ブログネタ：ずばり、恋人と続いた最長年月は？ 参加中Perhaps, I just haven't met the "one", yet. So far, I haven't had a long lasting relationship, but then I still like to consider myself young, so that might be a reason for that. The longest would be a half of a year or so. If I could count a puppy love that I did when I was still in my school years, then I could say a year, but without that one, I think the relationships that I had with my past partners were severed within a year.
I don't really believe in a long term relationship. For some people, such a thing exists, but long term relationship isn't just for anybody to take. I feel like Scrooge, but I can't stand the excess optimism, like you would see in one of the Disney movies or the hallmark channels. There's nothing wrong with "happily ever after" theme, I suppose... But I think I seen enough, that it's not so in reality. So, whatever those film makers make has nothing relative to "down to earth" type of lives. They may have a "cute" stories, but that's about it, and after a while, those films started to fail in raising my curiosity to see them.
The feelings are susceptible to change. The biochemicals changes over the years affect our feelings, so just by living affect our emotions. If not biochemical factors, then physiological condition could do just as much. I've seen it happened, when I was young, I think I was about 9 or so. My grandmother on my mother's side had suffered from a cerebral hemorrhage. After she was recovered to an extent, where she was allowed to have visitors, all of our family members went in to her bedroom, lined up with cousins and others around her bedside. Her doctor asked her to name each of us. She named every one of them, except when her finger met my direction, she shrieked in fear, saying to the doctor that I was a stranger's kid and to remove me from her room. Her emotion of love toward her grandson, disappeared in one instant. At the time, the doctor may thought I wouldn't understand him, even if he explained, so he just told me "Your grandmother didn't mean it". Of course, she meant it! In her mind, the knowledge of me was completely deleted, I could see her face in fear and frustration, having a "stranger" at her bedside. Whatever the fact was, to her, that was "real" and whatever she felt, she felt and she meant it. I think it would have been better, if the doctor would have just explained to me that I was the youngest memory, the "newest" memory in her life, and so it didn't quite "stick". I know damn well of vulnerability of human emotions. Those are really unreliable to believe in. My grandmother never recovered any loving emotion for me after that, after one tiny blood clot. She would say, whatever she was supposed to say, with my grandfather's coaching, but in her words, the emotion of love toward her kin was gone forever. How silly to believe in and hanging on to such an emotion as human love then, that is so fragile?
If not physiological, then just simple boredom could end love. The true love relationship is the one that would feed one another for our growth. As long as the couples are complimenting one another, there would be no room for boredom. Some people are lucky enough to have that kind of relationship with their partners. I am a person of curiosity. I love when others offer me a totally different viewpoints, that I know I could never come up with myself. The thing is, just as I am easy to warm up, so as easy to cool off on things, including love. As soon as I see nothing new from my partner, my interest toward that relationship would sharply decline. The routine life is peaceful, yet I don't see anything worthy to keep, if the relationship is not moving forward to raise one another. Because of my own nature, I don't mind my future partner to feel the same way with me. I don't think I have that much that my future partner could learn from, so I wouldn't be surprised, if she finds me boring in a short while.
What I wouldn't do is holding on to the relationship, dragging both of us down in the end. I have never disagreed, when my past partners brought up the "break up talk". I said okay, and that was that. Some of my past partners may perhaps hoped for what the couples usually do. They break up, and they make up, sort of like a tug of war, but I never liked those games in love, because our feelings are unreliable without having to play the game of love.
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