I met with a member of supreme student council today to put forward my idea.
Luckily, we belong to the same campus, and we are friends. So I can relax when I presented my idea. And as you can see, the place we met is not formal. It's in 7-eleven. So it was an informal meeting. Yet, in the end, both of us could produce assignments or things to do for the next meeting. So it's good. 
In the end, the member suggested that I make a written agenda next time especially if I meet the supreme student council members so I won't lose track of my thought.
I don't have anything to show off. But do you think I can change the entire university?
My time is almost up. I will graduate soon. I want to prove my worth by doing something for my university. If I cannot change the entire university, at least behavior of the professors in our own campus can be changed.
My high school classmates now have become presidents in other universities, officers in the entire region, and famous personalities in their own field.
Good for them.
But how about me?
Is it a mistake for me to have enrolled in this university?
But even if I enrolled in other university, would I have become successful like my high school classmates?
I really like Japanese. I just like to be surrounded by Japan, Japanese.
In the future, I hope of becoming a famous person known for interest in Japanese and English in the whole country. That's my ambition. 
But I hate math. 
Is what I need all this time a boyfriend to cure my loneliness and depression?? 
But when it comes to boyfriend, I might be very choosy!
My ideal guy is this person:
He is Ben Tulfo.
I love his pronunciation in English, his deep voice, his strong personality and his gentle attitude towards women. And of course, his superb humor! He is soo handsome, isn't he 
By the way, he's also Japanese! I mean 1/4 Japanese!
There is no men in our department 
Actually, there are, but they are HOMO!!!
I wonder when I will have a boyfriend...
By this age ( I am 20 this year), I'm supposed to have a boyfriend already.
I don't want to become dried woman like dried fish.
こんばんは、みなさま
私のニックネームは「Ｙａｎｇｙａｎｇ」です。
でも、本名の名前は「フレーヤ」です。
私はフィリピンの女です。「フィリピな」とよばれています。
美しい島に住んでいます。
「セブ」を聞いたことがありますか？
この美しい島のなかに ある美しいなビーチと美しいな人たちを見つかれます。（笑）
それだけじゃなくて、いっぱいな楽しい人がいます。
でも、彼らが本当に楽しい人ならば、なんで私は感じられないの？
うれしいとのんきすぎて将来を計画するのは忘れてたみたい。
これは私の島民のいやだなところです。
もちろん、私はそのようなも。
私はいろいろなブログがあります。
英語と日本語のことを書いています。
でもこのブログは私の人気です。
日記だから。心配していません。
だからいつもここで書いています。
普通はこのブログで英語で書きます。
でも今日は日本語で書きます。
何年この日記に日本語で書きなかったんだろう。
いつも私の考え日本語で表します。
「日本人はいつも誠実」ってそんな私の日本人の印象が持っています。
日本語なら、なんかもっと誠実になります。
あと、日本語でしゃべてと書いてと、なんか私の世界は「Ｍｉｌｄ」になります。
最近、学校の日が始めたんです。
今度は9Ｕｎｉｔｓだけあります。
前は２７Ｕｎｉｔｓです。たくさんでしょう。
でも今は「３ Ｓｕｂｊｅｃｔｓ」だけを取ります。
だからなかなかＲｅｌａｘすることができます。
最近私の生活は積極的のようにです。
好きな男がいるかなー？
でも彼たちは「Ｍｅｄｉａ ｐｅｒｓｏｎａｌｉｔｙ」なんの人たちです。
みなさま、これを見てください↓
かっこいいでしょう？
私の人気はＢｅｎ Ｔｕｌｆｏ と Ｒａｆｆｙ Ｔｕｌｆｏです。
Ｂｅｎの声が好きです。英語でしゃべてなら、いつも聞こえて楽しています。
Ｒａｆｆｙはかっこいいも。
あるとき、２０１０年、私の国の「Ｍａｎｉｌａ」ところに人質がありました。
この人が会商に参加していました。
かれが助けました。
But these Tulfo brothers help the people in public.
Within 10-20 minutes, they listen to the complaints of the people and help them by negotiating and taking action for the problem through man-to-man negotiation before the problem reaches the court.
When they run out of time because of the limited time of their show, they still continue to solve the problem behind cameras.
Whatever the result of their attempt to the problem, they show or broadcast their report so that the case wouldn't be left hanging.
These brothers never leave a job unfinished.
They are famous, powerful and brave but at the same time they are servants of the people.
I secretly hope that by watching the tv programs of these Tulfo brothers, I will be trained to be brave to express my complaint, brave to involve other people responsible for it, and brave to solve the problem.
Speaking of which, there are a lot of problems in my whole university.
The department I am in is the worst. 
The solution is: it's either I leave the university or talk to the professors to change their ways. So, it's like inconveniencing myself to help them. 
But if I am able to change this entire department, I will probably feel I did something huge and important in my life and other people's life.
It's almost 11:11 in my time now. I will continue making my assignment now.
By the way...
これは私の日本人友達です。
I just miss her. Someday I will talk about her and me again in this blog.
I am writing this diary in my dark room in my house. I am sitting in a chair and my laptop is on the desk. My room is so annoying because there are many mosquitoes. The light bulb needs to be changed and I have to buy insect killer spray. But I still stay in my room because it is quiet and nobody disturbs me.
Anyway, recently I have started sharing my life on Facebook. It is a good idea so that people can get idea about me. In real world, people say that I look stict, aloof, unfriendly, stiff, etc..
That is probably one of the major factors that people avoid me. It is important to present friendly impression to people even on social network so as not to be misunderstood and avoided. So I am working on my image.
Before I hardly cared about my image until I met Japanese people. When Japanese people are in my country they say they feel relaxed. People in here are soo welcoming and kind... But I take that kindness for granted.
I realized the degree of my dependence to my own countrymen when I was surrounded by the Japanese. It was like I was a rich person because I could get things without working hard enough for it, like, friendship, respect, approval, etc.. But with the Japanese, I felt like I had to restart. I had to go back to zero.
Maybe I want to be treated the same way as Japanese people treat Japanese people. I have to work hard and earn approval from them. Indeed, it means another load and responsibility for me. But all my efforts are going to be rewarding for me when I finally realize what it means to be sincere, honest, noble, etc.. I want to experience Japanese spirit of gratitude.
But truth to tell, I simply want to be connected with the mother earth, enjoy my life with people and do the things I want to do before I die. Things now may seem complicated. But I chose them because I enjoy them. And also, it is to delay achieving my goal...
Oh, a famous pianist puts it this way:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9LCwI5iErE
I recommend to start from 7:22 as it captures my idea and end around 12:00
Planning
My time is almost up. Few years from now I am expected to join the workforce. But I don’t want to die just staying there.
Indeed, my relatives’ house was not well-maintained. But I was impressed by my relative’s management of their businesses. They have restaurant, water-refilling station, and farm (at least, that’s all they showed me). But what touched me most was what the parent said when we were in the farm:
“My parents planted these coconuts for us long ago so that when we, children, are financially troubled, we can use them.”
I was reminded of planning my future.
To be honest, I don’t have a specific plan for my future.
I wonder whether that’s the main reason I am depressed.
What do I really want to become?
I want to lead a happy life – I will have good relationships with my friends and family. Also I want to be famous and rich. I want to be surrounded by Japanese and Filipino people. Oh, I want to have a Japanese husband. Maybe, I can give him 2 children. Then, I want to manage business.
Both sides of my parents inherit land property from their parents. But even until now they never make use of it. I hope that my parents won’t sell it because I want to make use of it. I want to turn the land into a tourist spot. But first I need a lot of money to do it. But how and where do I get huge amount of money?
After I graduate, I want to work part time as an English teacher for the Japanese. And while I work part time, I will study for TOEIC, IELTS and other certifications for English, and also study Japanese! At the same time, after I work here in my country, I want to work some jobs in Japan, like teaching English. I will invite some of my friends to join me in working. I will have to work hard. While I am there, I will try to search for a Japanese husband. When I choose husband, he should have something he wants to do like business. And he shouldn’t cheat me.
After I work abroad, I expect that I already earned enough money to put up a business. My first business should be located in a city, near a university. Or, I can set up my business near a Japanese company. Because, my business is going to be a Japanese-English or English-Japanese tutorial center!
To be continued
