Hello from America! 
I regret that I have not blogged in a week. Work has been very busy, and
I am trying to find a bigger place for us to live at the same time. 
I will blog more with many pictures after we move in.
I work hard, very hard at my job. I do my best every day and getting results.
My management is very happy with me me and depends on me more.
My accuracy is improving in the work that I do.
Things are getting very busy at Comcast, as my project (called VSG) is going
really well. The company is investing allot in the future of VSG. That
means that I have a bright future as long as I keep doing my best.
That part is easy for me. I admire how Japanese people work hard.
It is one of many things I admire about Japanese culture. 
I wish more Americans felt the same way, though many do.
The first six months of being back to work full-time was a struggle. 
I had to regain my fighting spirit, and my self-confidence again.
I make some mistakes, and find it very difficult to keep up sometimes.
Yet every day I remember why I am fighting so hard. For my children. 
Without my two children, I do not know if I would have enough strength to do it.
For their sake somehow I am able to keep going. I do not think it would be
so easy if it were just for my own selfish desires to be happy.
I am lonely of course. I remember when I see couples working together to manage
a family and I am envious. As a single parent it is hard to get it right all the time. 
I run short of hours in the day to get all of the parental things done, like hair
cuts and new glasses appointments, things I feel guilty about when I can't do right.
I love them both dearly, and spend almost all of my free time
doing things for them. For one it's driving back and forth to where he works in
Pennsylvania to bring supplies, spend time with him, and help out. For the other
it is playing endless hours of YuGiOh with him (competitive YuGiOh too).
I feel really good about that part. My mom told me today that I made her smile
when I do those things, as she did those same kinds of things for me. 
I think that is the duty of every parent; the children must come first. 
I will admit that as my boys grow up, they tell me more and more that my
happiness matters, and that they want me to be happy too. I am grateful
for their consideration, and I enjoy being Friends with them.
I think being friends is very important, and helps build trust between us.
For now I have to stay focused on the goal; getting us into a bigger place to
live so everyone has their own rooms and lots of space, and to keep working hard.
This month is moving month, finding the right place to live is very difficult.
If I can do it right, I will be one step closer to happiness. For now I will have to
settle for dreaming about being in love again. The thing I miss the most
is companionship, compassion and friendship that creates soul-mates. 
It is being surrounded by people who care about me as much as I care about them.
How do I find her? I really have no idea. One day perhaps. 
Stay safe and have a successful day in Japan and America! 
Kristopher 