(originally posted on 2016-10-03 | 14:54:06)
I am probably at the stage where the permanent cure cannot be expected.
I seriously studied myself about this disease.
I think I have enough knowledge to understand that my disease is inextirpable.
And that is why I said to my doctor:
“I want to beat my cancer.
I want to cause a miracle to happen!!”
The doctor got silent for a few seconds and said:
“You must make steady and persistent efforts firmly grounded in daily life.
Ignoring so never brings you any single miracle.“
I had tried a few hospitals until I met this doctor.
Considering my situation, I had hesitation to mention that I was still hoping the permanent cure.
But,
finally,
I was able to express myself!!
It is not difficult to carry big dreams and goals within your mind.
But it is also okay to open up yourself and proudly say your inner feelings out.
I was too naive to speak up myself,
but now I don’t mind doing so!
I am at Stage 4.
But so what!?
I want to defeat it!!!
I have no single spare moment to be hesitant.
Because
I want my doctor also to believe that
I am on my path to make my miracle spark.
So I stand up now
and say lordly!
“I WANT TO STAY ALIVE 5 YEARS LATER, 10 YEARS LATER!
With any luck, 30 MORE YEARS!
No! 40 YEARS MORE!!!
I know 50 years is a bit too demanding.
Because
it is so precious to have a life in this world.
In order to make that happens,
I’ll do whatever I can do.
Victory is the sum of consistent efforts.
Noooooo,
I don’t like that…
