hey, guys！！
how is your life goin？
Well....
Friends, sorry for worrying you about ME！
Nah～NOT sorry, but thanks for thinkin about me!
hehe
Ammm....
I was super depressed, mad n sometimes crazy.
I cried n cried n cried all day long....
I completely got LOST.
I wasted my life.
I haven't done ATH for these three months！
That's weird～！:P
I knew I was stupid, though.
I couldn't BUT now FINALLY I can feel that I stand the next stage！
Anyway, did you watch the movie, "Sex and the City" tonight？
I'm asking ppl in Japan 'cuz it was broadcasted on TV.
I watched it again, n it encouraged me！
I'm so simple, right? lol
Thanks to the popular n gorgeous movie!!! haha
Can you believe this？
Especially, Carrie made me cheer up！
I sympathized her feelings, REALLY!!
I was about to cry....
Lately, I strongly feel that n notice that I'm a WOMAN!!
Troublesome in a sense, shit！haha
But at the same time I also think that the opportunity to recover
might come unwillingly MUCH MORE easily than I expected ;)
Maybe life is like this.
I should learn what life is like.
But I know I still....
I'm not okay completely....
I dunno the day will come that I will get over it, seriously.
I'm sure I will have nights to cry whole night.
I should live my life with it.
Time goes by every second however I am being, n whatever I do.
Ahhh～stressful! stressful! stressful!
I really wanna talk to someone in English!!!!!
Speaking English is already a part of my life, n
it helps me mentally.
Entertain ME!! Release ME!!
I don't want this situation any more....
I just wanna be FREE....
Of course, I know I need to have responsibilities to get it.
I'm already at the limit....
Wanna fly to the US n don't wanna come back forever＞＜!!!!
My English ability is not enough, though....:p
Andrew～～～I really need to talk to you!!!!
Come n see me to JAPAN!!!! lol
Fly to Japan for ME!
Anyway, I was searching for books that I needed then.
I was reading n reading
as if I were possessed by an evil spirit until dawn.... :(
The conclusion is I have DISEASE! ahaha
This is my excuse but this is also true. ahaha
It's fairly possible for everyone to have it!
I never say, "Be careful".
'Cuz I don't think it's bad.
あたしが腐りかけてること、皆知ってた…！笑
すまんね、まぢで笑。
あたしの顔を見るなり…
『メアリー！！！大丈夫っ？:( 』
って…。涙
あたしが何事かと思うほど。。。
ほんとご迷惑お掛けしますm(__)m
まあ確かに奇妙だわねっメアリーじゃないもんね＞＜
でもだいぶ涙も場をわきまえる様になってきたから笑、
大丈夫よ♪
急に泣き出したりするかもだけど。笑
久々に皆と絡んで元気出たよ^^☆
本当にありがとう。
I'll take back destructive n eyes.
I'll be attractive n fascinate so many guys～
Watch me. I'll be stronger, never defeated.
And, I declare my decision.
I don't give up w/ it.
I will satisfy my wish FOR MYSELF someday in the future.
Now, there is nth. That's all. I know this is not my fate.
Maybe I just wanna believe it. But that's no matter.
I don't let them rob of my life.
I'll take it even if it's an indirect path n live my life as usual.
Mary is n will be coming back SOON in front of YOU 
英語めちゃくちゃだけど、あしからず(-ω-)