hihi

i want to fall in love

........

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness


Because none of it was ever worth the risk

a challenge

got through with it....
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needs to stay strong...
needs to stay positive...
needs to boost that confidence,
that self-image and self-worth...

will be alright

:)

hopefully...
hopefully...

hmmm

i want to do many things..
i want to buy many things
i want to eat lots of food hahahaha

:))))))

positivism

how would i start this?

Im fine. I feel good.. not the fine for a day.. or because some factor just triggered it...
I just feel ok.. i feel good.. yes kinda good.. its like im starting to have this peace of mind ive been waiting for so long.. I dont know.. I just feel that way now.. and im really really glad..(・ω・)/

I don't know how long would I be like this.. but maybe if i always put an effort on feeling good then probably I would attain it again and again :)

I can't really say im happy.. i mean happy as in HAPPINESS.. but i guess im happy haha..
im glad.. so glad that I dont worry anymore.. maybe thats it!!! i stopped worrying so im glad.. makes sense right?

maybe i got tired thinking too much.. i got tired questioning too much.. that even the little things I have to question their proofs and their basis .. Ive always been like that.. i guess for 5 yrs? ive been like that.. and maybe i have come to realized that even it helps me to think well it also affects my life negatively.. Of course yes, its a trait of mine and i dont think I can just erase it.. but now I just want things to be simple.. i mean, i dont want to question anymore.. ive been always wanted to assuage my hunger for truth but the more I want to lessen that hunger the more i get confused.. maybe now I realized that there are just things that I dont need to question, that i dont need to find basis for such existence... maybe..
maybe now i started believing.. :)
maybe thats it...maybe thats the reason why i feel this good :)

now the next step is to maintain this situation..
i need to stay strong, stay positive and have that faith that things would be better :D

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I was lost but now I believe :)

the most genuine thing

your smile is the most genuine thing I have ever seen....
I was so lost but now I believe

a songwriter

watched dashboard confessional's concert yesterday...
the vocalist is amazing..
passion+talent+good looks..
exactly my type haha

its been a long time since I got this crazy over a musician/vocalist
the last one probably is Laruku haha.. hyde=my fave lyricist..
but now its chris carrabba,,,

I LOVE HIM haha SERIOUSLY.. :)

im running out of words

i havent felt like this ... for a long time..
for a long time i havent felt like this..

in every music, in every melody
in every song
he's very dear to me
i love him that much..so much..

I can feel him in every taste of heaven
In every stars i can see him..
the twinkling of the stars are his smiles..

oh im running out of words
i must be this in love

:))

confused

when someone tells you he loves you but he shouts at you and cheats on you... thats a good example of "double bind"... another one.. when someone tells you he misses you every second but he doesnt find time to even see you... thats is a classic example of double bind

when someone is willing to let you go... but he still loves you.. thats confusing.. and it becomes even more confusing when he returns to you when he finds out you have someone new.....

i dont get this...
LOVE?... thats not LOVE.. thats PURE EGO!!!!

come on.. people talk about love but they done even know whats LOVE...

i hate it

life....

thoughts of dying......