It's raw fear.
I'm currently stuck on top of my bed, not really in the mood to move because of reading that scary comic. it's based on true experiences too...
Goodness gracious, I'm more scared than I've ever been in a while; being all holed up in my room for a long time just reminds me why. I'm trembling with fear even though I know I have an amazing God that can do anything. But I'm petrified. I can't believe in anything strong enough. I've never been able to.
Which reminds me. Happy Forever Alone month.