Well. On Sunday night I suddenly confronted my family about the fears I had in my childhood and now..
That night my family discussed on how cruel some indian families treat their children. I felt that.. I dunno. Can tell the difference btwn my fam and indian fams because domedtic violence is almost the same.
So I suddenly just say la. Told them sometimes I'm afraid to face them when I'm at ny weakest confidence. Even if they told me there is nothing to be afraid of. But I just can't help it. At times I rather stay at my room till my mom went working then only I can go out from my room..
After 2 hrs of talking. My mom apologized. In my heart I felt good in a way. But I felt bad that she faced pressure when I was young and she really dunno how to take that. But when she apologized. I cried. Like totally let go. Like a lil boy hugging his mom.
Of coz. Her apology I accept. But things in my heart can't be changed. But at least I'm learning to get closer to my mom..
I will end the cycle. I want my spouse or my children to be happy and no bad memories will abstruct their growth.
Although it took hell a lot of courage to tell them my fears. I would still like you to keep your promise of being my confidence..
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That night my family discussed on how cruel some indian families treat their children. I felt that.. I dunno. Can tell the difference btwn my fam and indian fams because domedtic violence is almost the same.
So I suddenly just say la. Told them sometimes I'm afraid to face them when I'm at ny weakest confidence. Even if they told me there is nothing to be afraid of. But I just can't help it. At times I rather stay at my room till my mom went working then only I can go out from my room..
After 2 hrs of talking. My mom apologized. In my heart I felt good in a way. But I felt bad that she faced pressure when I was young and she really dunno how to take that. But when she apologized. I cried. Like totally let go. Like a lil boy hugging his mom.
Of coz. Her apology I accept. But things in my heart can't be changed. But at least I'm learning to get closer to my mom..
I will end the cycle. I want my spouse or my children to be happy and no bad memories will abstruct their growth.
Although it took hell a lot of courage to tell them my fears. I would still like you to keep your promise of being my confidence..
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