(originally posted on 2016-12-10 | 12:35:50)
The side effect of radiation therapy is worse than I expected,
I am terribly unwell.
A sore throat and back pain,
Since I wasn’t informed these were the part of the side effects of radiotherapy,
I felt very anxious,
which was emotionally devastating.
I also realized myself that I was still seeking for a solution from someone
despite the fact that I had already struggled so much.
Even taking a break can be a struggle for me.
If life would last forever,
I would be happy to rest a bit.
But, as I see its end, I don’t need a break.
I would rather fight as hard as I could.
It is said:
“Live life as if today is your last day living.”
But, when you are sick,
I would say,
“Live as if you will live forever.”
At least, it works better for me.
I might change my mind next week.
But, I should go easy, for now.
Because if I think that way, I can breathe better now.