The day after I wrote that I was down, I was crying in my room, and then I think my host mom knoticed I was crying somehow. She called me and asked what was going on.
I was still crying, and I couldn't say anything. I couldn't spit it out.
Well, at the end, after crying with her for a while I opened up. Not everything, but I told her that I was tired of a lot of things.
She hugged me, shared time with me, and tried to cheer me up. Also she gave me my time alone.
I cried again because of her kindness.
Things don't change that fast.
But I should stop thinking that it's too late to start over.
It's not that easy to me, but it shouldn't be too hard.
Gosh, I don't have enough time to do what I'm supposed to do.
I've attachet the pictures of the chocolate bunny which I got for easter.
I've kept it since easter but I ate it to cheer up myself. Actually, I have eaten only his ears and head. So he's headless now...
Look at his shiny eye! Cute.
Now he's naked.
I'm gonna eat ya.
*Sigh*
I need not to behave like depressed at all in the school. It gets worse if I do that.
I'm better now, and I wanna think that I'm still getting better.