Replay ☆ 1432

i couldnt ignore such view

it was freeze and smoke in the white sky

and these trees and red building with wonderful лепнина

on the next day in the morning. around 11 am, snow made everything in white colour

it is like a fairytail

excepting this car in the left below angle of photo

later we went to the market and moon was so bright

reall,y, maybe because i was born in winter i adore this period?

and recently when i got free time i decided to watch film and noticed this one

it is based on novel by Санчес Пиньоль and i didnt expect it will be seen in cinema

the title of his book is Холодная кожа but name of film is Atlantis

but it is! 

and for film it is nice work

however, i support the Mist 2017 but most of people hater it

lets be objective people

it described all novel and director did right when he added some thing that werent in novel, he opened up heroes more than in novel

well, in one morning i saw this sunrise and

i got adorable mood to nature again

in real it was more red, in photo it is more orange, though

when i came in university with gloomy mood, it was 26th of January,

one guy gave me these three cards because of Day of Student

and me, looking down and didnt look at his face at all accepted these cards with creep voice

yah, it is sad 

i didnt talk for awhile, so thats why my voice changed a bit even

it is really wonderful the beginning of new year

this month is so dramatic for me

and started so sad

they kicked out some of my feeling from heart and

yah thats really made me to change

and i feel like the level of my mind, feelings, i dont know what is yet, took off by them and i feel as i never felt before

just now i really dont know how talk with people at all

i cant avoide them though, because i still study, i still do something and i must do that

but..this new mood is similar to...

you know like everything inside burnt out and it tries to come out

and my face is still smiling or show some emotions but it is not sincere as before

it was my fault too, though

for one month i cried as many times as i didnt do it ever

oh, whats going on? 

my heart turns into small dry clot 

it's funny by one side, but it is a bit like here 

''And then her heart changed, or at least she understood it; and the winter passed, and the sun shone upon her'' J.R.R. Tolkien

moreover after some month i started listen to asian music and, it is double funny, but some lyrics of one group, Day6, described my mood

and that is more funny, it is, today, when i came back from Vice-rector, my co-worker gave me one poem, and.... hell, it described me

i know it is phenomena Баадера-Майнхоф

but let me think, that my mind works like that

sigh

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1431

mmm

after new year i made waffles 

it was like ice cream from my childhood

so wonderful and so tasty to me

aunt made sucg gifts for us

like she gave us glass dogs

because we were born in years of Dog

well, to be fair, I dont mind a lot about it

but it is really cute 

on new year we didnt have snow at all, juust a few days ago it came to our city

nice

when i came back home after university

well,  it is in front of my house, and how long i remember this lonely lamp always was there

it is pretty away from our house, do i dont understand why they built it there

anyway it has romantic idea 

to me, of course w

on this week we got snow

so before university i got some hourse to visit library and took books there

it was Stiivenson and his Black Arrow.

it is about меч и шпага and i dont like it a bit

i prefer his Hyde and Jekyll 

snow is so fluffy like bed

when i came back from university

i saw how africans girl played with it they kicked each other to snow and did laugh so much

i can imagine that they felt then

On Monday i will get last semseter on my master degree

so i got schedule and there are some subjects that i want visit

but some, you know 

however i finally go to library there and get small talk with librarians

i missed of them kind of 

today snow blocked some lines under ground and heating was stopped for some hours

can you imagine how cold was it? 

thats why i woke up a few times the during night

anyway

i need to complain a bit

right now w

my back is getting worse? or i dont know why it hurts often than before

even if i make exercises or make a plank it still has a pain there

i read in Cold blood, where one woman has hysteria because some  nerves were blocked with back

maybe i have something like that? 

las autumn and winter i...

well i think it is really my human being to be so sad or waiful person

nah, i cant tell that i look at things by negative side

it is my part of my personality and i feel like it grows up

and i can do nothing with it 

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1430

i liked Milan Kundera here. not that russian book Встречи that i read already

this one is more close to me as a philosopher w

I liked second one and i read about Kafka, Poe and someone else

i really got some thoughts from

and i understand now how it makes my worldview bigger 

and finally i boughts Capote's book!

i almost swallowed 42 pages for short time

mmm, i got only nice books 

they really belongs to my mind w

my so-called intuition works 

om monday i visited library and heard that she will go to theatre where students of my present university will perform

and then i just asked my classmate, because she plays there

so i asked two tickets, why no?

somehow i need to go to somewhere

and i liked

it was simple but so charming 

long time i didnt visit this theater and my outfit doeasnt suit to theatre

but i had no chance w 

how we are similar with sister w

today i got this one

im sure it is tasty

ahh, im so glad to get it

today. when i take magazine in my former university i met so many workers who confused me with sister because they worked with her

and they were sure that I am is she w

and i met students who told me здравствуйтеand i stopped them because i thought thet were wrong but they called my name and they said they are sure it is me

i was so glad again w

so wonderful day

so nice...

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1429

о, много чего произошло и нет желания об этом писать.

хотя и писала я письмо к потомкам, но эти пару месяцев все было как-то хаотично, спонтанно...

не знаю, я будто потерялась,

может это накручивание к концу года?

но все равно как-то печально

не хочу не заводить новых друзей, не просто общаться

это становится в тягость 

и страшно начинать что-то новое

да, я знаю, что "надо покидать зону комфорта!",

но по-моему я сознательно пришла к такому обособлению.

а эта милая маленькая собачонка тявкала и пыхтела, считая меня большим слоном.

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1428

When i went to library last time to take some books for dissertation

add when i wrote information to card and gave it to librarian i waited for some couple of minutes and she came with empty hands

she said i was wrong and i used wrong symbols, and i am almost fool in the end!

oh, everytime she made me angry

at lenght they did find nothing and she offered to me to choose one free book

i was glad first minutes but when i saw that it is foolish love stories or low level fantastic i said i cant take one of these books and better if someone finds here

she said how can! What do i think!

in the end i chose another book from another box 

a small selected novels my Andre Morua

well, then i went to reading hall and took some books that i cant take to home

i read book about poetics!

Woah! I didnt think it can be so charming

and i found there article about Holderlin and Baudelaire 

when i waited for another book, it is Irony and Eros by Solgers

they said me again that i am wrong!

so i took this box of cards and did bring to librarian to say that she is wrong!
 

so she said i need to go to another department

while i was wating for it i found nice books by russian poets

like Akhmatova

and when i wrote a bit conspect about Dostoevsky i realised i want to read his works!

Before i couldsnt believe that i would like to read it 

so, when i get free time i will try to read

im  glad that i no need to buy his books or take in library, because there are in my home

and then i went to library to philosophy department of my present university and i found Solgers!

it is a bit funny

because librarian said none gave this book from 1987

i wish to read it as soon as i can

when i took this photo i saw this lamp!

Yah, i like this cooper lamp haha

i wonder it still works

yesterday i took some books about theatre of antique Greece, Rome

and when i did need information about Alberti i found it yesterday only!

Ah! It is always so

but it is better now than never

and after classes we went to cosmetic shop

to buy something for skin

and sister didnt want leave this small bottle with flavot of guava

it smells really nice!

and i do hope this aloe helps me with dry skin that i got because of cold

last two days i got stress and i cant sleep well again

i do need someone to share with

so many thoughts are mixing up and make hurt to my mind

i even walked alone in quiet place where none walked

oh

someone 

-kahara