i'll be damned.i shouldnt have ever set up a blog on blogger.com.its inconvenient, lousy blogskins and i cant express my opinions at all.i cant rant at all.whats the point laaaaaaaa
anw.i need urgent relationship counselling.i need to set my muddled up brain right.
i love him best when he is conducting.his expression is...i just feel this connection some how when he is conducting and im standing as usual in the middle, right in front of him.but unfortunately, due to the choir's horrible state, he cant conduct proper hence im not feeling good.i want to see him conducting in full regalia and it had better be soon.
hmm.
i just sound silly.
but the main reason why im angry now is that i feel that he is using me.
i feel unappreciated.
like when he want me to do stuff, he'll say alot of nice stuff: like address me as darling, or say: need you leh~
but the moment i agree to it, he'll just act as if its supposed to happen that way according to what he has planned. it just makes me feel so unappreciated:( and taken for granted:(((
i think he knows that's why he is doing this.or else why would he[who is about to marry and fuck his aunty bride on their giant wedding bed] do this to me??
i feel used.
either that or his flirting instinct is inborn. which i don't think so.
anw.i need urgent relationship counselling.i need to set my muddled up brain right.
i love him best when he is conducting.his expression is...i just feel this connection some how when he is conducting and im standing as usual in the middle, right in front of him.but unfortunately, due to the choir's horrible state, he cant conduct proper hence im not feeling good.i want to see him conducting in full regalia and it had better be soon.
hmm.
i just sound silly.
but the main reason why im angry now is that i feel that he is using me.
i feel unappreciated.
like when he want me to do stuff, he'll say alot of nice stuff: like address me as darling, or say: need you leh~
but the moment i agree to it, he'll just act as if its supposed to happen that way according to what he has planned. it just makes me feel so unappreciated:( and taken for granted:(((
i think he knows that's why he is doing this.or else why would he[who is about to marry and fuck his aunty bride on their giant wedding bed] do this to me??
i feel used.
either that or his flirting instinct is inborn. which i don't think so.