I just awoke from a tiny nap, and I'm sitting here, in a state of brain dead-ness.
It's soooo nice outside. But I have nothing to do (ﾉДT)
I'm really hating this computer these days, I wish I had something better to do. But sadly, I do not.
Maybe I'll go watch a DVD or something.
I'm walking.
Just walking anywhere. And today has ended up being a day where I don't feel like myself.
It has all led up to this.
I'm just waiting for something that can't happen. I am waiting for those words.
What form will your words take?
I don't know. And I'm tired. I'm tired of always asking "why". I just don't want to deal with it anymore.
Arghhhhhhhhh
Everytime I think I'm fine I fall into this same hole again o(；△；)o
I think "maybe", but I know the answer is "no".
It will never be "yes". Not even remotely a "maybe".
And yet I am sitting here with some sort of hope that I know I have to stifle. And I feel like shit again （Ｔ＿Ｔ）
I'm trying my best here not to get emo on y'all (´□｀｡)
It's not anything remotely emo, anyways. I value my life, thank you very much.
It's just that sometimes there are things we have to encounter that will hurt us. And this thing is bothering me a lot, and will continue to bother me for a while until it dies off like all the other times.
For now I will just reflect upon where I stand.
It's all a part of being human. At least that's what I'm trying to convince myself of.
