I took a short handheld movie in my house!
My host sister J. and the girl who lives next door A. and me(voice only) are in it.
A. burped three times in the video! Well, she's American kid...It's 1minute and 3 seconds long.
You don't need to see it because it's redicurously rundom.
The day after I wrote that I was down, I was crying in my room, and then I think my host mom knoticed I was crying somehow. She called me and asked what was going on.
I was still crying, and I couldn't say anything. I couldn't spit it out.
Well, at the end, after crying with her for a while I opened up. Not everything, but I told her that I was tired of a lot of things.
She hugged me, shared time with me, and tried to cheer me up. Also she gave me my time alone.
I cried again because of her kindness.
Things don't change that fast.
But I should stop thinking that it's too late to start over.
It's not that easy to me, but it shouldn't be too hard.
Gosh, I don't have enough time to do what I'm supposed to do.
I've attachet the pictures of the chocolate bunny which I got for easter.
I've kept it since easter but I ate it to cheer up myself. Actually, I have eaten only his ears and head. So he's headless now...
Look at his shiny eye! Cute.
Now he's naked.
I'm gonna eat ya.
*Sigh*
I need not to behave like depressed at all in the school. It gets worse if I do that.
I'm better now, and I wanna think that I'm still getting better.
I'm down.
I don't even know how to express it right now.
I just can't see it.
I mean... I see what I'm doing and the way everybody else is, but there's something I can't see.
Some things are not the way I want.
I know that's the life, but some of them are so hard to deal with.
I don't know how to control it.
I cried. I cried to myself a few times this week.
I can't cry to somebody else.
I'm too tired.
疲れた…
自分と周りに対しての苛立ちが大きくなり過ぎてる。
I'm a minority.
I see things from the different point of view.
There's time people don't understand me, the way how I think and act.
When they don't understand my belief-- how I think the way it shoul be, it makes me cry...
根本から違うのって、結構きつい。
I'm not homesick at all.
I just have been struggling and I'm starting to get tired.
I know I'm strong enough to get over this... I have to be confident of what I am.
I couldn't write about it earlier because I've been busy these days but--
Prom was AWESOME!
Look at the picture! It's me, my date A., and my friend T., from left to right. You can see the bigger one if you click it.
I wore white and red. My nails were red french nails and my cosage was red roses as you can see in the photo. I got my hair all up and curly.
And guess how sweet my host mom was? She let me use the necklace she had worn at her wedding!
It was fun to watch everybody dressing nicely. There were various dresses and some people had cute and gorgeous ones I loved. But of course I loved mine too, although I stepped on it a few times... Oviously I'm not used to that kind of long dress. LOL
I danced, ate, talked with people, and had fun! I dance a lot, by the way.
I saw my friends and classmates with their boyfriends and girlfriends. Actually, most of peop
le were couples. But I didn't regret I chose my really good friend A.(the one wearing black dress in the photo) as my prom date. Sometimes it's more fun with just friends-- not guys.
I had really good time with my friends.
But definately, it was once-in-my-life thing. I would never wear a dress like that if I didn't come here.
I'll take my dress to Japan, but I don't know if I'm gonna wear it again or not. ( Probablly not... but I will keep it)
We had after-prom thingy and it was fun too. At the end, we-- me and my date-- went home at around 5 in the morning.
Prom is coming! It is this Suturday, April 21st.
It was a few days ago, but I finally bought a dress!
As I wrote, I was thinking about getting black or red dress, but the one I actually got is mostly white and partly red.
I tried it on...
You can't see in the picture but actually it's really long and fluffy-big.
I don't know... Maybe I should have chosen the other one I was thinking about. I loved that one's style, but the color --light pink and partly white-- didn't really fit me.
I tried lots of dresses. I don't even remember how many dressed I tried on.
This one matches me. My skin color, hair color, and size. My host mom and sister, who I went prom shopping with, even said that this dress looked good on me.
Needless to say, I've never worn a dress like this. Well, I didn't have any opportunity to wear dress in Japan.
OMG, I'm getting so-oooo excited!
I'm gonna have my nails done, my hair done, make-ups done, and get flowers for my date.
When my host mom ( I wanna use just "mom" for her, but just not to make anybody confused ) told me that (hair appointment, nails done, make-ups, flowers...), I was like "What!? Why do I need all that kinda stuff?? 
" and she was like "Cuz-- PROM IS A BIG DEAL!!!"
I love her and I owe her everything.
