how would i start this?
Im fine. I feel good.. not the fine for a day.. or because some factor just triggered it...
I just feel ok.. i feel good.. yes kinda good.. its like im starting to have this peace of mind ive been waiting for so long.. I dont know.. I just feel that way now.. and im really really glad..(・ω・)/
I don't know how long would I be like this.. but maybe if i always put an effort on feeling good then probably I would attain it again and again :)
I can't really say im happy.. i mean happy as in HAPPINESS.. but i guess im happy haha..
im glad.. so glad that I dont worry anymore.. maybe thats it!!! i stopped worrying so im glad.. makes sense right?
maybe i got tired thinking too much.. i got tired questioning too much.. that even the little things I have to question their proofs and their basis .. Ive always been like that.. i guess for 5 yrs? ive been like that.. and maybe i have come to realized that even it helps me to think well it also affects my life negatively.. Of course yes, its a trait of mine and i dont think I can just erase it.. but now I just want things to be simple.. i mean, i dont want to question anymore.. ive been always wanted to assuage my hunger for truth but the more I want to lessen that hunger the more i get confused.. maybe now I realized that there are just things that I dont need to question, that i dont need to find basis for such existence... maybe..
maybe now i started believing.. :)
maybe thats it...maybe thats the reason why i feel this good :)
now the next step is to maintain this situation..
i need to stay strong, stay positive and have that faith that things would be better :D
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I was lost but now I believe :)