない。
I see my feelings better, I see the situation better, I see the possibilities better.
I can't tell you how much I like the situation right now.
Perhaps I will regret in the future, but for now, I'm really contented.
たぶん将来には私寂しくなってるけど、二人よりひとりのほうがいいと思いますね。
どうして、今まで、ありがとうございます。
飽きたことが私のせいだけど、私と合ってる人は本とに君じゃない。
はい、今日から日本語を一生懸命頑張ります！
夢は夢です。
現実になる可能性があるけど、私はしない。
だって、夢ができたより、友情と家族が一番大事なの。
勇気がないかも、でも私絶対リスックしないです。
ところで、久しぶりに日本語でブログを書いてますね。
チョウウウウウウうれしいから。
現実になる可能性があるけど、私はしない。
だって、夢ができたより、友情と家族が一番大事なの。
勇気がないかも、でも私絶対リスックしないです。
ところで、久しぶりに日本語でブログを書いてますね。
チョウウウウウウうれしいから。