2016年3月9日

几个月不见，听见 一句 " 最近还好吗？” 这样一个问候，这么一个关心，不禁对它产生感激。午餐时巧遇，小聊一下，发现他一点架子都没摆。就这样，我又添了一位朋友。

什么是爱情 、什么是婚姻？一直都没以爱情为主的我，它甚至在我要的那片天空中有地位吗？没全心全意为爱而活的我， 累了，要如何走下去呢？

在失调环境下过来的我，完全畏惧，完全没勇气走下同一条路。

人有悲欢离合 月有阴晴圆缺 此事古难全。 人生必然是阶段性的，但难免还是会为欢乐时光的流逝而感伤的吧。给予我的帮助及一切的一切感激尽在不言中。在乎曾经拥有的美好回忆，相信天下无不散之筵席。姐妹我爱你！还有其他姐妹们我们有缘再相聚！

2016年２月２９日

I don’t know why I’ve been so introverted my whole life. It’s been so amazing to be able to make friends with and talk to so many people and learn about their life experiences and to experience new things and cultures. There’s so much to learn from everyone, from their experiences – longtime friends, the people you meet at work, (I’ve got to say, as much as the organization sucks and there’s countless stinking people around, there’s been numerous wonderful people, especially the girlssss, and a lot of whom end up being my benefactors), random girl who sits next to you on the plane, (who also happens to be the same age as you and in the healthcare and we both start lamenting about the insufficiencies in healthcare), the people you meet at hostels, the people we meet in our daily lives like my regular optician, the experiences you encounter, from sports, volunteer, travels, courses, adventures etc etc. Every single one and every single thing contributed to shaping my life as it is today. Every encounter seems to open up a window to the world, widening my horizon, making me feel so small and each time making me yearn to discover more of this fascinating world. I can’t believe I had actually had intentions to end my life, without actually getting to explore this awesome life in this awesome world? That’s incredulous.

我人生道路上有你们及与你们共同创造的经历太美好了。 谢谢你们ll!!💕


So 2015 had been a year of focus on my family and again received so much love, support and help from kind souls and loved ones. This year shall be an extension of giving back to my family and returning favours, if not more, to my benefactors and loved ones. Concurrently, with more focus on my personal goals than 2015 which I have lost ground on as a result.　


２０１６年、飛ぼう。

Wake-up Call.

The Nepal earthquake tragedy was a wake-up call for me. I feel so helpless and guilty having forfeited the Ops Lionheart standby and not moving in the direction that I want to go. I forfeited the standby this quarter because it has your birthday and our anniversary celebration.

And so I thought about our relationship; I thought of how it had halted my achievements in life. I admit that I'm not skilled at juggling several commitments at a time, and it's my fault for not managing them well and for getting obsessed with being in love( for being so self-centred, ugh.) and letting it take priority over what I want to to achieve. But I am also frustrated by you lacking in kindness and compassion, your materialism, your extravagant lifestyle and thus not inspiring me in that aspect to strive for my calling. I'm re-looking at the meaning this relationship or a relationship in general holds in my life.