How important to go outside.
I went out to study today. I studied at starbucks with my friend. He is one of few friends whom I can tell whatever I want to say, so I could keep being relaxed and study. Until a few weeks ago, I was thinking there is no chemical between him and me at all because when we talked about something, we always ended up kind of arguing. But now, we are doing ok. I don't know if he is making some distance inbetween on purpose to avoid arguments, I still feel better. It is easy for me to be picked on and be treated like a child, so I feel like I am being treated in a fair relationship.
I tend to stay at home to study, but I become down if I don't go out. I will try to go somewhere as much as possible.(^_^)v
Birthday
Today was my birthday. My sister and best friend gave me e-mails. For some people, birthday is the opportunity that many friends gather and celebrate together, but I don't want to have that kind of birthday. I just want people close to me to celebrate my birthday. I get really disappointed if they don't remember my birthday. I don't mean I need big presents. I just need some words for my birthday. That's it.
I got a really nice wallet and accesory. I needed a new wallet, it was a great timing. (*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆ I appreciate it!
Early birthday
I went to a Philipino restaurant for lunch and Italian restaurant for dinner with my friends. The food was sooooo good in both reastaurants. Dinner was for my birthday, and I got nice gifts^^. I got a basketball, beanie bear, and big frog doll. My friend who gave me the frog dall asked me what I name it, and I almost said "keroyon" but I was sure nobody knows that name and thinks it's funny, so I didn't. I need to think about the good name.
I have a lot of readings and a group work. I fell behind last week so I should catch up this weekend. ganbaro tto.
body condition is good
I had a three-hour class today but for some reason I am not tired at all. I had an accounting class which is a second half of intermediate accounting and the professor is famous for his super hard class. I thought he would be really strict and difficult to talk to, but my guess was really wrong. He is very friendly, and he talks to many students in class. Also he is really funny. I wanted to talk in class but I found that I don't remember many things I learned in the last intermediate accounting class so I couldn't.
I have a lot of reading! (-。－；)
Some days later
I can't imagine about myself some days later. My life will be very different from now like the two hard classes start. My close friend and I are planning to go to Las Vegas after the summer class, but I really wonder if I can survive. At least, I don't need to be really nervous about the grades like before.
I need to wake up before 7 tomorrow. I wonder if I can really wake up. (￣Д￣；；
kya--!!! ヽ(゜▽、゜)ノ
I lost weight!! I lost about 7lbs (more than 3 kg) since last month. motto ganbaro tto! (^ε^)♪
I have been so negative.
I think I have been so sulk. I couldn't get what I want, so I was just waiting and being not nice. It's really time for myself to stop acting like a child. I have been pointed out that I try to get what I want (and at the same time I am sure I can get it) by crying out like a small child. But I couldn't fix it until now. Shame on me--.
I have got more things I can't predict and I don't know how they are going to be. But I just follow my honest mind and make the best effort as much as possible. All I need to do is trust. (｀∀´)
Tired..
Quiet time
I just finished a novel. I read "Hachi kou no saigo no koibito" by Yoshimoto Banana. This novel was very soothing. Nowadays, I couldn't be relaxed deeply; I didn't want to study, I was addicted to a video game, I was too worried about my class and future job. I haven't really done anything ( I have had enough sleeping and hang out with friends..) but my mind was always exausted. But this novel made me relaxed and gave me a quiet time.
I think I have been losing mental balance. I have let anxiety occupy my mind and control me. shikkari shinaku cha. （･ε･)