let down.

God...


the feeling that I'm going to let them down is fucking horrible.





I keep beating myself over it...

physically still.




There's a weak spot on my jaw, there hurts the most.

Times...

I'm on my way home from my week away.


I went to Lincoln to stay with the lover.




Lincoln is beautiful...I want to be back there.

My lover's family is just as beautiful.



I don't want to go home.I think I'm getting ill again.

I was supposed to return home yesterday, but I got ill and I was made to stay another night.


...


Last night was horrible.





Fight.



Not much sleep.



ill.





Horrible.



My nightmares are getting worse and more frequent.






Help?




I need to talk to 綾子.

See if she Can get me in contact with someone.






See you later~☆