(originally posted on 2016-09-13 | 14:36:50)
One day in October 2014,
I was just hanging out with my little boy.
I slipped my hand underneath my cloth and touched my left breast without any thought.
!!!!???
I’ve got a foreboding feeling.
I’ve touched something.
Something like a pinball.
What is it?
My heart beats faster.
I’ve tried to touch it again and again.
Same...
I still feel a lump.
I’ve heard before that benign lumps roll between the fingers
whereas cancerous ones don’t.
Is this moving or not?
Can’t really figure it out…
But,
I was hoping that it was mobile,
so I put some pressure on it to make it roll.
I’ve tried it so hard.
My mind was receding.
I could barely hear my son and the noises that he was making with his toys.