I thought...

先週は英検
今週はTOEFL
来週はTOEIC


いま思えば６月もこんな感じだった


んで、その時には彼がいて、それでもあたしは今と同じように何よりも英語や留学って目標、夢を最優先にしてた


それでも
『がんばれ』 って
『お疲れさま』 って
合格したら
『お前はすごいよ』 って言ってくれて
こういう自分にとって大事な人が応援してくれたから頑張れたのかも


あー自分弱ってる
メンタルブレイク寸前
別にまだ好きだとかヨリ戻したいとかじゃないんだ
(むしろ嫌だ)
なんか支えが欲しくなったっていう、ただそれだけ

でも人間結局１人だし
夢を叶えるのも壊すのも自分
やるしかないんだ
LA時代の自分戻ってこい!

It's all up to me.
全ては自分次第


頑張ろう。
今回ダメでも道は一つじゃないからね


Be positive
Do my the best.


xoxo
Lena

STEP test

How r u guys?

I took STEP Test pre-1grade today.

I duno whether I cao do or not.However,I think I did the best anyway.
I thought through today's test,my week point in English is vocablary.
Today's test has a lotta unknow words to me.

N I thought every see these
"What's the f**k! I duno this word!!!!!"
So,I have to strenghten these within 1week b/c I hav TOEFL test next week.This is last chance for exchange study abroad...I need enough score for I can do it at any cost...
It's gonna be uphill battle but I'm not goona do the best till last.
I can do...
I believe myself!


Take care


xoxo

met up!

I met up w/ Yamakawa @ shinjuku Oct,10.

Before that,I had 'Houji'(I duno how to say in Eng)
N I met a lotta my relatives.
My bros. told me
"You got chubby"
"Im asame as my sis"

Ya,exactly,I know!!!!!
b/c "I was in USA!!!!!!"
Im gonna lose weight ASAP,so don't worry!!!!!;>hehe


After finish houji,I met Yamakawa.
We talked about each other's recently events like LA,her fancy boy...and so on...
I did all excited thx to her,n my heart charged by seein' n talkin'
Thx for givin' me a great time.
n We'v decided to go to Disney Resort on Nov,3!w/ some J girls!
This day is my B-day!
awesome!can't waaait!!
For that, I have a lotta things to do handle.
There'r gonna be uphill battle.
So,I have to get over them.
However,I believe I can do.
I believe myself b/c it's all up to me.


then,xoxo


Lena