its feels good to be useful during this short week before uni starts..
at least i'm not sitting at home, watching shows and collecting fats.
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i am not going to cosplay anymore
for real.
to all those affected, i am truly very sorry
as some people may have predicted based on my previous blog entries,
i have not done well in uni.
despite studying something i want.
to make up for this,
i will give up cosplaying so that i can study 100%.
therefore i will not be bringing back any materials i have bought nor any parts of the costumes i have made.
and i WILL NOT attend any future events.
to all those affected,
i am truly very sorry for being selfish.
it is my own fault for not working hard enough
and giving in to distractions when i supposedly could have treasured the time more wisely
to also made some wrong decisions and agreeing with two persons that have possibly sparked my failure this semester.
you can say i'm a traitor
hate me
for doing this
but i cannot allow my parents to split up such that my siblings have no one to provide for them if i continue cosplaying/sewing/photography
when i failed to study business
i feel it's because i was forced to do it even though there is a sliver of hope that i could at least have scraped through if i was a little stronger
still, i put the blame to my parents
so this time
they say if i were to fail it would be them again.
-- this is NOT true
but there is no way that they will believe me anyway..
the other consequence of me continuing to cosplay is
they will stop sending me money to study
in other words
i will not be able to continue my studies for my future
while i have only just started to build it
to Lisa, Evan, Angela, Skye, Tomi, Jo, Winnie and others
i really really am sorry
with the effect of what that has been going on at home
this is the decision i am sincerely going to take
and i have no regrets.
EDIT:
why a journal entry?
it's faster than PM-ing everyone one by one.
besides, sooner or later
the others will know
i hope this will make it clear as to how and why one of my passions has been extinguished in such a way
for real.
to all those affected, i am truly very sorry
as some people may have predicted based on my previous blog entries,
i have not done well in uni.
despite studying something i want.
to make up for this,
i will give up cosplaying so that i can study 100%.
therefore i will not be bringing back any materials i have bought nor any parts of the costumes i have made.
and i WILL NOT attend any future events.
to all those affected,
i am truly very sorry for being selfish.
it is my own fault for not working hard enough
and giving in to distractions when i supposedly could have treasured the time more wisely
to also made some wrong decisions and agreeing with two persons that have possibly sparked my failure this semester.
you can say i'm a traitor
hate me
for doing this
but i cannot allow my parents to split up such that my siblings have no one to provide for them if i continue cosplaying/sewing/photography
when i failed to study business
i feel it's because i was forced to do it even though there is a sliver of hope that i could at least have scraped through if i was a little stronger
still, i put the blame to my parents
so this time
they say if i were to fail it would be them again.
-- this is NOT true
but there is no way that they will believe me anyway..
the other consequence of me continuing to cosplay is
they will stop sending me money to study
in other words
i will not be able to continue my studies for my future
while i have only just started to build it
to Lisa, Evan, Angela, Skye, Tomi, Jo, Winnie and others
i really really am sorry
with the effect of what that has been going on at home
this is the decision i am sincerely going to take
and i have no regrets.
EDIT:
why a journal entry?
it's faster than PM-ing everyone one by one.
besides, sooner or later
the others will know
i hope this will make it clear as to how and why one of my passions has been extinguished in such a way
because i can DD:
i mentioned on facebook that i was playing Pokemon Heartgold ver. on DS
during my 1 week trip
i'm currently just past the 4th gym leader.
planning to not continue playing until i finish my costumes..
more pics from the trip..
dad with his pork rice @ Ajisen Ramen, HK international airport
he dislikes miso soup
the soup was given to my bro
*overkill*
bro and his miso-charsiu ramen
stuff i got..
OMFG!! RILAKKUMA!!
and the one on the left :D
but the contents are more or less the same as the prev one i got in SG (the one on the right)
*feels cheated*
okies~
shall update about the progress with my costumes @ my fc2 blog tomorrow~