personal stuff..

Somehow i feel sad today. I just remember how things have been before we
moved here. I left all my friends and all the people i love. Now i'm all
alone here. I don't have someone to talk to in my everyday life...My life
is just like this: going to School, studying, eating, sleeping, studying,
going to School, eating, sleeping.

Where's the fun? I was a happy person, i laughed everyday. And now i became
somehow... bitter.

wierd.

I had some wierd dream today. I dreamed i already had the exams.
And i failed. All my teachers where there and some Soldiers from
Bundeswehr. With dogs.
DOGS !!

Mrs. W. : Do the muscle function test for the dogs.
Me: But i can't do it. That's not working!
Mrs. W. : YOU CAN CHRISTINE, DO IT!

I don't remember more. (笑)
THANK GOD THAT WAS HORRIBLE (笑)



Before i went to the birthday of a friend.



Only a half month until i see Gackt-san in Cologne. So excited

Gonna watch a movie now and then going to bed.



C.

oh.my.god.

Only 6 days til the exams. I'm studying like a maniac, i really don't want to
know how i look like right now. With dark circled eyes and the hair totally
messed up
Pathology and Physiology are done, Anatomy is left.
I DON'T WANNA DO THIS ZEIFUEURGEUZZGFFEGUZ <---- uncontrolled emotions.

Panic level: 8/10

It's the perfect weather for studying.Cold and it's raining.
Nothing special happened these days, just studying, eating, studying, sleep
(i need more of that. 4-5 hours aren't enough)




Taking a break from studying, or else my brain explodes.



C.

yeah.

I'm not doing stuff today, because my motivation is lying under my bed,
crying. I feel good today, so i just want to relax.
My books have to wait.
Panic level: 0/10

Today my new dress arrived




And i got a present from my mother, she was like: "Oh,you're studying so
hard these days, i bought you a shoe." Well okay. A SHOE. A single shoe.
But it's not only a shoe....



This people, is a...



CHOCOLATE SHOE

I love Chocolate. When you want to make me happy, buy me chocolate



C.

short update.

Seriously, everything sucks so much,i can't. I don't have the strength to go on
anymore, i think i'm leaving Med School. I feel like shit for almost a whole
week. I can't eat,i have headaches like some gnomes are sitting in my head
and partying or some shit. I'm nervous,tired,afraid and stressed. Only 10 days
til the exams

Panic level: 7/10



C.