Volume 20, Chizuru Mizuhara's Love Story, Chapter 7
Chizuru Mizuhara's Love Story
■ [Introduction] Chizuru Mizuhara's Love Story
■ Volumes 13-18 Part I, Chapter 4
■Someone who Will Truly Make Me Happy
A Confession
◆Doki doki (Chizuru's heartbeat increases out of the tension of meeting Kazuya). (171)
Kazuya was there with her when she was lonely and sad. The happy time with him that day. Whenever she was having a hard time, he always came to her side. And for Chizuru now, Kazuya is the most important person whom she wants to rely on more than anyone else.
I want to be Kazuya's true lover, I want to be with him.
Chizuru fell in love with Kazuya and began to wish to be his true lover. She has always hoped that one day she would end the relationship between a rental girlfriend and a customer and face him as a lover. Grandma Sayuri also celebrated her love. But she just couldn't take that step. It was because that day when she confirmed their relationship, she had told Kazuya that she had no intention of falling in love with him, and most importantly, he had told her that he was not in love with her, which kept sticking in her mind.
NO...
WE'RE NOT GOING OUT, RIGHT...?
ISN'T IT OBVIOUS? I'M GOING TO TELL YOUR GRANDMA THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP IS A LIE!
Every time Kazuya asked her to reveal to their grandmas that it was a lie, or to tell them that they had broken up, Chizuru was just confronted with the reality that "to Kazuya, I am just a rental girlfriend". She could not believe that he would ever fall in love with her. She thought she was just in love with him on her own.
MY "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND," SHE IS...
But that night, Kazuya himself said to her, "My ideal girlfriend is, she is...". It was definitely Chizuru. He may have just said that because he couldn't bear to see her unable to let out her grief. But
If Kazuya feels the same way I do.
If what Yaemori-san said at that time is true.
Chizuru is eager to know the truth of those words. She decides to meet with Kazuya for not fulfilling her professional duties that night.
◆WHAT'S UMMM... WHAT'S NEW WITH RUKA-CHAN? (171)
WHAT'S UMMM... WHAT'S NEW WITH RUKA-CHAN?
SINCE... YOU KNOW, SINCE LAST TIME... ARE THINGS GOING WELL?
As a rental girlfriend, Chizuru is in a position to support Kazuya's love. Chizuru herself feels that she must put his feelings first. So, she first confirms how he feels about Ruka. She had asked him once during the shooting trip, but again.
NO, NOT REALLY, IN THE END...
I JUST DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER...
She is relieved to hear that.
◆WELL, MAYBE I'M JUST... A LITTLE SOFT? (171)
She tries to return part of the rental fee, saying that it was unprofessional to cry in front of a client, but Kazuya retorts that he was happy to be able to help her.
SOMEHOW, I KNEW YOU WOULD SAY THAT.
AT THIS POINT... IT'S PROBABLY TO LATE TO BE ACTING TOUGH.
WELL, MAYBE I'M JUST... A LITTLE SOFT?
Chizuru looks relieved. She really wanted him to tell her that there was no need to be tough.
◆OKAY! SEE YA! (171)
Unable to get him to talk, she parted ways with him at this point. "SEE YA!," said Chizuru.
But Kazuya invites her to lunch. It's the first time he's invited her just to spend time alone with him without any particular reason.
Rental girlfriends should avoid private relationships with their customers. She cannot treat Kazuya alone as special. Chizuru almost refuses, saying, "WHAT WOULD MY OTHER CLIENTS THINK? IT'S A BIT MUCH...". But
◆LET'S GO... LET'S GO LUNCH. (172)
YOU KNOW WHAT? IT'S FINE.
LET'S GO... LET'S GO LUNCH.
Then she stops Kazuya.
◆TELL ME THE TRUTH. DO YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME? (172)
Now that Grandma Sayuri has passed away, she no longer has to rush. It is the first peaceful holiday in a long time. Chizuru decides to enjoy her time with Kazuya, saying that it is a holiday.
I want to be Kazuya's true lover, I want to be with him.
But she still wants to know what Kazuya thinks of her. With the help of alcohol, she finally gets down to business.
◆YOUR "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND." THAT WAS ABOUT ME, RIGHT? (173)
YOUR "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND." THAT WAS ABOUT ME, RIGHT?
BUT I GET IT...
YOU COULDNT STAND SEEING ME IN PAIN...
SO YOU MADE SOMETHING UP TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER...
AN IDEALIZED VERSION OF ME.
BUT... IF I HAVE IT WRONG... THEN A LOT OF THINGS CHANGE...
◆DO YOU... HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME? (173)
NOT TO MENTION, YAEMORI-SAN MENTIONED TO ME...
THAT YOU LIKED ME "AS A WOMAN".
I KNOW YOU TWO ARE CLOSE...
SO IF YOU'D SAID THAT TO HER...
SO? TELL ME.
DO YOU... HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME?
Kazuya remains silent and does not answer.
The Answer
In the end, Chizuru couldn't muster up the courage to listen to Kazuya's answer.
◆SORRY... THAT WAS OUT OF NOWHRE. (173)
SORRY... THAT WAS OUT OF NOWHERE.
OF COURSE YOU DON'T, RIGHT?
FOR GET I ASKED.
With that, she brushed it off.
She really wanted him to say that he loved her. But if he doesn't have feelings for her, she has no choice but to continue to support his love as a rental girlfriend.
◆BUT ANYWAY, IT SEEMS THAT, FOR THE TWO OF US, THINGS ARE BACK TO THE WAY THEY WERE. (174)
BUT ANYWAY, IT SEEMS THAT, FOR THE TWO OF US, THINGS ARE BACK TO THE WAY THEY WERE.
UNTILL YOU CAN FIND YOURSELF A FANTASTIC GIRLFRIEND...
I'LL DO EVERYTHING I CAN AS YOUR RENTAL GIRLFRIEND.
DON'T YOU REMEMBER?
GIVE IT ALL YOU'VE GOT!
◆IF YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF THE MOST WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND... I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! (174)
IF YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF THE MOST WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND...
I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!
On the way home, Chizuru is strong, saying so.
Just when she was about to give up on him, thinking that it was just a rental girlfriend's unrequited love.
What she heard over her back was Kazuya's confession!
◆FOR THE LONGEST TIME... I'VE BEEN IN LO- (174)
THAT WASN'T JUST TALK!
IT ABSOLUTELY WASN'T!
I REALLY MEANT IT! EVERY SIGLE WORD!
MY "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND"... IS YOU!
AND MAYBE IF I SAY THIS... YOU'LL BE UPSET WITH ME, BUT...
FOR THE LONGEST TIME... I'VE BEEN IN LO-
Chizuru fell in love with Kazuya and cherished her time with him, but to Kazuya, she was just a rental girlfriend and she did not expect him to fall in love with her. She had thought that she was the only one who was in love on her own.
While wishing to be his real lover, while missing him and asking for him, she has been playing her uninterested self, her neighbor self, her rental girlfriend self.
But the truth was different. Kazuya felt the same way she did! He too has always wanted to turn their lies into the truth!
◆WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME...? I'M SO STUPID... (174)
Chizuru runs to her room and lies down on her bed, her face bright red.
I'm glad I had the courage to ask.
Kazuya felt the same way I did.
Chizuru was unable to realize Kazuya's true feelings all along since she was a rental girlfriend. But the truth is, ever since that moment when Kazuya said to her, "I want you," he has always been in love with her.
DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE GIVING UP!
I'LL GET THE MONEY! SO JUST DO IT, MIZUHARA!
MY "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND," SHE IS...
Among the many kindnesses Kazuya gave Chizuru was the feeling that he loved her. She finally learned that.
Chizuru's love begins to move on again.
◆OH, COME ONE... I NEED TO DO SOMETHING... (174)
I have to tell Kazuya I love him.
It was the moment when Chizuru's eyes saw a future with Kazuya.
■Someone who Will Truly Make Me Happy
Chizuru Mizuhara's Love Story
■ [Introduction] Chizuru Mizuhara's Love Story
■ Volumes 13-18 Part I, Chapter 4
■Someone who Will Truly Make Me Happy
Volumes 19 and 20, Impressions
Thank you very much for your patience with my long commentary thus far. This is the end of Chizuru Mizuhara's love story. I have tried to be as careful as possible in looking back from Chizuru's point of view at the end. I hope you enjoyed it. Well, I am glad that Chizuru realized Kazuya's feelings for her. She overcame the big wall, you know.
What Kazuya is to Chizuru now is summarized in the article below. Please take a look.
[Chizuru Mizuhara's Love story] Someone who Will Make Me Happy for the Rest of My Life.
Vol. 19. Chizuru said she was fine, but her heart was screaming for someone to accept her grief. After all, it is Kazuya who rushes to her. Kazuya is so cool that he can care for one person so much. Only Kazuya who has been watching Chizuru for a long time could say such words! I cried many times when I was rereading the manga and collecting materials for my review.
Volume 20. The words that night, "My perfect girlfriend is..." really moved Chizuru. That's right, when someone says something so heartfelt, you think, "Maybe he's in love with me". Through the cheer-up date, I think she strongly felt "I wish Kazuya was my boyfriend". "Do you have feelings for me?" From Chizuru's point of view, these words are almost equivalent to a confession. Maybe he will find out that I love him, but if it comes true, I want to be his lover. These words are filled with such courage and wishes. She had the courage to ask, and Kazuya answered her properly in the end. It was the moment when her love, which was supposed to be unrequited, finally began to move on.
The reason I decided to write Chizuru Mizuhara's love story in the first place was because I wanted everyone to get to know this girl. I wanted people to get to know Chizuru's love story, which was depicted in parallel with Kazuya's love story.
When I first read the manga, I thought that Chizuru was somewhat conscious of Kazuya, or that she might be in love with him, but in fact, the story was very carefully drawn. Chizuru, who had no intention of falling in love at first, gradually fell in love with Kazuya and became aware of her feelings for him, but she was unsure of his feelings and had no choice but to support him in his love as a rental girlfriend. However, when he said, "My perfect girlfriend is...", a light came on. That's when I realized that Chizuru's love story was there. So Kazuya and Chizuru had a spectacular surechigai (Hey, you realized it too late!). I wanted the readers of Kanokari to know that. I wanted them to know how much Chizuru loves Kazuya.
In writing the article, I have explained it based on Chizuru's actions and facial expressions depicted in the manga, as well as the situation and purpose given to her, so as not to include my own selfish delusion. It is easy to develop one's own baseless and selfish imagination using one's own values as a yardstick. But that is not a correct interpretation. Rather, we must organize the life Chizuru has lived, the time she has spent with Kazuya, and the things that are important to her, one by one. Based on this, we need to "correctly imagine" her feelings. Think about who Kazuya is to Chizuru, not to yourself. Think about how his words would appear to Chizuru. I put the accumulation of these feelings into words. It was as if I had become Chizuru's best friend and was walking through her life with her next to her. Well, it was fun.
Well then! See you in the latest chapter post!
