Yesterday, 2 of my classmates (before) from other section said something to me while we were sitting in the bench, watching students dancing cultural dance and some students playing volleyball.
"Ding, we miss you", they said
"really?", I turned my head facing them.
Both of them are boys.
One classmate, I describe him as sleepy classmate because he had always been lookin' sleepy and had taken a nap many times during class hours before.
The other classmate, is a kind of stupid, cute "girl-chaser" basketball player.
The sleepy classmate replied, "Yeahh, we are lonely now 'coz no one will shout to us 'Please keep quiet!!!' or post on the facebook group what are the assignments or take pictures of us..."
And added by the cute girl-chaser classmate, "yeah, and nobody will about talk about... you know..."
"really?", I asked again.
"Yeahh, we really missed you"
"fufu, thank you", I replied.
These 2 boys' classroom is just next to our classroom. But we don't often talk to each other.
Because I don't talk and go out from the classroom where I stay in. lol
Well, I get come to their classroom and to talk with them and others for about a minute or 2 but it's all about WHAT SHOULD THEY DO, their assignments from me, work work.
Of course I'm happy they said that to me.
I never thought 2 of my classmates who have mind of a child and who sometimes make me angry due to their being hard-headed would miss me.
What they said to me seem to answer the question in my mind,
"Should I continue telling off my misbehaving classmates?"
I decided I will continue it even if some will complain and be angry at me.
I believe it is right. And I will do what I believe is right.
By picking in the bowl about what should be done, we were able to find out what to do.
We picked a masquerade ball. Then, other group picked pageant from the bowl. My group mates and I decided to exchange with them. So ours became PAGEANT.
My teacher said we'd be acting as gods/goddesses. And the clothes, as much as possible must not be bought. She said to find clothes from our closet and make it into god's outfit.
At first, the sounds of the introduction of movie wasn't Mozart's but Tom and Jerry のでした。 My group mate suggested to me to make the introduction funny, foolish looking. As a group mate, I decided to accept her idea because I do not want to be always the one whose idea prevails. So I ordered some boys to act funny, stupid, and foolish. I am included there.
Then, I changed the music from Tom and Jerry into Mozart. But the video is still the same. I thought we should mix our ideas.
While having our shooting, some boys tended to act foolishly. You can observe that in the video. That is one of the things I was complaining to them. But, still, they continued doing foolish poses. A part of me says "let them be".
My classmate didn't bring tripod or anything that will make the recording look steady. So the video looks shaky.
My other self asked me, "Will you just leave this at it is? Allowing shaky video to be presented to your teacher..."
"Yes. I'll leave it as it is. If I ask my classmates to act again, I am sure they'll complain.And it's noisy to hear it.", this is my answer to my other self.
Weeks ago, the teacher in Physics said that we'll be making investigatory project. So we'll (students) have to make a product that is much related to physics.
This time, making the product must have to involve 2 students only. In the classroom, there are 34 students. 34 is an even number so it is divisible by 2.
The teacher paired the students according to their grade. So if one student got this grade last school year, this student's partner must be the student having near grade to the 1st student
The teacher said, the principal wants to have quality blah blah ( I don't remember what to call that term), that is why she wants students to be paired according to the grade of both students that is close to each other.
First, the 2 names sir called was my bright classmate and me. My teacher didn't call me by my first name nor by my second name. Instead, he called me by my nickname, DING. lol
Of course when I heard that she'll be my partner, I felt good. It is because, first of all, she is my dear friend. And because of that, I feel comfortable saying anything to her/or I can probably be honest. Second, I think of her as a responsible student. So I expected that BOTH of us will work on making it TOGETHER, receiving burdens TOGETHER, being happy TOGETHER, sharing ideas TOGETHER, and helping EACH OTHER.
Recently, we started sharing ideas so that we can have our title and the concept of our product. I thought it is difficult for me to come up with a good idea because I need to have enough knowledge about it. I guess she thinks so too.
My first idea was to make a ball pen in which its ink is made out of the extract of the leaves or whatever natural resources are there. But the problem is, how is it exactly related to Physics? My partner said that my idea is more related to Chemistry than Physics. I thought I could try to solve that problem easily by researching it on Google. I was eager to know about it and then make it since ball pen is one of my favorite things. I thought I'd do better if the material is part of my interests. When I researched it on Google, やっぱ it is difficult to find the answer I want desu. So I disregarded my idea.
They said it should be related to electricity and magnetism.
What?
Why these 2?? Aren't there many braches of Physics? I can't come up with an idea of those because I don't have enough knowledge about it. I tried researching it on the internet, and then there are some parts I don't understand. I thought I needed someone to explain it to me.
I thought of buying books about it, but where? This town where I live in doesn't have bookstore. And the place to find the bookstore is in the city which is about 2 hours away from my town. And to get there I need to commute. But I do not know how to commute by myself only. I need my boss to drive the car for me. But is the purpose for going there just to buy books only?
I suggest, why don't the teacher explain it to us first??
The teacher said we'll have to study it by ourselves.
皆様 (Oh, I missed calling you minasama)、this is just the second month of the school year yet we haven't tackled yet about electricity and magnetism. How can I come up with an idea that is related to that then when I do not have or WE do not have enough knowledge about it?
We must study it by ourselves. But studying it by ourselves only is difficult.
Most of the students in the classroom are having the same dissatisfaction the same as ours. So I and my partner are not alone in this kind of situation.
At first, I thought I wanted to be optimistic. And I did so by saying "we can do it!" But it was overwhelmed by the pessimism of my classmates and my other side of my self.
Oh I remember my father saying he is knowledgable about Physics.
If so, then please teach your dear daughter !!!
But I do not have enough courage to say "Pa, please teach me Physics" or "Do you have any idea about what product you can make that is related to electricity, magnetism or Physics?"
She ordered us to get a sheet of paper of any size. Then, we must write our name and our favorite ice cream flavor and then the characteristics that fit ourselves.
She said that each of these ice cream flavor tells something about the person who chose it.
She asked some students to read this aloud:
Butter
Pecan
If
your favorite flavor is Butter Pecan, you might be characterized as the perfect
worker. You are devoted, conscientious, respectful and fiscally conservative.
You hold high standards for right and wrong and show integrity in all of your
actions. This includes an extreme sensitivity for others’ feelings. You aren’t
one to wear your heart on your sleeve; it takes a little encouragement from
close friends and family to share your deepest thoughts.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most romantically compatible
with those who prefer Mint Chocolate Chip.
Chocolate
Chip
As
a chocolate chip lover, you are competitive and accomplished; no victory is
sweet without a little hard work. Although you are competent and ambitious in
love and work, you are generous with your time and money, never taking your
blessings for granted. Your captivating personality makes you a shining star in
social situations.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most romantically compatible
with those who prefer Butter Pecan or Double Chocolate Chunk
Coffee
As
a coffee lover, you are lively, dramatic and flirtatious – thriving on the
passion of the moment. Because you throw yourself into all that you do, you
tend to be over-committed, starting new projects without finishing old ones.
You tend to become bored by dull relationships and thrive on new and exciting
ventures.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most compatible with those who
prefer Strawberry.
Double
Chocolate Chunk
If
you love Double Chocolate Chunk, you tend to be lively, creative and dramatic.
Always the life of the party, you charm everyone you meet with your enthusiasm
and sense of style. You enjoy being in the spotlight and prefer to be in the
company of friends rather than left alone to reflect on life. You prefer
passion and excitement in your romantic relationships, and require a lot of
attention from your mate. Romantic
Compatibility: You are most romantically compatible with those who prefer
Butter Pecan or Chocolate Chip.
Mint
Chocolate Chip
As
a Mint Chocolate Chip lover, you tend to be ambitious and confident… yet a
little skeptical about life. You are a realist who prepares for the future,
needing a solid plan to feel secure. While your stubbornness is a business
asset, it can add a challenging element to your relationships. Nonetheless,
your loyalty, honesty and dependability create lasting friendships and close
family ties.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most compatible with other Mint
Chocolate Chip lovers.
Rocky
Road
If
you opt for the rich, indulgent taste of Rocky Road, you tend to be a balanced
mixture of charm and practicality. While you are outgoing and engaging in
social situations, in the business world you tend to be more aggressive and
goal-oriented. You enjoy being catered to, and appreciate the finer things in
life. You are very sensitive to minor slights and respond best to encouragement
rather than criticism.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most compatible with other Rocky
Road fans.
Strawberry
A
love for strawberry reveals a thoughtful, logical person who carefully weighs
each option before making decisions. More a follower than a leader, you are
content and effective working behind the scenes and out of the limelight. In
relationships, you are often characterized as shy and reserved. Although you
don’t fall head-over-heels in love at first sight, once you commit to a
relationship, you are loyal and supportive.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most compatible with those who
prefer Strawberry, Rocky Road, Mint Chocolate Chip and Vanilla
Vanilla
There
is nothing plain about Vanilla. In fact, if you love Vanilla, you are actually
a colorful, dramatic risk taker who relies more on intuition than logic.
Emotionally expressive and idealistic, you tend to set high goals for yourself,
and push yourself to meet and exceed them. On the romantic front, you tend to
rely on secure romantic relationships that fulfill your emotional needs while
working toward future objectives.
Romantic Compatibility: You are most romantically compatible
with those who prefer Rocky Road.
What I wrote in my paper is Vanilla. I usually eat ice cream that is of vanilla flavor. And Vanilla is my favorite flavor.
The teacher ordered students to raise their hands if they have chosen this flavor and that flavor. I only saw few students who raised their hands when the teacher asked who like vanilla. And for rocky road, many students raised their hands. "Wow! You like rocky road?", I thought.
I really wondered why only few students raised their hands at Vanilla. Isn't Vanilla yummy???
All that's left to do for today was to finish the project in English.
Our project in English is creating a pageant in which all the participants are gods and goddesses. For the group where I belong, we are roman gods and goddesses. But for the other group, they are Greek gods and goddesses.
We had to record the pageant by taking videos.
Today, my team mates came to our house at 1:00 PM. Out of 17 people, only 12 people came. It's better.
They agreed that they'd go home at 4:00 PM.
But they went home to around 5:30 PM.
I told them to change costume! Make their self-introduction as gods/goddesses. But they didn't. Do you want to know what they did in our house? Well, most of them used the internet (Wi-Fi) for checking their facebook accounts and taking self-portraits. Some also lay down on my bed. Some applied make-up on their faces. Some opened the refrigerator and asked me if he can take some food from there. Some touched my brother's thing.
I told them to observe silence. But they didn't. Too talkative. Probably, they lack of self-discipline. They didn't follow my instruction. Because of that, they ended up DOING WHAT THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO DO AT 4:30 PM.
3 hours and 30 minutes,,, they enjoyed talking.
Supposedly, these hours should be used to ENGLISH PROJECT TIME.
Sigh.
They started doing my instruction at 4:30 PM because I became really angry. "Why do now?? I know you have some other things to do. If U have done this earlier, we might have ended up at 4:00 PM."
I didn't know that today will be examination until yesterday.
Yesterday, the teacher said tomorrow the exam starts. And I guess I'm the only person who didn't know about it.
But good thing I was able to do study some things during saturdays and sundays.
I killed my laziness.
The only problem I have is
Can I do it for Mathematics?
I've read 20 pages in Math (for 1 topic only) probably 10 times over. Still, I don't fully understand it. Other topics in Math, I understand. But this topic, I forget.
Maybe, in order to understand it fully and be able to familiarize it, I needed to know WHY is this and that the answer of math problem.
Yesterday, after class dismissal, some of my classmates and school mates dashed over to my smart classmate who is very smart math. They asked her to teach them about the topic. And my classmate was willing to teach them. I also listened to what she was discussing to them.
As she discussed the topic to them, she sweated, hair became messy. She talks a lot, and seems to hope that my classmate is able to understand or catch up with what she was talking about.
It was 5:30 PM. She probably taught us for 1 hour.
I think, I understand my classmate's explanation more than my teacher's explanation. I'm able to understand why about some topics. Is it because she spoke in vernacular? And that my teacher spoke in English when he taught us? I sometimes learn better if the explanation is in vernacular. Maybe, I prefer my classmate's explanation more than my teacher's.
I'll give out what I have studied during the examination. I'll do my best. Maybe, this best is only up to what I have studied.
Today, during the flag ceremony, I didn't get nervous. Is this level up? Have I overcome something in me?
Tomorrow, it'll be my last time to hoist the flag. I'm on my assigned post for only 1 week.
Next week, I might want not to include myself to take a post. Meaning, I will not do hoist the flag or be the entrance guard and list the names of the late comers or blah blah.
5 minutes before the flag ceremony starts, the students should line up on the ground.
I always see my classmates not forming 2 lines. All I see is a very broken line. They always have chit chat. And it is not the time for having chit chat. They are very talkative. They cant even be silent for 1 minute. And they seem not to be embarrassed about their childish actions probably because most of the students in the school are childish. So they also have broken lines, have chit chat and blah bah. Maybe, they can't appreciate having proper behavior in this kind of situation.
I want to discipline my childish irritating classmates. Gays, stupid boys, hard-headed students, noisy girls talking about romantic story... Sometimes they can be trouble maker. And some of them intentionally try to provoke me especially the stupid boys.
I'm the president of the class. But it seems that I am unable to perform my power due to many students always complaining. If I do this and that, they'll complain. Which should I choose to do?
Well, I always think they should learn how to be disciplined. Other people might say about them like "WTF is this student!?" How poor. I will be doing this not only for my sake, their sake too and the for the TEACHER.
I want to become an absolute leader (meaning, my subordinates should always follow my rule, live by my rule). But a side of me also wants me to become a leader who does punishment according to the law of proportionality. Or reasonable consequences must be implemented to them whenever they don't follow my orders and rules.
Some of the rules I will share tomorrow
- speak english. if caught speaking in vernacular, immediately pay 2 yen and have them reported to homeroom teacher - the money that's collected from them will be used for future activities or events such as christmas party - carry your weight when you walk, if you can't, carry your shoes (this is to avoid noise). - if caught always not following my instruction, then get out. - if someone will try to provoke me, report it to homeroom teacer. - speak properly, don't show me lousy voice coz u sound like u r dreaming. All I can hear is asdhlfleieuabmdns. - if there's a student who disagrees my rule, ask reason why and have him or her reported to the homeroom teacher. - sit straight - attention should be on the teacher - while someone ( teacher) is talking, listen - don't look everywhere (it looks unclean to see your heads facing there and there). -clean the classroom during recess, lunch time and class dismissal. -include cleaning the platform, the teacher's table. - bring flowers everyday for the altar - if u cant form 2 beautiful lines after I've counted 20, i'm sorry but u have to remove your shoes while walking towards ur destination. - girls' legs should be closed all the time. - girls should have their hair tied. (pony tail) - proper grooming of the boys and girls should be observed - treat your teachers with respect. -Don't treat ur teacher like people in your age. - when lining up, hands shoud be at the ur back.
What made me be motivated to implement these rules is probably because I felt "understanding" after my homeroom teacher told me about his life earlier (around 5 o'clock). Well, it's only a secret between us.
おとといから my heart beats fast. I'm nervous. Every morning. My skin becomes cold. Is it because I'm one of the people who will hoist the flag (and many people are looking) and I'm afraid to make a mistake?
My nervousness was obvious. It was seen through my actions.
"Don't be nervous!", my weird classmate said to me.
"Do U know why U shouldn't be nervous??", he said while touching my shoulder.
"It's because you're Freya!", he exclaimed.
When I realized it, I smiled.
At that time, I never expected such a statement would come up.
"Yeah! And Freya is confident! Go! Fighting!", I thought.
Then, during the flag ceremony, I felt less nervous.
Now, I feel nervous. My feet is cold. My skin is cold. Even though my classmate said that to me, it won't make my nervousness completely disappear.
For this week, I assigned myself as one of the 3 students who will hoist the flag (outside).
My mates are the smartest student in the class (short girl with long hair) and the becoming responsible student in te class (short girl with short hair and her hair is tied up and she is talkative).
The place to raise the flag is under the heat of the sun. So the three of us are going to be exposed from the sun everyday in this week only.
As the flag ceremony was going on, we sweated. I couldn't see my surroundings with wide open eyes because the sunlight is too bright for me. I saw my mates' eyes like half open. It's hot to be under the sun. I want to cover my face with my hand to avoid exposure from the sun but I can't do that. We must remain standing, be silent and endure the heat until the flag ceremony ends.
After the flag ceremony, the 3 of us went back to the 2 lines being formed by boys and girls of our section. Then, we went back to our classroom. Then, the homeroom teacher arrived. He got the broom and swept the floor and tried to move the heavy stage.
The teacher was sweating. And I noticed his face seemed to tell us that "are u going to allow ur teacher to do the cleaning?"
As one of the students in this classroom, I felt ashamed. I thought the teacher shouldn't do that. I looked at the students. They were busy studying for the quiz. No student tried to help him. They were busy studying for the formative test.
A student should do it!
So I said to my seatmate, bulldog, "tell Sir that we'll be the ones to sweep the floor." Then he replied that he's shy. "Me too", I replied.
I don't know why we're shy to offer help and admit responsibility. lol I thought this being shy must be overcome.
With courage, I said to the teacher, "Sir, we should be the ones to sweep the floor!"
and the teacher nodded.
So I and my seatmate were the ones who helped him. We stood up. I cleaned the floor using the broom I got from the teacher. Then my seatmate moved the heavy stage. Then, other students followed what we were doing and helped us.
The cleaners for this day are tuesday cleaners. They are responsible for making the room clean for this day. So I handed the broom to one of them so that they can clean it.
They should have sense of responsibility to clean the classroom and do it. So even if nobody ordered to clean, they themselves must have their initiative to clean the classroom.
Yeaterday, I was able to say something to the priest. It's been a long time since we I said a word to him. We haven't had a talk for a while. And he shaved his thick beard.
The students were trying to do the respect sign to him. As I was about to place his hand on my forehead (for respect), with his voice that sounds gentle, he asked me, "how are you?"
I said "fine :-) " and did thumbs up and went away with my classmates forming 2 lines (i belong to the girls' line)
"good !" he replied.
It cheered me up. Literally, I was smiling while I was walking. It gave me a good feeling.
That's all I replied for there was not enough time to have a talk with him. But even though that's all I replied, it sounds satisfying for me.
The priest with gentle voice, thank you for asking me that :-)
The time to go to that " C. Lab." (room) is at 1:00 PM.
It was still 12:45 and I ordered my classmates to line up outside. It's still early.
Some already went outside but some were slow to move out.
I was waiting outside, standing with my arms crossed.
As they were going out, most of them were talking with loud voice.
Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah!
These are the words that passed through my ear.
I wanted to see no one talking. I wanted them to move fast, immediately fall in line, stand straight and not to move. They need to have disciplie. I wanted to scold them. I said those words many times before. I don't want to repeat it. It's annoying talking in front while nobody is listening. It just sounds like I am crazy.
The only person whom I noticed who followed my instruction was the girl who has the family name that starts with letter A. She's the first girl in the list of students in the classroom. So she is the first person in the line. She didn't complain about my order. While standing, she just kept quiet and behaved well. Others were talking.
Finally, when they were all out, I ordered them to make 2 beautiful straight lines. The distance between the line of the girls and the line of the boys is about 1 meter. But they couldn't make it. And they kept on talking.
Just a simple instruction and my classmates couldn't do.
It was very obvious the line was curved.
Don't they rememer the instruction of our homeroom teacher?
1) Fall in line 2) Arms forward 3) Once the line looks straight, do arms down. 4) hands at the back
Us being told with this kind of instruction... we are like 7 year old kids.
I wonder, why couldn't they carry out this instruction perfectly when in fact it's very very simple.
What are their brains made of? Why couldn't they understand this simple instruction easily?
Then, the guidance counselor called me and I went near her. She instructed me something. This was to be announced to my classmates. So I tried to announce the instruction.
But before I could finish talking, my angry girl classmate said something like in a loud voice
"It's NOISY! NOISY! NOISY! SHUT UP! SAY IT LATER! LET'S JUST ALREADY GO TO THE C. LAB! WE'RE ALMOST LATE! THE TEACHER MUST BE WAITING.
It sounded like she was annoyed and angry. Everyone heard it.
Then, the hall way was filled with silence.
I looked at her. Stared at her angry eyes and annoyed face.
I felt a bit of heart ache and anger there. I wanted to say to her "OK! If U r really confident about what to do, be the president then! Take all the responsibilities and burdens! I'd be glad! " but I decided to control my emotion. This sentence might worsen the atmosphere. So I decided not to say anything.
My plan was to never give signal to proceed walking towards the room unless they stopped talking and formed 2 straight lines. But this plan of mine was cancelled. Everyone didn't seem understand what that silence meant.
The lines were still curved. I couldn't see straight lines. And they were moving. It's annoying to see someone's head moving, fanning one's self using hands.
They couldn't follow very simple instruction.
I want to call them stupid people. But a part of me tells me to understand them.
Time is running. The silence was to mean "Please follow my instruction already" Most of them seemed not to understand it. Then, I finally gave up and said "proceed" And they started walking towards that room, still noisy.
When we arrived near the room, we couldn't get it. The teacher wasn't there yet. It was still early.
