Things are peaceful here.
Nothing much ever happens in this country. The worst things that happen are train breakdowns.
This is a scenery I see almost everyday.
The other thing I see every day is your face, in my memories. I'm very used to it now. It's just another natural part of my life. Like breathing. Like sleeping.
I'm quite content to just know that you're alive and well. Yukata suits you well, just like back in natsumatsuri. I wish I could see your face, but you're shy, and I liked you for that. That is a big part of your charm.
You know, I have been trying this app called lunch click lately. For the last few months. It's a dating app with an emphasis on a serious relationship.
There was a period of time I felt quite desperate to find a girlfriend. Hoping that I can forget about you if I got a new girlfriend. At the same time I was also hoping to forget about the Cinderella girl, who was an intern from NTU. I had a crush on her, but we had absolutely nothing in common at all. After she left the company I felt quite liberated. I don't like losing control of my emotions.
I hardly look at the app anymore. I realised that I'm not interested in anyone at all. I'm fine being single for as long as it takes to find true love. I still believe in true love, because I experienced it.
Unlike you, I'm a guy, and guys aren't pressured to get married. Chinese girls are under heavy pressure to get married before 30 years old aren't they? I hope you are coping with that well. Naggy parents are annoying. Chinese parents restrict their daughters from having relationships when they are young but whine about them being single when they are in their mid-20s. What hypocrites, right?
I picked up a new hobby recently. You know how much I love music. I really want to buy a set of drums to play in my room, but due to my crazy father that isn't possible. A digital piano isn't as big though, and I got myself one. I'm spending almost all my free time playing it.
I feel like life is actually really good for me now. There's still a big hole left behind by you, but there's nothing I can do about it. I guess I am doing something about it by writing all these things. Hoping that maybe you will read it. No one has ever cared about me as much as you did. It's quite difficult to forget about someone like that, yeah?
I hope you're doing well too. Whether alone or with your boyfriend. You have worked for quite some time already, just like me. You probably have gotten used to working life. Work is never easy, but you're a strong girl. I doubt there's anything you can't overcome.
Stay healthy and stay happy. You still seem to love Japan very much even after all this time. Is that the greatest touch I left in your life?
Aimi is 2 years younger than me, and Sae is 6 years younger.
