能登半島地震、航空機事故と、痛ましい出来事が相次いだ2024年の始まり。
新しい年を慶ぶ言葉を放つことすら悩ましく、気が付けばすでに１月半ば。
それでもずっと長く応援してくださっている方々へ.
本年もどうぞよろしくお願いいたします。
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一昨年、母が他界してから、思うように筆が進まないことが多くなってしまった。
故郷を離れていることを言い訳にして、日本のことは姉弟に頼り切っていたら、
昨年初夏に姉が倒れて、私は自分の無力さに途方に暮れた。
気軽に日頃の徒然を語ろうと続けてきたこの場なのに、
誰のために、何のためにと思えば思うほど、本音を吐き出せなくなる現実。
自分が大変だった過去は、もうずっと遠くに置いてきた。
辛かった日々の想いはどんどん薄れていき、日々、記憶の空白時間が増えていく。
睡眠障害は、PTSD症候群のひとつ。
記憶の喪失は、更年期のせいもあるのかな。
「ひとつのいのち」の尊さを、全世界の人々が噛み締めている今。
2024年は、もう少しだけ、丁寧に生きてみたいと思う。
小さな目標を、少しずつ叶えられるように。
会いたい人に、会える時に会えますように。
The year 2024 began with tragic events, including the Noto Peninsula earthquake and the airplane accident.
It is hard even to release a few words to congratulate the new year, and before I know it, it is already mid-January.
Still, to those who have been supporting me for a long time,
I look forward to your continued support in the new year.
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Since my mother passed away the year before last, I have not been able to write as much as I would like.
I used being away from my hometown as an excuse and relied on my sister and brother to take care of things in Japan,
When my sister had a severe illness in the early summer of last year, I was at a loss for my helplessness.
I have continued to use this blog to talk about my daily life casually,
The more I think about who or what I am doing this for, the more I cannot express my true feelings.
I have put the past far away in which I had a hard time.
The thoughts of my difficult days are fading away, and the blank time in my memory is increasing day by day.
My sleep disturbance is one of the PTSD syndromes.
I wonder if the loss of my memory is partly due to menopause.
People worldwide are chewing on the preciousness of "one life. "
In 2024, I would like to live a little more carefully.
I will try to fulfill my small goals little by little.
May we be able to meet the people we want to meet when we want to meet them.
