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Hello once again! I hope that you are well this time around
Are you worrying in the place you did before?
Hi to you again! Just know that I am doing what I can
Always trying to just make it through the day
Oh, putting on the clothes that make you smile, and carrying the bag that goes back a while,
Simply listening to all your favorite tunes, walking underneath a sky so blue
As opposed to looking for one thing to hate and despise, just go find a hundred things that you can love by surprise
Somewhere in that tiny town where you seem to live...
Counting all the goodbyes drowned in chirping noises faraway
A gentle breeze swept my problems all away
Reaching out my hand for the heavens up above me
Through all the lukewarm sunshine shining down
Oh in the spring, a pretty flower bloomed…
Hello once again! Though you put that cheerful grin on everyday
I know that you are just lying to yourself
Hello once again! I know you're aware that more than anyone
It's only me that knows, your strengths you've yet to see
Braving through the arctic grip of a big season of snow, breasting though the winds that come in a turbulent flow
At a speed as relaxed as you would do, walking underneath a sky so blue
As opposed to moaning over things I hate and despise, I'd rather go protect the one I love with a surprise
Somewhere in that tiny town I've come to love…
I don't know why I couldn't say goodbye
The fog was thick and I was all alone
But suddenly something told me to look up to the clouds above
It was then that I felt the kiss of a shining ray of light that covered me
"Please don't go" - the fickle winds picked and carried it
Up into a place where my unspoken words reside
So I bid farewell to that regretful thing I left behind
And so with that, the train of spring pushed through
Counting all the joys that resounded so faraway
A gentle breeze swept my problems all away
Reaching out my hand for the heavens up above me
Through all the lukewarm sunshine shining down
Oh in the spring, a little flower bloomed…
And soon it will happen in your town too… Ha!
It's raw fear.
I'm currently stuck on top of my bed, not really in the mood to move because of reading that scary comic. it's based on true experiences too...
Goodness gracious, I'm more scared than I've ever been in a while; being all holed up in my room for a long time just reminds me why. I'm trembling with fear even though I know I have an amazing God that can do anything. But I'm petrified. I can't believe in anything strong enough. I've never been able to.
Which reminds me. Happy Forever Alone month.
I'm currently stuck on top of my bed, not really in the mood to move because of reading that scary comic. it's based on true experiences too...
Goodness gracious, I'm more scared than I've ever been in a while; being all holed up in my room for a long time just reminds me why. I'm trembling with fear even though I know I have an amazing God that can do anything. But I'm petrified. I can't believe in anything strong enough. I've never been able to.
Which reminds me. Happy Forever Alone month.
どうも、rachie です。Hello, it's me again.
Yes, Life's been great to me lately, if you asked. He's given me everything I needed the past few weeks. The privilege to eat without gaining weight, arranging so that the sandman whisk me away just as I lay my head down on my pillow. Still, I think he's only doing so because I'm in the middle of a limbo period.
I've been quite depressed lately, thanks. Deep within the confines of my heart, there is a concoction of trepidation and determination, of inadequacy with a dash of joviality in a bottomless cauldron. I feel so anxious, a large vacuum where my sanity is supposed to be. I can scratch at it and I can try to pry it open and make it stop, but no matter what, the feeling will haunt me forever.
It's not any better that I'm somehow hooked on attention. Sweet, delicious attention in the form of comments and subscribers. I'm caught in a trap that entices me to stay longer. The notion is so... overwhelming. I suppose this is how other people feel. I've never been the sort of person to be envious of the spotlight on others, but lately that has changed. And not for the better.
What is this constant feeling of competitiveness in me? Why al I feeling it so strong? This is not like me.
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to. In fact, I don't like talking about it. Blog posts are much more versatile. As the clock ticks, I find it hard to believe I will feel better before valentines day. However, that will not be an obstacle. In fact, I will cry it all out on the day with my other friends, watching sappy sad movies and bawling Japanese napkins to a pulp.
I'll be fine, I reckon. Although I might be unsure of everything, I have one thing I'm positive about—my voice. I'll keep singing to cheer myself up, I hope. And when I do, maybe I'll try to write a happy post for once.![[みんな:01]](https://emoji.ameba.jp/img/user/na/namida-egao/1496.gif)
Yes, Life's been great to me lately, if you asked. He's given me everything I needed the past few weeks. The privilege to eat without gaining weight, arranging so that the sandman whisk me away just as I lay my head down on my pillow. Still, I think he's only doing so because I'm in the middle of a limbo period.
I've been quite depressed lately, thanks. Deep within the confines of my heart, there is a concoction of trepidation and determination, of inadequacy with a dash of joviality in a bottomless cauldron. I feel so anxious, a large vacuum where my sanity is supposed to be. I can scratch at it and I can try to pry it open and make it stop, but no matter what, the feeling will haunt me forever.
It's not any better that I'm somehow hooked on attention. Sweet, delicious attention in the form of comments and subscribers. I'm caught in a trap that entices me to stay longer. The notion is so... overwhelming. I suppose this is how other people feel. I've never been the sort of person to be envious of the spotlight on others, but lately that has changed. And not for the better.
What is this constant feeling of competitiveness in me? Why al I feeling it so strong? This is not like me.
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to. In fact, I don't like talking about it. Blog posts are much more versatile. As the clock ticks, I find it hard to believe I will feel better before valentines day. However, that will not be an obstacle. In fact, I will cry it all out on the day with my other friends, watching sappy sad movies and bawling Japanese napkins to a pulp.
I'll be fine, I reckon. Although I might be unsure of everything, I have one thing I'm positive about—my voice. I'll keep singing to cheer myself up, I hope. And when I do, maybe I'll try to write a happy post for once.
Merry Christmas everyone! Sorry I'm so late. Thank you for all the support you've given me from the beginning up till now :) I love you all so much I hnggg -
Anyway, just a sneak preview of what I'm going to sing in 2012 (in no particular order):
- 僕みたいな君、君みたいな僕
- トップ・シークレット
- グレーンストレート
- からくりピエロ
- シリョクケンサ
- アンハッピーリフレイン
- ジャバヲッキー・ジャバヲッカ
- トリノコシテイ
Hehe. Other than that, I have a bunch of other things planned, and for everyone's info, some of these will be collabs. I won't say which ones are!
Anyway, just a sneak preview of what I'm going to sing in 2012 (in no particular order):
- 僕みたいな君、君みたいな僕
- トップ・シークレット
- グレーンストレート
- からくりピエロ
- シリョクケンサ
- アンハッピーリフレイン
- ジャバヲッキー・ジャバヲッカ
- トリノコシテイ
Hehe. Other than that, I have a bunch of other things planned, and for everyone's info, some of these will be collabs. I won't say which ones are!
Sigh. This will be my last blog post in a while.
So tomorrow, as you all know, is the famous US trip. I'll try to be as online as possible, but as for the moment, it won't be possible. On the upside, I've finished my Sayoko cover! Hopefully it'll be upsoon
Anyway, I guess that's it for now. I make crappy sad ending posts, it seems. Toodles!
So tomorrow, as you all know, is the famous US trip. I'll try to be as online as possible, but as for the moment, it won't be possible. On the upside, I've finished my Sayoko cover! Hopefully it'll be upsoon
Anyway, I guess that's it for now. I make crappy sad ending posts, it seems. Toodles!
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There's nothing left to take, but I still try to reach.
Try to swallow it all down, yet I can't seem to breathe.
Just a single pill of mine, nothing else would suffice
I take it in, now i'm alive.
My phone is set on lock and I don't really care.
There's a tangle and a knot that I cannot repair.
I'm a tragedy, I'm ugly, I'm trying to hide,
I say "Hello" then wave "Goodbye".
See me fall down,
Let me die here,
Slowly.
Nothing goes right.
Not a trace
Of honesty.
I'm to blame
So I'll remain.
'Black', 'White', 'Day', 'Night'
It's all the same.
See it run down,
Cut away,
No worries.
Say no more,
I can surely say that I've "had enough"
I still refuse to believe.
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Everyday would be the same,
nothing more,
little change,
If I cared, it would mean nothing,
it's all such a pain
Friendly bonds are so unneeded,
I don't give a damn
A busy life,
is what I am.
Could it be, that 'family' was a way of escape?
Didn't know if it was right, so I threw it away
Couldn't take it anymore,
I had taken enough.
So then I hid my need for 'love'.
Lay me right down, Let me sleep,
I'm restless.
Cover my eyes, when I'm up,
I'll finally,
Fade away.
Here. Today.
Give me a reason,
Then I'll stay.
If I could fly,
If for only a moment.
There wouldn't be, such a need for casualty.
I'm alone,
And that is how it'll be.
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Why does everything I do cause tragedy?
Why does everyone I know keep leaving me here?
Why do I feel so empty inside?
I only want to die...
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See me fall down,
Let me die here,
Slowly.
Nothing goes right.
Not a trace
Of honesty.
I'm to blame
So I'll remain.
'Black', 'White', 'Day', 'Night'
It's all the same.
See it run down,
Cut away,
No worries.
Say no more,
I can surely say that "I've had enough".
I can't remember...
That very day,
That very day,
Changed me.
Happiness died,
Like a light,
I carried.
I'll sleep tonight,
And hope to finally leave..
A world which I don't believe..
A life that I don't need..
Now, I'll finally be free...
どうも、レイチです。
今日バンドンに行っておじいさんとおばあさんのうちで留ります。私はとても眠いですが、記事が書いたいです。書く事が好きです！
「小夜子」を少しだけ録音しました。アンドさんの歌詞がとても大好きですよ！彼の歌詞と言うは、言うのは非常に簡単で、よく曲に合わせ。彼と一緒に協業できる事をとても幸運と思います。だから、私はこのカーバーを完璧にしたい。（私の現在のバージョンは瀕死猫のように）。
そして！
ライトラグとシリョクケンサの英語で歌ってみたできる歌詞をポスットしました。どうぞよろしくおねがいします！私はその歌詞に懸命に幡羅いました。設定にしたいを願います！
YTで「小夜子」をうpするつもりです。それを楽しみにしよう？ wwwwwww
今日バンドンに行っておじいさんとおばあさんのうちで留ります。私はとても眠いですが、記事が書いたいです。書く事が好きです！
「小夜子」を少しだけ録音しました。アンドさんの歌詞がとても大好きですよ！彼の歌詞と言うは、言うのは非常に簡単で、よく曲に合わせ。彼と一緒に協業できる事をとても幸運と思います。だから、私はこのカーバーを完璧にしたい。（私の現在のバージョンは瀕死猫のように）。
そして！
ライトラグとシリョクケンサの英語で歌ってみたできる歌詞をポスットしました。どうぞよろしくおねがいします！私はその歌詞に懸命に幡羅いました。設定にしたいを願います！
YTで「小夜子」をうpするつもりです。それを楽しみにしよう？ wwwwwww
It bloomed in the night sky in colours so ornate
But it seemed that sound was lazy so it came a little late
I'm reminded of you and me when we had our first date
Like light and sound, we are destined to a sad and unequal fate
And yet, you said "Oh my, this is beautiful" to the flower-like light that lit up my face
And soon my heart pounded like a never ending race...
Stand with me and we'll laugh
"So these are fireworks, too"
Take it in and we'll laugh
Now within reach to hold you
On that brilliantly fair skin of yours
A rainbow of light reflects on it's surface
And my heart, it pulses faster so I can meet its pace...
Oh, riding on the hot air of the humid August nights
Bugs dance by the riverbed as we sought to share a kiss
Though I glare at the pesky bugs caught in your hand biting away
It sure won't help to lower my now quickened heartbeat
Every time that great big ball goes up to colour the night sky
Your face turns charming and start to realize, a red hue's painted mine...
Stand with me and we'll laugh
"So these are fireworks, too"
Take it in and we'll laugh
Now within reach to hold you
On that brilliantly fair skin of yours
A rainbow of light reflects on it's surface
And my heart, it pulses faster so I can launch it up into the sky...!
Light and sound, yes you and I, come together and they remind me of
A quartet all singing of our love
And with a whispered voice, I tell the fireworks,
"Thank you very much for obscuring my blushing red face in front of him just for the night..."
But it seemed that sound was lazy so it came a little late
I'm reminded of you and me when we had our first date
Like light and sound, we are destined to a sad and unequal fate
And yet, you said "Oh my, this is beautiful" to the flower-like light that lit up my face
And soon my heart pounded like a never ending race...
Stand with me and we'll laugh
"So these are fireworks, too"
Take it in and we'll laugh
Now within reach to hold you
On that brilliantly fair skin of yours
A rainbow of light reflects on it's surface
And my heart, it pulses faster so I can meet its pace...
Oh, riding on the hot air of the humid August nights
Bugs dance by the riverbed as we sought to share a kiss
Though I glare at the pesky bugs caught in your hand biting away
It sure won't help to lower my now quickened heartbeat
Every time that great big ball goes up to colour the night sky
Your face turns charming and start to realize, a red hue's painted mine...
Stand with me and we'll laugh
"So these are fireworks, too"
Take it in and we'll laugh
Now within reach to hold you
On that brilliantly fair skin of yours
A rainbow of light reflects on it's surface
And my heart, it pulses faster so I can launch it up into the sky...!
Light and sound, yes you and I, come together and they remind me of
A quartet all singing of our love
And with a whispered voice, I tell the fireworks,
"Thank you very much for obscuring my blushing red face in front of him just for the night..."
In the left eye that you have covered
I wonder what kind of person you see?
In the right eye that you have uncovered
You won't be able to see the real me
Second in line to the eye examinations
I teasingly, uh, give you a smile
Ah, I hope you don't forget
The artificial me is being held inside of you
Point it out to me, teach it to me
You are the only one I know who can see
The crack in my heart that grows gradually
And if it's visible just close your eyes
I need you to believe that I will be just fine
So long as you think of me
To love me correctly, I made a decision
I will attempt to correct your vision
Those worn out glasses that rest on your nose
Can't probably see the genuine me at all
I'm fading away; in a desperate try to stop
I sadly give you a smile
Ah, I hope you don't forget
The only place you'll find the genuine me is inside you
The only things these tired eyes can see
Are only things that I can trust completely*
You and I are one and the same
That's why it's only now I realize
The only way to way to show you the me you don't know
Is simply to hold my heart close
And it was just then that I couldn't see
The blur covered all of my surroundings
Oh, is it you that had changed so much, or
Was it just I that had completely transformed?
Point it out to me, teach it to me
You are the only one I know who can see
The crack in my heart that grows gradually
But if it's visible don't close your eyes
By bringing your hand closer to me
This girl can convey, finally
The genuine me
*com-ple-te-ly
I wonder what kind of person you see?
In the right eye that you have uncovered
You won't be able to see the real me
Second in line to the eye examinations
I teasingly, uh, give you a smile
Ah, I hope you don't forget
The artificial me is being held inside of you
Point it out to me, teach it to me
You are the only one I know who can see
The crack in my heart that grows gradually
And if it's visible just close your eyes
I need you to believe that I will be just fine
So long as you think of me
To love me correctly, I made a decision
I will attempt to correct your vision
Those worn out glasses that rest on your nose
Can't probably see the genuine me at all
I'm fading away; in a desperate try to stop
I sadly give you a smile
Ah, I hope you don't forget
The only place you'll find the genuine me is inside you
The only things these tired eyes can see
Are only things that I can trust completely*
You and I are one and the same
That's why it's only now I realize
The only way to way to show you the me you don't know
Is simply to hold my heart close
And it was just then that I couldn't see
The blur covered all of my surroundings
Oh, is it you that had changed so much, or
Was it just I that had completely transformed?
Point it out to me, teach it to me
You are the only one I know who can see
The crack in my heart that grows gradually
But if it's visible don't close your eyes
By bringing your hand closer to me
This girl can convey, finally
The genuine me
*com-ple-te-ly
*This works for both versions. If you want to do DECO's version, omit the verses in purple!
I only get the words when they are all lined up this way
All of the things I want to say to you, hiding away
- I'm all by myself, all alone in this confining room
I threw away the key, I locked myself, hid from the world
Where are you at this very moment?
Went ahead and shouted out the name that I was sure I was meant to forget
Realizing that this location is just
A nonexistent place just like a dream and I’m still dreaming of you
So I decided to go and meet with you
Rather than dealing with all this hullabaloo here,
If you're hurt on your way to see me
My heart won’t be any lighter now
So I decided that I would go and see you
I told the spring breeze what my intentions were, then two
Scattered petals danced on the wind with me
Time traveled faster than I had expected it
And I abandoned feelings all the seasons gave to me
Crowds of people are pouring into town everyday
And everyday I’m wandering around all aimlessly
I can never go backwards to that time
I can only keep looking forward and keep moving away from you
“I’m so sorry but I am thankful too”
We were on a journey to send these words, but I’m still hoping
So I decided to go and meet with you
Assembling my thoughts as fragmented words, I’ll
Throw them onto the coming spring breeze and
I’ll make sure that they will all reach you
So I decided that I would go see you
Together through the smiles and even through the tears, I’m
Just glad that my thoughts are finally reaching you
Somebody just created something from nothing at all
Don't want fake happiness, I don’t ever want to tie you down
And though it’s painful and I don’t want to let it go
I just want the truth, so please
So I decided to go and meet with you
The snow was melting and spring just 'round the corner
"I wanna meet you"; my only waking thought
So overwhelming that it burst from my heart
That's why I
Set out to go and meet with you
Rather than dealing with all this hullabaloo here,
If you're hurt on your way to see me
My heart won’t be any lighter now
So I decided that I would go and see you
I told the spring breeze what my intentions were, then two
Scattered petals danced on the wind with me
I only get the words when they are all lined up this way
All of the things I want to say to you, hiding away
- I'm all by myself, all alone in this confining room
I threw away the key, I locked myself, hid from the world
Where are you at this very moment?
Went ahead and shouted out the name that I was sure I was meant to forget
Realizing that this location is just
A nonexistent place just like a dream and I’m still dreaming of you
So I decided to go and meet with you
Rather than dealing with all this hullabaloo here,
If you're hurt on your way to see me
My heart won’t be any lighter now
So I decided that I would go and see you
I told the spring breeze what my intentions were, then two
Scattered petals danced on the wind with me
Time traveled faster than I had expected it
And I abandoned feelings all the seasons gave to me
Crowds of people are pouring into town everyday
And everyday I’m wandering around all aimlessly
I can never go backwards to that time
I can only keep looking forward and keep moving away from you
“I’m so sorry but I am thankful too”
We were on a journey to send these words, but I’m still hoping
So I decided to go and meet with you
Assembling my thoughts as fragmented words, I’ll
Throw them onto the coming spring breeze and
I’ll make sure that they will all reach you
So I decided that I would go see you
Together through the smiles and even through the tears, I’m
Just glad that my thoughts are finally reaching you
Somebody just created something from nothing at all
Don't want fake happiness, I don’t ever want to tie you down
And though it’s painful and I don’t want to let it go
I just want the truth, so please
So I decided to go and meet with you
The snow was melting and spring just 'round the corner
"I wanna meet you"; my only waking thought
So overwhelming that it burst from my heart
That's why I
Set out to go and meet with you
Rather than dealing with all this hullabaloo here,
If you're hurt on your way to see me
My heart won’t be any lighter now
So I decided that I would go and see you
I told the spring breeze what my intentions were, then two
Scattered petals danced on the wind with me