Whenever I sang my songs
On the stage
On my own
Whenever I said my words
wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner, of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you
Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
What a fine morning. Cool weather after a rain. I'm reading Stephen King's books now.
Somehow, I dreamt of S-chan. Today is her birthday too. Our team gave her a surprise birthday celebration during office hours. This is why I love my company. Next month will be my turn... but I won't be surprised at all. It's hard to surprise me... since I am always very observing of people's behaviour and my surroundings.
I was surprised to hear that my supervisor played the kiseki series though. I jumped at it... and they laughed at my reaction.
I feel like the dreams I have can determine my mood for the rest of the day.
But it's okay. There's no need to be happy all the time, or sad all the time. Neutral is a pretty good state to be in too.
I'm feeling pretty neutral now., but reading Stephen King's books make me happy, so it seems like I'm going to be in a happy mood soon. Reading his books illegally though.
Oh yes, I bought 3 clothes from Uniqlo last evening using the NS50 vouchers! They are cheap but look good. I wear pretty simple looking clothes these days. I am a simple man. I don't need much to be happy, but having new clothes and shoes to wear does feel pretty good. Also, having Coco ichiban curry to eat makes me happy too.
He is working much longer hours, in a lousy environment, and getting a way lower salary. He hasn't taken a day of leave this entire year.
He's looking for greener pastures, and I hope he does.
Listening to him talk always makes me appreciate my job so much. I love my job, my colleagues, don't have to work overtime, and my office is not far from home. I am so fortunate.
His birthday is 19 October. Which is only a few days after mine. I will treat him to something good.
Life is great. Thank you God for giving me all these things. I am grateful. I am a greedy man, and i would like to ask for more. Please give the girl of hearts the happiness she deserves too. Let her have a fulfilling job, great colleagues, and good health.
S-chan suggested for Alvin and me to go watch a horror movie a while back.
Now the time has come. My favourite writer's book, IT, is showing in cinemas now. And it has broken box office records.
I tried to get us to watch it together, but she seemed so reluctant. After some pressing, she asked me if she could bring her boyfriend along. So that was it, huh...
So much for our bonding session.
I told her that I'm an introvert, and strangers make me feel uncomfortable.
I decided it will only make things awkward for everyone, so I will be watching it with just Alvin. He has a girlfriend, but his girlfriend doesn't watch horror movies, so he's fine watching it with just me.
It seems like Alvin is the only person I can always count on. I don't like dealing with girls, after all.
I feel so at ease with my bros, and with people like Alvin who shares my love for music and games. On the other hand, I always feel uncomfortable with girls.
The only girl I have ever felt truly comfortable with was the Princess. She really was a special one. She's like a witch who cast a spell on me the day we met each other. Maybe she actually is a witch.
I was expecting to go watch the movie by myself. I guess I should be happy it didn't have to come to that. Not that I mind, really. I can't call myself a fan of Stephen if such a thing is enough to deter me.
Alvin gave me some piano advice. Told me to go learn how to read musical scores asap. I'm on my way home from work now, and thanks to YouTube tutorials I already finished learning that. There's still plenty of time left, so I decided to write a quick page in my diary.
Hmm, Weijian got a new job! I think I contributed a fair bit to his decision to look for a new job. It is a startup, and it looks like he will be getting busy. He also launched his YouTube side job.
I am hoping to start some kind of small business that combines music and games. I don't have a very clear idea yet, but I do need to have a clear understanding of music theory first. One thing I know for sure is that I don't want to be working for someone else forever. The current plan is to retire by 45 years old. I only have 18 years left.
Violin 🎻 brass instruments 🎺... These are all instruments that haven't been touched on yet. Violin is so difficult to play... but it is a very popular instrument. It is also one of those instruments that girls who can play suddenly look 10 times more beautiful.
Reminds me of the girl I had a crush on back in my high school's symphonic band. She looked beautiful playing a flute. Wonder how she's doing now. She might already be married for all I know. Already 26 years old after all.
I need to understand these very well.
1) music theory
2) game programming
3) marketing
I also need to move out and build my own music studio, hopefully with Weijian and Leo. Hmm alright I reached home. Argh I feel so hungry. Wanna eat some ramen.
I wonder if this scenery will look very different in a couple of years. Things are always changing quickly in Singapore.
I woke up today to news of iPhone X's announcement.
It costs $1648 for the 64 GB model. Oh my God. That is more than five times the price of my phone. Apple even got JJ Lin to endorse it. Trying to appeal to the Chinese market.
Meanwhile, we got a new president. It's a shame that there was no democracy involved in her selection. Singapore already got a bad enough rep as it is, I can't believe they would do this. There was that Oxley road house fiasco not even that long ago, and now this...
Both of my Chinese colleagues are applying for citizenship. One of them is successful, the other is applying right now. It seems like there is a large group of people against these new residents. People need something or someone to blame for their own inadequacy.
There's this poll going on in the Japanese twitter sphere right now. Boys prefer the left body type, and girls prefer the right.
I asked S-chan, and she said she prefers the right. Girls want to be really thin eh. They want to be thin, and at the same time have big boobs. Maybe that's why so many women get breast implants.
I don't really care either way. Most women are going to become fat in their 30s or 40s, or after they give birth to a child. What's important is love. If there is love, appearance ceases to matter.
I can imagine the girl on the left thinking that she is fat, and the girl on the right thinking that her chest is flat, and both have body image issues. People are just never satisfied with what they have.
