If I look back 2013, it took strange turns.
At the end of 2012, I became his girlfriend. Sometimes, I really wish that I could go back that time. Start everything all over again.
I still remember when he saw me at the living room when he got back from Japan, and how we talked at night on the couch and how I went back to him and we officially decided to be in a relationship. I was so happy and there was anything else I wished for. Every time he mentioned me as a girlfriend, I felt happy inside and I felt like living in a dream.
If I could do everything all over again, I really want to do it.
But the reality is, that it didn't work out and we lost a lot.
In 2014, I will accept that and move on. I am really scared if I could ever love someone again, and feel happy again.
I have loved him for the past few years and that changed my life completely. Because him, I lost a lot of things and because of him, I gained a lot of things.
One thing for sure is that no one can live in a past. No matter how hard we wish for, we cannot go back to our past and relive it again.
That's why, we have to live everyday as if it is our last.
We have to be nice to people who we love and treasure the time we can spend with them.
I miss what I had and I miss all those days of happiness, but I cannot go back there.
We were not meant to be, Manami, I have to accept that.
I will be loved again, with someone who I love.
I can feel the love that I did on that day.
Even if it will be not with him.
At the end of 2012, I became his girlfriend. Sometimes, I really wish that I could go back that time. Start everything all over again.
I still remember when he saw me at the living room when he got back from Japan, and how we talked at night on the couch and how I went back to him and we officially decided to be in a relationship. I was so happy and there was anything else I wished for. Every time he mentioned me as a girlfriend, I felt happy inside and I felt like living in a dream.
If I could do everything all over again, I really want to do it.
But the reality is, that it didn't work out and we lost a lot.
In 2014, I will accept that and move on. I am really scared if I could ever love someone again, and feel happy again.
I have loved him for the past few years and that changed my life completely. Because him, I lost a lot of things and because of him, I gained a lot of things.
One thing for sure is that no one can live in a past. No matter how hard we wish for, we cannot go back to our past and relive it again.
That's why, we have to live everyday as if it is our last.
We have to be nice to people who we love and treasure the time we can spend with them.
I miss what I had and I miss all those days of happiness, but I cannot go back there.
We were not meant to be, Manami, I have to accept that.
I will be loved again, with someone who I love.
I can feel the love that I did on that day.
Even if it will be not with him.