stone cast away

Well. On Sunday night I suddenly confronted my family about the fears I had in my childhood and now..

That night my family discussed on how cruel some indian families treat their children. I felt that.. I dunno. Can tell the difference btwn my fam and indian fams because domedtic violence is almost the same.

So I suddenly just say la. Told them sometimes I'm afraid to face them when I'm at ny weakest confidence. Even if they told me there is nothing to be afraid of. But I just can't help it. At times I rather stay at my room till my mom went working then only I can go out from my room..

After 2 hrs of talking. My mom apologized. In my heart I felt good in a way. But I felt bad that she faced pressure when I was young and she really dunno how to take that. But when she apologized. I cried. Like totally let go. Like a lil boy hugging his mom.

Of coz. Her apology I accept. But things in my heart can't be changed. But at least I'm learning to get closer to my mom..

I will end the cycle. I want my spouse or my children to be happy and no bad memories will abstruct their growth.

Although it took hell a lot of courage to tell them my fears. I would still like you to keep your promise of being my confidence..



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true meaning

The true meaning of. 'I want nobody. Nobody but you.' I felt it already.

Don't say you're not worth it because you really worth it okay.



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Delayed Update

I receive this about Monday morning..
And I wanted to tell him off actually. But whatever la. Later if i tell him off i'd lose 3 as a friend now..

But wanted to rant someone so I decided to do it here..

He apologized for troubling me that day because 3 was in a situation and I simply solved the problem for her.. Yes. you are too far and cannot do anything yes I know. I am not obliged to help her also.. But... I want to. you know? I want to help her always.. No matter how also Im there for her.

You see, Always. I've been helping her. sometimes unwillingly but I'd still help her because I really care for her lah.

Dear Jing Ming, I want you to know. I help 3 not because of you or whatever.. So don't need to treat me when Im around JB or SG or whereever whatever.

I seriously appreciate the courtesy. But I don't need it. I am helping her in anyway possible and just want to let her know that no matter how also. Even if im not her bf anymore.. I will still be there for her. Anyhow anywhere.

I can confirm that I can take better care of her than any guys would..