Even if the shadows of the awful memories of the past haunt me still, whether it's those guys or it's of dad, I know I have my current life Im eternally grateful for and to nurture and work on. I have something so solid with Mehdi that such past memories can't demolish my present. Regardless of my other purposes changing with time, I know my purpose to be Mehdi's protector and best friend will be forever. I can't wait to know with clarity that I've become his fiance, just living this reality in a few months will be something I know I can never take for granted in a way that words can't describe, that I'd be able to cherish every day. It'll be the beginning of our new chapter together, further deepening our friendship and everything in between.