自由

I can do whatever I want to do.
I can choose my path on my own.
I don't have to ask anyone for the permission, it's my life and I can do anything.


I am not sure if it's the same with Simon. He got himself into a lot of problems.
He has to help his mum.
He has to make his business successful.
He has to pay the mortgage.

But I think it's his "choice" weather he wants to have a future with me or not.
And he chose not to be with me.

I have to start facing the reality.
I have to stop tricking myself that someday things might change and we might end up together.


One part of me is really excited about this new opportunity, but I kind of wish that it was in Australia or somewhere else. I don't know how long I can be in New Zealand.


If I am here, I get weaker. I see him too often and I don't know what happens with us.

I should just enjoy spending time with him but at the same time, I have to close my heart to him and open my heart for someone else.

大丈夫。It's not like I can find the love of my life if I try to look for him hard, he appears in my life when the time is right.

Until then, just be who I am and stay happy.

:)