無理なもんゎ無理だようっ＞＜;!!!

あたしやっぱりダメだ…

無理ｨｲｲ[ х▽х;]

耐えらんないっ

気付いてしまった以上…

見なかったことにゎ出来ない

自分の立場も周りの立場も

分かってるんだけど

分かりたくない。

だってやっぱし意味分かんないもん。

納得できないｗｗ

こんなの辛すぎるよ

こんなの誰も望んでないよ

どっちも正しくないんだから

もはやどっち取ったってよくね？

責任の取り方ゎ分かんないけど

望む形で取るからさ。

まぢもうほんと綺麗事とかいらないからぁ～～～っ
ヾ(≧へ≦)/゛

一つ失わないと一つ得られないのかもね！

絶対に失えないもののためなら

失ってもいいよ。

常に覚悟ゎ出来てる。

ちなみに死ぬ覚悟も…笑

↑一気にシリアスさ増したけど笑

とにかくー！！！

ム・リ

あたしも頑固な人間なんだょ。。。

はいってすぐ引き下がるょぅな

Yesｳｰﾏﾝぢゃないんだからっ

従わせようなんてとんでもないわ

やっぱり私人生損したくない。

ヤバイっっ＞＜！！！

=BIGBANG=

Tell Me Goodbye

GD/
Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Yo I got this, yeah
still thinking about this thing alot, you got me shaken up
(Please tell me there's a way)
And it got my head just spinnin' round round round round
(Please tell me there's a way)
Don't wanna take a fall, It's best to break it up
It's gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there's a way)
Uh huh we break it break it, Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear 君の事を
1秒でも悲しませない約束
守るためにはもう,もうこれしか選ぶ道はないから

Maybe 愛した分だけ傷付けてしまう
and I've got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 抱きしめた手を
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 離そう
僕を忘れる事で自由になるなら Baby
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye

Girl you know 君が笑顔なくしていくほど
僕は自分を責めるよ

慰める言葉も　光りさえも
何もかも見失う

Baby この唇が離れた瞬間に
I'll never find better, better than you

Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 抱きしめた手を
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 離そう
そばにいる事だけが優しさじゃないと Baby
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye

TOP/
Yo and it's so, so
Sad it just ain't happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to scrapping But I just can't let ya
Shouldn't be less than happy I said look at me
I couldn't live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve Baby you was a part
Must believe that it hurts that lead this world
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
to be let you go I wish that one soul

君の声切なくFade away
風にかき消されていくStay

これ以上は I can't take it
その涙 Don't cry for me

君のために I'll never look back again

Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 抱きしめた手を
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye 離そう
そばにいる事だけが優しさじゃないと Baby
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye, Tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

Okay,finally I'm coming back to this world!!! :)

hey, guys！！

how is your life goin？

Well....

Friends, sorry for worrying you about ME！

Nah～NOT sorry, but thanks for thinkin about me! hehe

Ammm....

I was super depressed, mad n sometimes crazy.

I cried n cried n cried all day long....

I completely got LOST.

I wasted my life.

I haven't done ATH for these three months！

That's weird～！:P

I knew I was stupid, though.

I couldn't BUT now FINALLY I can feel that I stand the next stage！

Anyway, did you watch the movie, "Sex and the City" tonight？

I'm asking ppl in Japan 'cuz it was broadcasted on TV.

I watched it again, n it encouraged me！

I'm so simple, right? lol

Thanks to the popular n gorgeous movie!!! haha

Can you believe this？

Especially, Carrie made me cheer up！

I sympathized her feelings, REALLY!!

I was about to cry....

Lately, I strongly feel that n notice that I'm a WOMAN!!

Troublesome in a sense, shit！haha

But at the same time I also think that the opportunity to recover

might come unwillingly MUCH MORE easily than I expected ;)

Maybe life is like this.

I should learn what life is like.

But I know I still....

I'm not okay completely....

I dunno the day will come that I will get over it, seriously.

I'm sure I will have nights to cry whole night.

I should live my life with it.

Time goes by every second however I am being, n whatever I do.

Ahhh～stressful! stressful! stressful!

I really wanna talk to someone in English!!!!!

Speaking English is already a part of my life, n

it helps me mentally.

Entertain ME!! Release ME!!

I don't want this situation any more....

I just wanna be FREE....

Of course, I know I need to have responsibilities to get it.

I'm already at the limit....

Wanna fly to the US n don't wanna come back forever＞＜!!!!

My English ability is not enough, though....:p

Andrew～～～I really need to talk to you!!!!

Come n see me to JAPAN!!!! lol

Fly to Japan for ME!

Anyway, I was searching for books that I needed then.

I was reading n reading

as if I were possessed by an evil spirit until dawn.... :(

The conclusion is I have DISEASE! ahaha

This is my excuse but this is also true. ahaha

It's fairly possible for everyone to have it!

I never say, "Be careful".

'Cuz I don't think it's bad.

あたしが腐りかけてること、皆知ってた…！笑

すまんね、まぢで笑。

あたしの顔を見るなり…

『メアリー！！！大丈夫っ？:(　』

って…。涙

あたしが何事かと思うほど。。。

ほんとご迷惑お掛けしますm(__)m

まあ確かに奇妙だわねっメアリーじゃないもんね＞＜

でもだいぶ涙も場をわきまえる様になってきたから笑、

大丈夫よ♪

急に泣き出したりするかもだけど。笑

久々に皆と絡んで元気出たよ^^☆

本当にありがとう。

I'll take back destructive n eyes.

I'll be attractive n fascinate so many guys～

Watch me. I'll be stronger, never defeated.

And, I declare my decision.

I don't give up w/ it.

I will satisfy my wish FOR MYSELF someday in the future.

Now, there is nth. That's all. I know this is not my fate.

Maybe I just wanna believe it. But that's no matter.

I don't let them rob of my life.

I'll take it even if it's an indirect path n live my life as usual.

Mary is n will be coming back SOON in front of YOU

英語めちゃくちゃだけど、あしからず(-ω-)