(originally posted on 2017-02-13 | 16:44:30)
Looooooooook!
I’ve got this gorgeous rose bouquet from Mr. Sada for Valentine’s Day.
I am happily frozen.
This is way too much for me.
Mr. Sada, who is an alumnus of my high school,
once wrote me a very heartfelt letter too.
That letter means a lot.
When I think of myself being diagnosed with cancer,
I often get some feelings that deny who I was.
I deny
the way I take care of my body,
the way I think,
and at the end, the way I live my life…
Where did I take the wrong gear?
What should I have done at that time?
I blame myself for what I have done or have not done in the past.
His letter helped me realize something.
When I saw him giving us a commencement speech at my high school graduation,
I never imagined that one day I would receive a letter from him.
Considering this,
I can forgive myself
at least for having been living every day to the fullest,
filled with unexpected excitements.
For that, I am truly grateful.
This flower gift reminded me of that again!!
Self-forgiveness.