「日本人では駄目だ」~Get nothing in the Japanese~
日本人と話していると、これまで、消化不良する幾多の思い込みが生殺しのままで俺の心中（うち）に置かれてしまう。日本人では駄目だ。大抵の日本人と話していると、大事な場面で声量を落し、「私は」「俺は」と遠慮する仕草を見せて、俺の元から去って行く。皆、何か、自分の世界だけで語る事だからと、例えば哲学論などは無駄と称して、逃げ去るように消えて行く。そうかと思い対人して行く際、希に残る人がおり、「おっ」とか思って話して行くと、自分の主張ばかりをし続け、他人（ひと）の話を聴けない未熟な大児が露わになる。こうした経過・光景・情景を数多に味わった上で俺は言う。満足に話せた試しがない。現代人とは、正にその〝話せない輩〟に成る。何故ここまで…？と本当、不思議に思える程に、現代人は、真面に話を続けられない輩に育ち、話せた！と思わされると、瞬間でどこかに去る輩が全員である。もう、話す時期ではないのではないか。話す時期は、もう、過ぎたのではないか。現代人である皆がその事実・根拠を証明しているようにさえ見える。男も女も似たようなものである。今、俺の元には、永遠に話せる人が一人もいない。この環境が俗世（ここ）で味わわなければ成らない試練だとも、最近では信じ始めている。恐らくそういう事なんだと。古代の人と、永遠に話してみたい気がする。中世の人間と長らく喋ってみたい気がする。近世の人間でも良いかも知れない。今は余計な物が増えすぎて、そちらの方に皆興味を奪られてしまって、「人間的な行為」をとことん排除しなければ成らない新たなコミュニティを現代人は作り上げてしまったのだ。そう、信じさせられるわけだ。最近、その事を思い哀しみ始めると、もうそれでいい、とも思い始める。俺は、現代・現代人が嫌いである。大嫌いである。善い奴・悪い奴ピンキリいるが、皆、纏めて放棄できる覚悟がある。俺には、何か語るとき、日本人は、自分達で自分達の首を絞めているとしか見えない訳で、その下らない行為を見ているだけで、この現代（じだい）を捨てさせられる程、嫌気の差す何等の威力を突き付けられさえする訳だ。何かを真面目に話していても、その次の瞬間には、男女共に、何かふざけたノイズを掻き立て始める。その「ふざけたノイズ」は得てして神が呈した罪に在る事が多い。現代人は、皆、欲望に任せて奔放に生きている。規則が在っても、皆、奔放に生きている。又その規則とは、得てして、何等の権力者の為に創られた背景を持つ。本当に、現代人とは話し難くなった。皆、本当に老若男女問わず皆、妙に理屈っぽくなってしまっており、何を話しても話が進まず、時に、他人の調子を窺うだけでへとへとになる事もある。ばかばかしい事だ。そして少し視点を変えて見れば、時代の流れについて行けなかった、俺の未熟な姿勢も挙がる訳だ。この事が、もしかすると、大きいのかも知れない。確かに、周りには話せる輩が何人か存在する。しかしそうした輩とは、気持ち良く、永遠に話せない。このギャップを思わす他人と自分との存在の在り方は、俺にとって哀しい事である。又、得てして、古代・中古・中世・近世の哲学者とは、他人を寄せ付けない、寡黙漢かも知れず、このような事を言ってそうした漢達に会いに行って話をしてみても、現代人達との関係と同様に、否もしかすると現代人達と話す際よりももっと話し辛い情景を見るのやも知れぬ。そうして見ると、結局、俗世では、俺が言う様な望は叶えられそうもないようだ。この事はこの事で又、諦めねば成らぬものかも知れない。こう言う「俺」が、特定の者達の内に棲むのではなかろうか。
When I talk to a Japanese, until now, numerous assumptions that were caused from mortal instinct would have been placed in my mind while feeling indigestion. I couldn't get mental foods from Japanese people in most cases. When I talk with most Japanese, most people drop own voice volume in the important situation in simultaneously refraining from the insistence, but showing me a gesture that says as "I" or "I". But and then, they gradually go away from my side. Everyone seems to say word that was caused from only the world of their own, for example, in when recognizing such philosophy theory that disappears to flee as waste. When being brought interpersonal relationship, most people who are remained in the special motive listen to the talk, and therefore I thought as "Oh", but the specific adults who are like children continue to show only the claim of their own gradually, and finally, such people will not listen to the other party's claim. I have said these because I had experienced these "elapse" "sight" "scene". There wasn't satisfaction that would have been caused from conversation with others until now. I want to confess to the modern men strongly as "You guys, needn't to speak". Why so far…? These phenomena that are brought from modern scenery that is spreading out among modern humanity seem real wonder. And the specific people that were said in the above continue to exist around me forever. Maybe, they would continue to exist within the specific circle that was made from immature of moral. Just after conversation was over, most people had hidden own figure immediately from before my eyes. Anymore, the joy of conversation might have been over. Satisfaction that is brought from conversation was gone. Modern humanity seems to prove the evidence or rationale that are relating to these elapse now. According to this elapse, male and female are resemble when showing insistence. In now, honesty that is due to pure mind of personality gradually has been lost. Anymore, I am deciding to grow while accepting the ordeal that brings me the lamentation of this worldly taste. This determining is brought from the invariable worldly world. This human world wouldn't be changed forever. I am feeling to want to talk with the ancient people forever. Therefore, I want to talk with people who had lived in the Middle Ages or Ancient Times for a while. Those people also may be replaced to the people who had lived in the Early Modern Period. Maybe, modern people had mistaken in selecting the necessary things, and then the specific people had reconstructed the poor community that would be able to exclude the good humanity. It's because most people had been fascinated by the wasteful senses. People who are in youth or middle age might be believing wasteful worth. In addition, recently, I can think that it is good when thinking about my success that would be caused from new modernity. I hate modern people and modernity that throw backbiting against personality. Surely, personality that is questioned in good or bad exists in this world, but I have the preparedness that would be able to abandon all phenomena now. When I talk something, modernity compels me abandonment of my history that has spread out in this world, but that becomes to the happening that would give me joy because I am aware of the self-destruction of modern people. And it compels me to think about stupid deed of the persons. I am talking seriously, but when looking down town, boys and girls always show me appearance that has no interest. And in addition, they always is remained around me. Youth and middle age who were described in the above uproariously live in this world while having insistence in desire. They can survive proudly in spite of being shown the rule. In addition, the authority that was caused from the rule of this worldly world simultaneously is brought from some elites. Really, I hardly can talk with modern people. Young and old who live in this modern times grow while arguing, and I sometimes am very tired to talk with such people because conversation doesn't advance at all. This is stupid deed. However, according to other viewpoint, I can love my immaturity that I could not follow to the change of this state of society. I think that this point was big. Certainly, few persons that have ability to talk exist around me. But I cannot talk with such people comfortably forever. Two existences that would be able to compel me the gap is sorrowful existence for me. And in addition, I also can say like this. The above-mentioned people (people who lived in the ancient times or the Middle Ages or the Early Modern period) also might have existed as people who didn't want to talk with me. So, I might be compelled to stare the realistic circumstance more than scenery that is caused by modern people. According to the above, the specific circumstance that is around me seems to not give me ideal situation in this world. I can gain abandonment of human relationship while having this ideal hope. Isn't it possible that this kind of "I" was within certain people.
「八月」（二〇一四年八月二九日五時四一分筆）~Season (The description that was written in 5:41 am on August 29 in 2014)~
八月ももう終わりかぁ。
I hope eternal time.
「現代」~The present time~
この世の全てが女化した。この世の流行は、女流を推す。
All creatures that live in Japan are going to be improved while sustaining the chemical change to women.
「警察」~The existing justice~
現実の警察には悪役は居ても、ドラマに見るような英雄（ヒーロー）を見付け辛い。それに加え、現実の流れはドラマのように丸く収まらない場合も半々に在る。
Justice is not existed, but evil future exists within the rational rights. Addition, I couldn't find the heroes who are drawn in current drama until now at most.
「作品に採るべき描写」~Your expressions that should be drawn in own works~
現実から引用される一貫した描写の類は、誰もの思考に採られる必然から成る。そのような描写・手法は他（ひと）に任せて、お前はお前に言われた独自の描写を記さねばならない。
Necessarily, every realistic drawings would be expressed by everybody. Such drawings should be not relating to you, and addition, you must remain drawings that were informed by your own naturally.
「経過（とき）」~Elapse~
ときはそのまま、動いていないのかも知れない。それは単なる物事の積み重ねかも知れない。
Time that we know might not be moved (elapsed) around me. That detail simply might be assemblage.