the expectedly boring business trip does not seem to be that bad after all..
learnt a lot about the consumer market for beauty and medical products.
as gay as it would sound, who in the world does not want to be healthy and look good?
the trip kicks off with dad and me leaving my house at 21:00 for the airport via charter.
it felt so hard leaving home b/c id rather spend more time with mom even if i forget about finishing my costumes... *was still pissed off with dad*
6.5 hrs later, we reached the airport (yea, i live that far away) after stopping 2-3x for breaks n supper.
i had little sleep along the way.. like between the breaks only?
3:30am, we hobo-ed ard the airport b/c indonesian airport workers are thay lazy and that my state is that poor to have any flights that arrive at 3am.
tried to catch some sleep at the benches ard the arrival hall (or pick-up point) but ended up testing to plau my "newly" bought pokemon game ftlols.
yes, joo herd meeee??
Pork-Quay-Manhs!!
heartgold ver. b/c im tt gay.
but my DS died.
darn joo sis for not charging it after playing cooking mama. go to hell xD
dad and i hardly spoke along the way..
even after we got in to the waiting lounge.
he must have known that i did not want to go.. with him.. somehow.. ?
*to be continued*
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i only have about 1 minute before my dad calls me to leave this lounge to board for our flight to HK
DDX
so not looking forward to the trip..
*wants to stay at home with mum and sis*
i want to finish my Ciel costume too
DDX
anyways
just to update about my life..
lots of shiz had happened at home.
i've been clashing with dad quite a lot..
i did try to ignore him, but he's my dad and it is wrong for me to do that..
to him, me ignoring seems like i'm running away from my problems.
and of course, showing no respect to him.
a note about the issues with my cosplay life:
it is something that i cannot 100% give up upon.
as long as i make sure to not make any costume when i have uni
organize my time properly
know my priorities
so i'm not going to give it up.
it's something that is becoming more and more as a part of me ^^;
so... who says i cannot be a successful fashion/game designer who cosplays?? ;p
i will work hard from now on!
OSSU!!
to everyone who has supported me:
THANKS A BILLION!!
thank you for believing in me and for making me stronger!
DDX
so not looking forward to the trip..
*wants to stay at home with mum and sis*
i want to finish my Ciel costume too
DDX
anyways
just to update about my life..
lots of shiz had happened at home.
i've been clashing with dad quite a lot..
i did try to ignore him, but he's my dad and it is wrong for me to do that..
to him, me ignoring seems like i'm running away from my problems.
and of course, showing no respect to him.
a note about the issues with my cosplay life:
it is something that i cannot 100% give up upon.
as long as i make sure to not make any costume when i have uni
organize my time properly
know my priorities
so i'm not going to give it up.
it's something that is becoming more and more as a part of me ^^;
so... who says i cannot be a successful fashion/game designer who cosplays?? ;p
i will work hard from now on!
OSSU!!
to everyone who has supported me:
THANKS A BILLION!!
thank you for believing in me and for making me stronger!
i give up cosplaying.
TBH, i still don't have the heart to do it and i don't think i'll ever will.
the point of me, cosplaying is ONLY to show people what i've made.
when i put on something i have made, that is when i AM doing it.
the point that my dad takes is:
1. it RUINS my ENTIRE life (societal image, time, etc..) and will not benefit my studies and future
2. it affects my studies greatly
3. it wastes too much money
for #1
as much time as i have, i do agree that cosplaying takes up quite a huge portion of it.
however, i understand my limits very well. which is why when i do have cosplays,
i avoid doing it during the time when i was supposed to study.
i HAVE PLANNED IT ALL OUT.
it's just that during april, it got fucked up *hint*.
another mistake of me was to begin going all out and pile too much on my list.
by all means, i am wrong.
society's image of me?
it's the least i'd actually care...
i don't care what my older relatives (in Indo) think about me cosplaying, what's more important is to balance out having fun and being proper, and to present myself in public properly (behaviour and what i speak).
i DO NOT throw myself among men when cosplaying NOR do i do anything outrageous to the other gender.
my cosplay partner is a girl and most of my cosplay friends are FEMALES.
i can't lie the fact that i have cosplayed as partners with a male before because the character called for it.
but what you see is all ACTING.
and cosplay IS acting, a form of art.
so.. how blunt is my dad to see that those smiles are fake?
and also, to think i am that irresponsible ALL THE TIME?
cosplaying = not related to studies
in a sense, it is a little off the tangent.
say, what about people who cosplay pac man, Link - LoZ, the elves from Linage and... final fantasy characters?
cosplay is part of the culture in games.
or metaculture, to be more exact.
shall i mention about it being part of the psychological study in games?
for #2
no doubt, it did.
because of the great shit that happened in april.
i don't want to start picking on names because i should have taken my own precaution.
on my side, i should have worked harder to complete my assignments as well as study for exams.
however, i had a month's extra worth of work to finish and my assignments load had increased exponentially (like an e ^x graph? sadly i still know my math by fingertips).
it would have been accomplishable if i HAD NOT derailed myself to watch youtube EVERY SINGLE TIME i work on my assignments.
so i blame "myselfXyoutube".
i was watching game videos.
sorry ce novi and ce cindy for gobbling up so much of our internet quota.
it's really embarassing to know that i'm so outdated with all these games when i'm actually studying games shit in uni.
still, dad, you said i cosplayed EVERY MONTH.
you got the dates wrong.
facebook only tells when those cosplay photos ARE UPLOADED.
i did not cosplay in march.
out of those, i only made costumes in jan, feb and april.
the rest are wardrobe junkies, overnight modified garments and stuffs i borrowed off people.
for #3
it IS an expensive hobby.
but the most i have spent on a costume is $250.
yet you said, 1k? $500? for EACH costume?
it is not as if i do NOT try to save money elsewhere.
i DO plan my finances unconsciously.
i have NOT bought new clothes except for t-shirts that i wear to uni because the ones that i have are getting old.
it is also not as if i don't know how hard you and mom are working to support me.
it is NOT as if i don't know our current economical situation is going downhill.
but you think you can make me concentrate on my studies FULLY when i don't know what is going on?
are you implying to me that you see me as one heartless bitch?
funny seeing your daughter as a (heartless) female dog
but whatever.
you said you will not let me continue my studies if i don't stop cosplaying.
you said you will divorce mom if i continue cosplaying.
fine.
so be it.
i really have nothing to say.
you also think that i will not be able to make it doing game studies because of my science and math background.
you mention that i can never write stories.
so as you know, i WILL prove you wrong and smack those words back at you.
because now, i HATE you so much for taking everything i love away from me.
you once did.
you took art away from me by banning me from drawing.
oh.. the countless manga i drew and threw away when i was 10.. till i had completely stopped writing manga because it's embarrassingly useless in front of him..
then i had to fight so hard to just get it back..
it's not that i don't want to listen to you.
it's just that.. do try to understand that i have my own opinions.
they may not always be right.
after all, i'm a human, i'm not born to be perfect, i make mistakes, i do not have identical brains with anyone.
i do not have an IQ of 1294306528901 like you nor do we think the same.
TBH, i still don't have the heart to do it and i don't think i'll ever will.
the point of me, cosplaying is ONLY to show people what i've made.
when i put on something i have made, that is when i AM doing it.
the point that my dad takes is:
1. it RUINS my ENTIRE life (societal image, time, etc..) and will not benefit my studies and future
2. it affects my studies greatly
3. it wastes too much money
for #1
as much time as i have, i do agree that cosplaying takes up quite a huge portion of it.
however, i understand my limits very well. which is why when i do have cosplays,
i avoid doing it during the time when i was supposed to study.
i HAVE PLANNED IT ALL OUT.
it's just that during april, it got fucked up *hint*.
another mistake of me was to begin going all out and pile too much on my list.
by all means, i am wrong.
society's image of me?
it's the least i'd actually care...
i don't care what my older relatives (in Indo) think about me cosplaying, what's more important is to balance out having fun and being proper, and to present myself in public properly (behaviour and what i speak).
i DO NOT throw myself among men when cosplaying NOR do i do anything outrageous to the other gender.
my cosplay partner is a girl and most of my cosplay friends are FEMALES.
i can't lie the fact that i have cosplayed as partners with a male before because the character called for it.
but what you see is all ACTING.
and cosplay IS acting, a form of art.
so.. how blunt is my dad to see that those smiles are fake?
and also, to think i am that irresponsible ALL THE TIME?
cosplaying = not related to studies
in a sense, it is a little off the tangent.
say, what about people who cosplay pac man, Link - LoZ, the elves from Linage and... final fantasy characters?
cosplay is part of the culture in games.
or metaculture, to be more exact.
shall i mention about it being part of the psychological study in games?
for #2
no doubt, it did.
because of the great shit that happened in april.
i don't want to start picking on names because i should have taken my own precaution.
on my side, i should have worked harder to complete my assignments as well as study for exams.
however, i had a month's extra worth of work to finish and my assignments load had increased exponentially (like an e ^x graph? sadly i still know my math by fingertips).
it would have been accomplishable if i HAD NOT derailed myself to watch youtube EVERY SINGLE TIME i work on my assignments.
so i blame "myselfXyoutube".
i was watching game videos.
sorry ce novi and ce cindy for gobbling up so much of our internet quota.
it's really embarassing to know that i'm so outdated with all these games when i'm actually studying games shit in uni.
still, dad, you said i cosplayed EVERY MONTH.
you got the dates wrong.
facebook only tells when those cosplay photos ARE UPLOADED.
i did not cosplay in march.
out of those, i only made costumes in jan, feb and april.
the rest are wardrobe junkies, overnight modified garments and stuffs i borrowed off people.
for #3
it IS an expensive hobby.
but the most i have spent on a costume is $250.
yet you said, 1k? $500? for EACH costume?
it is not as if i do NOT try to save money elsewhere.
i DO plan my finances unconsciously.
i have NOT bought new clothes except for t-shirts that i wear to uni because the ones that i have are getting old.
it is also not as if i don't know how hard you and mom are working to support me.
it is NOT as if i don't know our current economical situation is going downhill.
but you think you can make me concentrate on my studies FULLY when i don't know what is going on?
are you implying to me that you see me as one heartless bitch?
funny seeing your daughter as a (heartless) female dog
but whatever.
you said you will not let me continue my studies if i don't stop cosplaying.
you said you will divorce mom if i continue cosplaying.
fine.
so be it.
i really have nothing to say.
you also think that i will not be able to make it doing game studies because of my science and math background.
you mention that i can never write stories.
so as you know, i WILL prove you wrong and smack those words back at you.
because now, i HATE you so much for taking everything i love away from me.
you once did.
you took art away from me by banning me from drawing.
oh.. the countless manga i drew and threw away when i was 10.. till i had completely stopped writing manga because it's embarrassingly useless in front of him..
then i had to fight so hard to just get it back..
it's not that i don't want to listen to you.
it's just that.. do try to understand that i have my own opinions.
they may not always be right.
after all, i'm a human, i'm not born to be perfect, i make mistakes, i do not have identical brains with anyone.
i do not have an IQ of 1294306528901 like you nor do we think the same.