I get the results not on friday, but thursday. Even worse. Can someone save me please? And my parents are at vacation so i have the house for me. At first i thought it would be cool to be all week alone...but it sucks. I have to cook for myself, clean and stuff. And it's boring as hell.
Yesterday my world was falling apart and now i'm in a really good mood. Something is wrong with me.
I seriously need some holidays, i can't. Everything sucks so much. Hospital sucks, Patients suck, Teachers suck, Doctors suck. And there is nobody to motivate me and cheer me up...Well i have a beautiful best friend but i don't always want to be a burden. She has already done so much for me.. and i guess she has problems too. So in the end i'm all alone. I wish someone would just listen to me, while i'm complaining.
Looks like i failed Anatomy and Pathology...My teacher said the exams were bad. REALLY BAD. And some of the really good students got an D, what have i? F or some shit like that? I studied so hart for this shit and what did i get? Fucking nothing. I can see the results on friday, but i so know that i failed..
So, just came home from the hospital. I've seen so disgusting stuff today... A patient with an open wound below the neck and the hole was fixated with a safety pin..i was like:
It's so damn hot today, i almost died on the way back home. But tomorrow it should be raining and i have school again, so it's okay. Better to work on a hot day then sitting in a stuffy room and writing. I'm not doing shit today, but the next exams are already coming. Let me die I guess i take a little look in my books but not more. I need to relax and calm down a little bit, before i get a mental breakdown or something.
Exams are over. That was so shitty. At home i cried, 'cause i was so stressed. In Med School i almost puked because i was so nervous (笑). I failed Anatomy. So bad. But i don't fucking care anymore. I've done my best, now i have to wait for the results. It takes 2-3 weeks. When i don't pass, fuck off, i can repeat the term.
At least my cat was cuddly today, so my day wasn't thaaaat bad.
In the evening we made a barbeque in the garden. It was really nice to sit there, with a cocktail & relaxing...well okay, those insects were quite annoying i was screaming every second (笑). It's almost 23pm so i'm going to bed, i'm tired.
