to day is good friday.altho i have no idea wai issit good when jesus was supposed to have died today.isnt it supposed to be bad?
i've been thinking recently about some weird things recently.like getting a tattoo.and my non-existent relationship status with jc[note: for convenience's sake,L has been changed to jc].
on tattoo:
i really think sth behind my ear will look nice
maybe a tinkerbell?
or should i get sth on my hip?
on jc:
okay.its time to sort these weird feelings out.i rly have no idea why im attracted.
then again cmg back to the coercion-of-consoling-sms matter, why would he carry on the sms convo if he doesnt want to sms at all in the first place right?
maybe he is just afraid of liyin.haha.
bt maybe he and liyin would be better of tgt?tt is if they like each other?
cus they are on quite gd terms leh.always go out tgt.
stop.wait.
im not jealous if tts wat ur thinking.i dun rly care abt this sort of things.everyone needs their freedom.and further moar, me and him havnt even started aything yet.not even v good friends.like him and liyin and gang.wonder if the way he smses everyone is the same as he smses me?
bt certainly, he has given me some privileges tt other girls hvnt been able to get.like taking a photo w me.n the ezlink matter.zzz.
haha.wai do i even notice all these small and insignificant things?he probably doesnt even think twice abt it.he just has an ego boost thinking tt some girl likes him, tts all.
hais.
i rly dno.im supposed to have a self imposed lifetime of celibacy already.too scared off by the past brush with relationships.i say BRUSH cus i havnt been in a relationship yet.zzz.and im 17.and single.argh.
even if u date, whr does it all lead to? just a painful breakup rite?so why r ppl so stupid as to fall into this trap?and wai am i joining this group of stupid ppl to get myself hurt?
one factor that is totally unexpected, is tt jc hasnt had a gf b4.i was like: r u f-ing srs?
so if we rly do get tgt,almost our first everything will b given to each other.except virginity la![bt actually if he dun mind, i dunt either.heheheh]awwww.i think tts kinda kewlz.liddat then considered fairplay rite?
my posts are getting longer and longer.i dno wai too many weird thots to spam i guess