(originally posted on 2016-09-18 | 09:14:02)
I am now in my room
at the hospital,
taking baby steps.
A bit while ago,
The same doctor, who told me not to hide behind cancer, asked me:
“Mao! How did you see the sky today? How did it look to you?”
I said:
“I didn’t feel very well so I couldn’t have a chance to look up to the sky today.”
And Doctor said:
“That sounds a lame excuse!”
“I don’t really have any room for that!!”
- That’s what I replied in my mind.
Ever since we met,
my husband always says,
“It’s a beautiful sky today.“
“New flowers have arrived in the park.“
“Air is so fresh.“
I’ve never met with any other person who always talks about such things.
I was always like
“yes yes. it is…!”
I just said yes to him. J
didn’t really mean it….
That’s so true!!
I didn’t look up at the sky even when I was healthy.
I would admit that I am making an excuse that I am too sick to look up. J
Even though I look up at the sky
from the window of the hospital every day,
I don’t feel anything for most of the time.
But,
I can appreciate it
even if the sky looks heavy gray.