Replay ☆ 1427

i have tried find new book for my paper work and i found only one which i took here!

it is great book about german romanticism

but it is not enough for me!

sigh

when i stopped talk with librarian i would like to take photo in library because of light

i do love this library for colours and silence and two librarians

when i got free time and i did nothing i took this one ahah

just i like my eye here w

yesterday we went to one street where we dont walk at all and decided to take some photos

well well sunlight was amazing but sister didnt give me good moments to make nice photos with her!

nah nah nah

i am glad of this one though

it is almost monochrome colours :3

i am so skinny here 

did i lose wight because of feelings?

stress?

laziness?

why? 

or i am just good looking person 

w

i like this photo for these red flowers and my dimple w

i just like colours in this picture, sigh

and yeah, i think here i look nice 

well, i dont know why i like this photo but i like it!

today when my classes were cancelled i decided to spend my time in library at electronical class, but there was full and no free time

so i went to another library of philosopy department and i found so great sunlights!

so i read my ironic book there and i did find book about abstract expressionism

well, i prefer realism, and i do love to look at details

however these colours in these two pictures made me feel warm in heart

uhm, i think i srtat to understand such type of art and some of them i will like for sure

after library, where, by the way, i waited my ex classmate and we told there a bit

later we met up with her anyway

she is here!

Tanya!

she said she feels nice with us

i am glad

while i did stand up i took photo of them while they told each other w

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1426

i liked this lamp at our main street!

and autumn came so autumnly!

so deep gray clouds

so rainy days

so poetically 

i think it is impossible to pass by this building without photo

i really like facade and inside wall of this building

it really reminds me about soviet period where i wasnt born yet but heard and saw a lot

and if you look from side on photo to the straight where i go to

you can see this charming pink building

because of this repairing people are getting cold!

oh this damn sphere!

they never to do in time everything!

next day, i guess but not sure

we went to aunt to make a small photoshooting of autumn!

and before we took a break with coffee and sweets at her small kitchen

yeah we did it

however sister wasnt so happy because most of photos she didnt like

but what can i do?! i asked her clearly, how do she want i take a photo of her...

and i got a few photos too

i cant see that i like myself here too haha

but i really like our public garden

and i wanted so much to take photo with light of sunset!

on Monday i got a call where i was asked to go to my alma mater in order to visit the opening of research institutes

i was admired wth it

and i didnt think i could see something like this 

but i did! and i took this photo

after that they asked me to write an article that i did in the evening of that day

but today they said that my article was changed by article of teacher who manages of the opening

Sister said, they didnt accept my article because of teacher

i really hope so because they said before that my article was fine

i do hope

but alsi i have sad thoughts

. . .

. . .

. . .

in the evening when i came back after university i took a photo of living house

well, you know this light made me feel warmth

thats why

next day 

i know again that it is damn stupid to take photo of feet

but these leaves didnt me pass by ahah

and we took photos with old living houses again

o my favourite one

when i was at library i got some new books about german poetry and

ah..how it is cool i was inspired by J. Becher he has amazing thoughts and quotes about literature in generally and poetry

however i used books of russian great writer like Голосовкер and Луначарский 

anyway i get some trouble with my paper work, i really try to do something new

but i understand i cant think something new

ohhhh

and today i got new philosophical book by russian  philosopher

this book about irony and eros

it is grea news because one of my chapter belongs to Shlegel's irony, so maybe i get new information about it? 

-kahara 

Replay ☆ 1425

it was a few days when i wrote here 

however i would like to be in contact with diary often

or

as i've noticed

i forgot most things

and already i forgot some

sigh

autumn, real russian autumn came here

it is cold and sunny and cloudy

but last two years i have been opening Pushkin's autumn

and understand why he loved autumn so much

in that day we went to stay at library to prepare some works

but we spent a whole day at uncle's shop

and in the evening we took a few photos with new coats

it is one type of period when russian girls adore to take photos of them 

and we are girls too

though

just the moon in the evening was so wonderful and by right hand is our local library

it doesnt seen but it is

yesterday i went to take father's order and sister went to market with grandmother

after that we went to cosmetics shop and bought some things like red lipstick, soap and, and i forgot, blah

when we gave back books to library we took a few yet

one old magazin of 90's, i dont know why sister took it

however the title of magazine is "The Knowledge'

and i took philippines novels of 60~70's 

and yet Gi de Maupassant (I am not sure about english version, but)

after we came to out aunt and took a snack like meat, bread, tomatoes. green et cetera and

coffee from Kenya

she took it from friend

 

moreover we took from bookstore our new order

it is Landau's words, Edgar Allan Poe, Fedor Dostoevsky and unknown french writer Pascal Quignard

when i found information about last one i opened one title like 'Tous les matins du monde'

Some time ago i found words from the book and..and i liked it haha

i'm surprised

like, thats a fate!

I will read it with pleasure

i dont know why Poe touched me so much

i dont think because of his mysterious and kind of blood stories

but why...

well, может некоторое психологическое состояние, из-за которого или под влиянием которого он писал эти рассказы. 

Стиль и слог

он ведь романтик, а они все-таки так близки мне по духу и так высоко надо мною

я ими восхищаюсь и они кажутся оттого такими недосягаемыми и, возможно, идеальными

- kahara

Replay ☆ 1424

Im confusing how to start

I dont study well so it seems like i am in frustration

in the beginning of this autumn we went to pick in potaoes

and in the end of day we decided to get relax such way as

take a big wild herb and take photo with it

i even danced a tango with it 

in the evening i saw airplane in the pink sunset

it was so charming moment

we visited our aunt a few times and one day i wanted to take a portrait but i feel shy

i dont know why, well even

nah, because i didnt talk a lot i got bégaiement 

is it bad? or not? but i feel some stress

you know, like im talking such way because i am worrying but it is not

moreover i take new books and try to read it all and while i have time i understand i MUST write my work 

i dont know why i have some barrier or..whats a damn block in front of me? 

it seems I know that everything i write excist already!

it was one in a few classes in this month when i visited class

oh, why we dont have normal classes?

well, i know a reason, just.. i want to do something

i know that i have work besides homework and still do nothing

What is going on, sigh

this autumn is full of physalisis and i cant stop to admire of them!

when we went to market and when i got a bit trouble with relatives,,,i thought that finally i could tell something to grow up in my mind

yeah, it is getting period when i really realize what i am not so child as before

however i would die in the moment when i must separate with my past life

in background in the trees is my house and none can see him w

oh no

i can see it

. . .

anyway these apple trees

i thought i will take photo  of book that i read but sometimes i cant to do it

it sounds like i excuse how many books i read

foolish idea

however, sometimes i do like covers of them and i cant to not take one photo with cover of them

oh, how to catch a Muse!

recently i thought that we have two classes and when i came in uniersity i realized that class was cancelled.

. . .

. . .

. . .

then i walked around two hours and sat in library with sister and then came to next class

and then

i realized that our teacher got vacation

this...this.. september makes me crazy

no scedule, no plan, no thoughts

I am going crazy

. . .

i've started argue a lot even

and and my thought about future arent so kind as it was before

well, when i went to uni i found book that was popular here when it was released

just I dont like this author but i found his book in freemarket

some unknown person left book there and i took it

at least

i read first 60 pages for 30 mins

is it easy reading? i dont know

when i get free time i will back to this book and i will know why people like it so much

in the same day sister took book at another freemarket about ancient Greece

about Spartak

oh, i cant wait to read it!

but now I am reading Leo Elnitsy and his great book about Great travels of antique world

well, yeah

this love came from childhood

when we were around antique philosophers books

just i think why i am so gool and limited person?

i can just take from book and thought

but my vocabulary

oh

thats why it is so hard to find the common 'language' wo any person

/sigh

these hearts to right book for sure!

also last week i met my ex student and he gave me tea from India

o, thats amazing tea with perfect flavour

iam so thankful to him for such gift

also i tried to make eyelines

but it doesnt work long

sigh

and what happened today

i awoke around 8 am and went to art museum

our Tretiakovsky gallery sent to our museum some pictures and we got class there

ooo

i do love russian painters for how they did draw dailylife of russian people

ppeople didnt change

thats exactly

i didnt have right to take photo

but when can i get a chance to do it in a whole my life?

who knows?

even if they said me it is forbidden, ars longa vita brevis

Perov, Repin, Makovsky, Shishkn et cetera

oh

it was so outstanding

i wish i stay at home and i really tired of people because i spent most of my time at quiet place

with books and silent

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1423

so this august we spent for getting tan.

o, we went to there only three times and i got three different tans

ah, my back and legs are damn brown but face is still white

just for fun i covered my shoulders because i thought i can save them from sunlight

and children played in the water with their parents

but none can see them in this photo 

well, later we went to the store to buy sckin care things

and sister bought letter cards for gifts

next day we went to meet with our friend and while we waited for her we decided to spent time in the bookstore

ah

i found some book about cosmos bt awesome sciencists

and then we visited new serbian cafe SAVA

oh, but in the morning we took some notebooks and i asked sister to take photo of the top that i did sew

well, next day or in a few days we went to take our order from bookstore

and visited library by the way

and in this day we bought some material for future bags

ah

how i do love to take a pitures with pink walls

i cant ignored that time when sister bought honey and we made small pancakes

and before this hour we visiter aunt's village to picked in plums

well, lont time ago i wanted to read him, and finally i did it

so, August became my the most reading month in this summer

i dont remember that happened that day but while we went to the store we decided to take photos

lets go

and we bought this

lipstick by sephora

mask sheet by tonymoly

lotte milkis (i didnt like it, yah it is too sweet for me)

and water from caucaus haha

so in next day i wanted to try to bake biscuit cake with milky cream

well, i did it well, 

i liked the taste

but who give me praise beides me?

o, how many times i wore my new top haha

next day we went to the center to see coat

ah, i do want new coat...

well, i know i dont have beautifyl shape of body, but once i wanted to take picture of my back

ah, before this day i got surgery

first time i did lay down on thee surgerous table and i felt how they cut my neck 

in the library i found some new book ang took it in that second!

well, i liked last two: Lifeboat by Rogan and The private life of russian woman of XVIII of century

and i didnt like Keruack, oh

in the evening i met my friend who did bring me coffee from Malaysia

thank you, i did like it, of course

i cant say that Lifeboat is outstanding work

but it is easy reading and the synopsis is lovely.

it was recently and my brain is so weak to remember why..ah!

i remember!

we went to the store to buy some cosmetics

or..no..just photos are fine for me

anyway we got new books and korean cream for body

i do love this cream 

my skin looks like royal ahahah

anyway, skin looks smoothy and white

and last friday were were invited to wedding

and in that day i did caugh a bouquet 

and who it looks in day light

ooooooooo, i dont remember that we did in this day

it seems like 'you overcame this day, forget it already'

let it be

so on next day i have tried to cook nasi goregng (am i correct?)

and another type of biscuit

ahah

i cant cook sweets

/sad

i cant watch anime

/sigh

only books left to me

before a day when i found Hose Risal i opened him to myself

and i took books by Galileo publisher about science, about space

Mary, come to space, leave this mortal life

haha

he is philippine writer who wrote in spanish, so why no?

in our small library i found so rare book

i would like to find something yet

when time comes

/sigh

Kujira no Kora wa Sajou ni Utau

well, i wonder about synopsis, because of my summer was based on antiutopias

so why not?

Ousama Game The Animation

this thriller reminds me about shiki that i still didnt end...

i dont believe it will be the same, but something tells me i can see similar things

3-gatsu no Lion 2nd Season

so i missed about shaft graphic and i waited for you, Rei

Code:Realize: Sousei no Himegimi

i was bought by their outfits...

it reminds me about Kuroshitsuji

and soon we can see new history of Ciel

Dies Irae

i dont like poster

why should i watch it?

omly some thread connects to that

and it is secret 

next monday is my first day in university

and it is last year of my official education

last month i closed myself from people around and focused on books

well, i would like to continue this practice

looking at pictures it sounds not so, right? 

but if you try to calculate it, then i left my home around 7 times 

and... and...

what is waiting for me in autumn?

what did i get in summer?

summer changed me

Harry Styles – Sweet Creature 

-kahara