昼ごはんは、チキン入りぺペロンチーノ。
唐辛子入りガーリックオイルをゆっくり温めて香りを立てて、茹でた鶏むね肉をちぎって投入。
茹でたスパゲッティを1分ばかり絡めて炒めて出来上がり。
夕飯は、冷凍してあったカレーに、目玉焼を乗せて、ジャパンセンターで買った福神漬けを添える。
ずうっと冷蔵庫に放置してた福神漬けの賞味期限が去年の夏だったけど、気にしない。
昼スパゲッティに、夜カレー。
今日のごはんは典型的な「男子が好きな料理」で、ぼくとしてはとてもしあわせ度が高い。
勉強しなきゃいけないと思えば思うほど、
始まってしまった部屋の掃除には力が入り、
しばらく振りのきれいな部屋になる。
掃除で大切なことは、まず物を減らすことと、
そしてすぐに使う物にだって決まった居場所を与えてやることだと思う。
どうせ使うものを出してあるから、部屋は散らかっているんだ。
夜に角田光代「対岸の彼女」を読む。勉強はどうした自分。
この人の言葉遣いが好きなのと、たぶん登場人物たちの心理描写が好みなんだと思う。
みんなちょっとしたことで喜んで、幸せになって、
人と出会うことに悩んで、近づきたい気持ちと、距離を置きたい気持ちが交錯して。
読んでる間に主人公の内面にはぐうっと引き寄せられ、
小さな心のひだにもぎゅうっと自分の胸まで締め付けられるような思いをする反面、
そうでない登場人物については、とても一面的な描写でキャラクター付けをする。
だけどこのキャラを信じてしまうと、時折そうではない面が見え隠れするから、すごく不思議な気分になる。
「他の人」という人たちを、決して分かりえない存在として描くのが、うまいなぁと思う。
そしてその辺に共感してる自分がいる。
生後19ヶ月のまだ言葉をあまり話せない甥と、
同じく生後19ヶ月、両親が飼ってる大きな犬が、
故郷の家ですげえ楽しそうに遊んでたんだ。
でも、より楽しんでたのはきっと甥の方だな。
ユダヤ系アメリカ人のジョシュの話は、
基本的にいつもどうでもいい。
日本に帰ってね、外食って好きだなって思ったんだ。
どうしてかって？
日本のごはんが美味しいからだよ。
ぼくの話も相当、どうでもいい。
あんまり会話になってないんだけど、
とりあえず金曜なのでパブでビール飲んできた。
こっちでの会話に比べて、日本で古い友達と会うと、
基本、「最近どう？」で話は済んじゃうから、
自分のことを一生懸命話すより、
うん、うん、うん、と聞いてる方が楽しいところもある。
それはどうして？どうしてそう思ったの？
みたいにつっこめるなら、楽しさは倍増する。
だけど、自分のことを上手に話すのは苦手。
へたくそでいいから、自分から吐き出したいことができたときには、
アルコール注入すれば、あとは勝手に出てくる。
吐き出したい内容によって、会う人を選べばいい。
ここで選択ミスが少ないのはぼくのいいところだ。きっと。
こっちにいると、自分からのアウトプットというか、
演説（に近い小咄）をするようなシチュエーションが多いと思う。
お話を上手にできないと、空気になっちゃうのだ。
初めて一人旅に出た2003年、
ケルンの安宿でネイティブ20人くらいの輪に何故か混じってしまって、
思いっきり衝撃を受けたのは、自分の空気っぷりだ。
いや、曲りなりにも英語を話せるようになったのは、
あのときのこんちくしょう感のおかげだと思う。
同じく生後19ヶ月、両親が飼ってる大きな犬が、
故郷の家ですげえ楽しそうに遊んでたんだ。
でも、より楽しんでたのはきっと甥の方だな。
ユダヤ系アメリカ人のジョシュの話は、
基本的にいつもどうでもいい。
日本に帰ってね、外食って好きだなって思ったんだ。
どうしてかって？
日本のごはんが美味しいからだよ。
ぼくの話も相当、どうでもいい。
あんまり会話になってないんだけど、
とりあえず金曜なのでパブでビール飲んできた。
こっちでの会話に比べて、日本で古い友達と会うと、
基本、「最近どう？」で話は済んじゃうから、
自分のことを一生懸命話すより、
うん、うん、うん、と聞いてる方が楽しいところもある。
それはどうして？どうしてそう思ったの？
みたいにつっこめるなら、楽しさは倍増する。
だけど、自分のことを上手に話すのは苦手。
へたくそでいいから、自分から吐き出したいことができたときには、
アルコール注入すれば、あとは勝手に出てくる。
吐き出したい内容によって、会う人を選べばいい。
ここで選択ミスが少ないのはぼくのいいところだ。きっと。
こっちにいると、自分からのアウトプットというか、
演説（に近い小咄）をするようなシチュエーションが多いと思う。
お話を上手にできないと、空気になっちゃうのだ。
初めて一人旅に出た2003年、
ケルンの安宿でネイティブ20人くらいの輪に何故か混じってしまって、
思いっきり衝撃を受けたのは、自分の空気っぷりだ。
いや、曲りなりにも英語を話せるようになったのは、
あのときのこんちくしょう感のおかげだと思う。
日本で見かけたGallup社の代表だか誰かの書いた本、
こっちでは古本ですごく安く買えた。
Your Signature Themes report presents your five most dominant themes of talent, in the rank order revealed by your responses to StrengthsFinder. Of the 34 themes measured, these are your "top five."
Your Signature Themes are very important in maximizing the talents that lead to your successes. By focusing on your Signature Themes, separately and in combination, you can identify your talents, build them into strengths, and enjoy personal and career success through consistent, near-perfect performance.
Harmony （調和性）
You look for areas of agreement. In your view there is little to be gained from conflict and friction, so you seek to hold them to a minimum. When you know that the people around you hold differing views, you try to find the common ground. You try to steer them away from confrontation and toward harmony. In fact, harmony is one of your guiding values. You can’t quite believe how much time is wasted by people trying to impose their views on others. Wouldn’t we all be more productive if we kept our opinions in check and instead looked for consensus and support? You believe we would, and you live by that belief. When others are sounding off about their goals, their claims, and their fervently held opinions, you hold your peace. When others strike out in a direction, you will willingly, in the service of harmony, modify your own objectives to merge with theirs (as long as their basic values do not clash with yours). When others start to argue about their pet theory or concept, you steer clear of the debate, preferring to talk about practical, down-to-earth matters on which you can all agree. In your view we are all in the same boat, and we need this boat to get where we are going. It is a good boat. There is no need to rock it just to show that you can.
Input （収集心）
You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information—words, facts, books, and quotations—or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies, baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity. If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but, rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don’t feel comfortable throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It’s interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable.
Learner （学習欲）
You love to learn. The subject matter that interests you most will be determined by your other themes and experiences, but whatever the subject, you will always be drawn to the process of learning. The process, more than the content or the result, is especially exciting for you. You are energized by the steady and deliberate journey from ignorance to competence. The thrill of the first few facts, the early efforts to recite or practice what you have learned, the growing confidence of a skill mastered—this is the process that entices you. Your excitement leads you to engage in adult learning experiences—yoga or piano lessons or graduate classes. It enables you to thrive in dynamic work environments where you are asked to take on short project assignments and are expected to learn a lot about the new subject matter in a short period of time and then move on to the next one. This Learner theme does not necessarily mean that you seek to become the subject matter expert, or that you are striving for the respect that accompanies a professional or academic credential. The outcome of the learning is less significant than the “getting there.”
Intellection （内省）
You like to think. You like mental activity. You like exercising the “muscles” of your brain, stretching them in multiple directions. This need for mental activity may be focused; for example, you may be trying to solve a problem or develop an idea or understand another person’s feelings. The exact focus will depend on your other strengths. On the other hand, this mental activity may very well lack focus. The theme of Intellection does not dictate what you are thinking about; it simply describes that you like to think. You are the kind of person who enjoys your time alone because it is your time for musing and reflection. You are introspective. In a sense you are your own best companion, as you pose yourself questions and try out answers on yourself to see how they sound. This introspection may lead you to a slight sense of discontent as you compare what you are actually doing with all the thoughts and ideas that your mind conceives. Or this introspection may tend toward more pragmatic matters such as the events of the day or a conversation that you plan to have later. Wherever it leads you, this mental hum is one of the constants of your life.
Focus （目標志向）
“Where am I headed?” you ask yourself. You ask this question every day. Guided by this theme of Focus, you need a clear destination. Lacking one, your life and your work can quickly become frustrating. And so each year, each month, and even each week you set goals. These goals then serve as your compass, helping you determine priorities and make the necessary corrections to get back on course. Your Focus is powerful because it forces you to filter; you instinctively evaluate whether or not a particular action will help you move toward your goal. Those that don’t are ignored. In the end, then, your Focus forces you to be efficient. Naturally, the flip side of this is that it causes you to become impatient with delays, obstacles, and even tangents, no matter how intriguing they appear to be. This makes you an extremely valuable team member. When others start to wander down other avenues, you bring them back to the main road. Your Focus reminds everyone that if something is not helping you move toward your destination, then it is not important. And if it is not important, then it is not worth your time. You keep everyone on point.
これが、ぼく自身の認識する「自分の行動パターン」を基にした、ぼくの強み（の素）。
全体最適を第一にしつつ、情報を集め、新しいことを学習し、うにうにと考えて、ふと、どこへ向かってるんだっけ、と考え直す。
で、アクションが遅い。おぉ。
こっちでは古本ですごく安く買えた。
Your Signature Themes report presents your five most dominant themes of talent, in the rank order revealed by your responses to StrengthsFinder. Of the 34 themes measured, these are your "top five."
Your Signature Themes are very important in maximizing the talents that lead to your successes. By focusing on your Signature Themes, separately and in combination, you can identify your talents, build them into strengths, and enjoy personal and career success through consistent, near-perfect performance.
Harmony （調和性）
You look for areas of agreement. In your view there is little to be gained from conflict and friction, so you seek to hold them to a minimum. When you know that the people around you hold differing views, you try to find the common ground. You try to steer them away from confrontation and toward harmony. In fact, harmony is one of your guiding values. You can’t quite believe how much time is wasted by people trying to impose their views on others. Wouldn’t we all be more productive if we kept our opinions in check and instead looked for consensus and support? You believe we would, and you live by that belief. When others are sounding off about their goals, their claims, and their fervently held opinions, you hold your peace. When others strike out in a direction, you will willingly, in the service of harmony, modify your own objectives to merge with theirs (as long as their basic values do not clash with yours). When others start to argue about their pet theory or concept, you steer clear of the debate, preferring to talk about practical, down-to-earth matters on which you can all agree. In your view we are all in the same boat, and we need this boat to get where we are going. It is a good boat. There is no need to rock it just to show that you can.
Input （収集心）
You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information—words, facts, books, and quotations—or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies, baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity. If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but, rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don’t feel comfortable throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It’s interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable.
Learner （学習欲）
You love to learn. The subject matter that interests you most will be determined by your other themes and experiences, but whatever the subject, you will always be drawn to the process of learning. The process, more than the content or the result, is especially exciting for you. You are energized by the steady and deliberate journey from ignorance to competence. The thrill of the first few facts, the early efforts to recite or practice what you have learned, the growing confidence of a skill mastered—this is the process that entices you. Your excitement leads you to engage in adult learning experiences—yoga or piano lessons or graduate classes. It enables you to thrive in dynamic work environments where you are asked to take on short project assignments and are expected to learn a lot about the new subject matter in a short period of time and then move on to the next one. This Learner theme does not necessarily mean that you seek to become the subject matter expert, or that you are striving for the respect that accompanies a professional or academic credential. The outcome of the learning is less significant than the “getting there.”
Intellection （内省）
You like to think. You like mental activity. You like exercising the “muscles” of your brain, stretching them in multiple directions. This need for mental activity may be focused; for example, you may be trying to solve a problem or develop an idea or understand another person’s feelings. The exact focus will depend on your other strengths. On the other hand, this mental activity may very well lack focus. The theme of Intellection does not dictate what you are thinking about; it simply describes that you like to think. You are the kind of person who enjoys your time alone because it is your time for musing and reflection. You are introspective. In a sense you are your own best companion, as you pose yourself questions and try out answers on yourself to see how they sound. This introspection may lead you to a slight sense of discontent as you compare what you are actually doing with all the thoughts and ideas that your mind conceives. Or this introspection may tend toward more pragmatic matters such as the events of the day or a conversation that you plan to have later. Wherever it leads you, this mental hum is one of the constants of your life.
Focus （目標志向）
“Where am I headed?” you ask yourself. You ask this question every day. Guided by this theme of Focus, you need a clear destination. Lacking one, your life and your work can quickly become frustrating. And so each year, each month, and even each week you set goals. These goals then serve as your compass, helping you determine priorities and make the necessary corrections to get back on course. Your Focus is powerful because it forces you to filter; you instinctively evaluate whether or not a particular action will help you move toward your goal. Those that don’t are ignored. In the end, then, your Focus forces you to be efficient. Naturally, the flip side of this is that it causes you to become impatient with delays, obstacles, and even tangents, no matter how intriguing they appear to be. This makes you an extremely valuable team member. When others start to wander down other avenues, you bring them back to the main road. Your Focus reminds everyone that if something is not helping you move toward your destination, then it is not important. And if it is not important, then it is not worth your time. You keep everyone on point.
これが、ぼく自身の認識する「自分の行動パターン」を基にした、ぼくの強み（の素）。
全体最適を第一にしつつ、情報を集め、新しいことを学習し、うにうにと考えて、ふと、どこへ向かってるんだっけ、と考え直す。
で、アクションが遅い。おぉ。