長女・千璃が10年過ごしたスペシャルスクールから、新しい場所に移って２週間。
心身共に、とてもハードな時間を過ごしている。
千璃は新しい環境に慣れるのにとても時間がかかる。
見えない世界で、これまで聴き慣れていた声と匂いと人肌を突然失い、
まったく知らない空間に置き去りにされたら、当然のことだろう。
これまでの学校は、大自然の中で自給自足、自分たちで栽培した食材を使う。
オーガニック素材に慣れ切っている身体に、初日からピザの試練。
他の入寮者は「ピザパーティー」に大喜びしている横で、泣いているだけだった。
とはいえ、私たちがずっと泊まり込んで見守るわけにはいかず、
呼ばれたらいつでも飛んでいけるようにしたまま、スタッフに託するしかない。
最初の数日は、ベッドで眠ることができなかったらしい。
千璃にとっては数少ない「セーフティーゾーン」の変化に戸惑っていたのだろう。
泣き疲れて、ソファで寝落ちして、また起きて泣く。
大雪の余韻が残る「ビッグデー」の次の訪問は、冬の雨が降る水曜日。
声を出さずに、遠くでそっと見守る。
ストレスで引っ掻きまくった胸元に、痛々しい傷を見つけて、
胸が張り裂けそうになったけれど、ここで挫けるわけにはいかない。
世界中の親御さんがきっと、同じ思いで我が子の巣立ちを見守っていくのだろう。
繋いだ手を離す時は、もうとっくに過ぎているのかもしれない。
It has been two weeks since our oldest daughter, Seri, moved from the special school where she spent ten years to a new place.
We are having a tough time, both physically and mentally.
It takes Seri a long time to get used to her new environment.
In her blindness world, she suddenly lost the voices, smells, and well-known humans she had been accustomed to hearing,
It would be natural for her to be confused and left behind in a completely unfamiliar space.
Before, the previous school was self-sufficient in the great outdoors, using ingredients grown by the students.
The first day was a pizza ordeal for Seri's body accustomed to organic ingredients.
She was crying next to the other boarders who were overjoyed with their "pizza party."
However, we couldn't stay and watch over them all the time,
We had to leave her in the hands of the staff, ready to go in whenever we were called.
For the first few days, she could not sleep in his bed.
She was puzzled by the change in one of the few "safety zones" for Seri.
Tired of crying, she fell asleep on the couch and woke up to cry again.
The next visit on the "Big Day," the aftermath of the heavy snowfall, was a Wednesday with winter rain.
It took two hours to finally arrive after taking a train and a car.
I watched softly from afar, not speaking out loud.
I find a painful scar on her chest, scratched by stress,
I felt like my heart was about to burst, but I couldn't stop it from happening.
I am sure parents worldwide will watch over their children as they leave the nest with the same feelings.
The time to let go of the hand we have joined may have long passed.
