２月１９日から木曜日まで入院して私がどう感じたかをまとめて見た。
トーストマスターズクラブで、「発表者が前回、まだ1人しかいないので
誰かお願いします。」という連絡がきたので、発表をすることにした。
まだ確定申告も終わっていないのに、本当に私は優先順位がいつも違う
３月２日土曜日に向けて４、５日で書き上げ
て、発表を終えた。仕事を終えて、いつもは
自転車で行くが、この日は術後なので、まだお腹痛いし、場所もいつもと離れた所で開催されたから、車で運転して行った。
書くことで何が得られるか？ 自分の振り返りができる。これが一番だった。また、他の人に
スピーチを発表するのは何が良いか？
他人（13人参加）に自分の考えを緊張ながらも
分かるように、壇上に立ち伝える。これが
スピーチ力、英語力、説得力、表現力を高める
に最適だと思う。
CHAT-GPTは利用せず、自分のみで。
Stay in a hospital
I happened to be carried into a hospital by ambulance.
It was because I had a severe pain in my stomach about a half year ago.
It was at 3 o’clock at midnight. I got an x-rayed or CT scan of my stomach and
I was given an I V drip, intravenous drip and felt better then my husband
took me home.
It was nothing serious, said a doctor just simply.
A week after that, I went to see a family doctor in order to get a shot of influenza, then that doctor told me that she received the image of my stomach from the hospital which I had been carried to one week before.
She said, “ There is something around your lung so you should go to a bigger hospital to get checked.”
I went to the general hospital a few times which usually we can go to via introduction of some clinic or someone. I got CT scan and MRI, which made me very sick. Something weird was found around my lungs. I decided to remove it because my mother passed away from lung cancer three years ago. That was an option of whether I get surgery or not because that tumor seemed benign, not bad.
But, I wanted to get anything annoying out of my body. I didn’t think about any anxiety at that time .
However, staying at the hospital gave me more different vision than I had expected.
On the first day, I was admitted to the hospital. “Who will attend me during a surgery?” So my husband had to accompany me for 2 days.
It’s because the attendant at the hospital must be the same person on the day of the surgery and the day before. We needed to listen to a lot of unimaginable risks, such as transfusion or a burst of the lung because the tumor was near the lung and the spine , my legs starting to shake.
On the second day, the surgery day, at 8o’ clock I got on a wheelchair to the operating room. I was given a general anesthetic. My eyes were filled with tears because of my increased fear. It took me two houses to get surgery and I had to stay in another room for patients who got surgery on that day. During all night, someone shouted, maybe because of something uncomfortable. It seemed incredible, like a nightmare.
As for me, I was connected with several tubes, such as urinary, blood pressure, electrocardiogram, and the beating of the pulse.
I was also very worried about whether the urinary tube was working well.
Nurses came around me every hour to check each system and they talked to me kindly every time, so I was relieved somehow.
The next day, a constrained day was over and I was freed from the tubes after getting the X-ray except IV drip. I came back to the room where I got on the first day.
Nurses encouraged me with the most careful care but I couldn’t smile because the cuts of my stomach were aching. I just pushed her to do things I took. My behavior was so blatant and curt.
In my view,
In the hospital, which is a general hospital most patients visit for surgery of cancer or something serious.
So, patients are admitted to a hospital with fear and get surgery and we happened to meet others at the peak of the pain there. Can you imagine that situation? I just thought my mother was in this hospital about 6 years ago for an anticancer drug. How hard she was at that time. I didn’t talk to her so gently, not being so nice to her.
I saw nurses dealing with such patients not to discourage patients from depressing or becoming upset. I think such care by nurses is awesome.
On the fourth day in the hospital, I was finally discharged from the hospital.
I was able to witness various human lives, which let me know that every person is desperately living at every moment.
Living your life is hard, however, not only your life but also the life of every single person is hard, which is sometimes extremely challenging.
That’s a life. We should live with a strong will while being thankful to the people who support us.
また、論評をいただけるので、その方からの評価がとてもためになった。
それは、
ダイレクトスピーチをもっと使うと良い。 quataion " "でリアル感が出る。
クライマックスを意識する。
自分では 私の手術に対しての向き合い方を 弱い→強い（恐怖）、看護師さんや
周りの人に対する関心を弱い→強い（感謝）をして表現していたつもりだったが、
もっと、それをピークにする表現を入れると良かったのだろう。
とはいえ、今日の夜から確定申告の準備に入る